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I want to leave home, I hate it here and recently I’ve

started feeling unsafe when I’m around my parents =/ They aren’t violent or anything (at least not any more,) their health is terrible, the slightest slip could easily kill them both. My dad has about 5% sight left which is basically nothing, my mum had operations on her spine as a child and has a deformed foot. I’ve got a younger brother and an even younger sister. I just hate it here soo much >< It just seems to be always getting worse and worse as time goes on =/ I got us family counselling (just for me and my parents,)and aside from the fact we barely ever go because my parents are always ‘ill’ my mum has told me it isn’t working and I don’t think it is either. I’m 16, scared stupid I’m going to fail my exams and not do the stuff I want for A levels and that even when I get there it’s going to be too much work. All I want to do, is get a decent job (eventually,) be with my girlfriend (whom I love to bits ^^) and enjoy music and playing the piano/drums and gaming. I don’t know what to do about my home life though, I’ve self harmed a lot of times before (not just lots of little cuts, slow painful big cuts amongst a fair bit of just beating myself and headbanging). I just want to be happy, I always do my best to find excuses not to come home, I’ve gotten into trouble at school, not done work anything. My school work is really suffering because I find it incredibly hard to do any work at home because my family is ALWAYS shouting and trying to get me to do things for them, including my siblings homework.

I’m fairly smart I guess but I’ve tried everything I can to make things better at home. The only way out I see now is when I’m 18 I can marry my girlfriend and just move out. Or just kill myself =/

Help?

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An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (3 minutes after post)

If reasoning with your parents is out of the question, then for your own good, you need to find a new place to stay while you finish school. Perhaps a relative?

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An0nymous offline Verified User (9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (6 minutes after post)

I have very few living relatives, those that I do are either miles and miles away or out of the country completely.

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An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (13 minutes after post)

Then there are only two solutions. You can either work and go to night school, until university (if you intend to go).

Or you can endure it for two more years, until you are 18.

I’m sorry but there are few other options. If you feel unable to continue, then it may be worth looking to the state for help. They may have options for you, but its doubtful.

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An0nymous offline Verified User (9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (15 minutes after post)

Okay, thanks for your help.

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Burnt_Feet offline Verified User (9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (15 minutes after post)

It seems that you’re in a very difficult situation right now, and no one is listening to what you have to say. Your parents should be the people that you can go to talk about what’s troubling you, but you don’t have that luxury. I can’t begin to imagine how hard things are for you.

However, there are a few things I want to add which I feel might give you a bit of insight into things that are going on for you right now. First, as horrible as things are now, you -need- to realise that things are not going to be like this forever. They’re simply not. You’ll move out one day, you’ll get a job, perhaps even a family. While it can sometimes be so easy to get bogged down into the ‘now’ of it all — which can often be all too horrid — I often find that looking at what I’ll be getting to can make a nightmarish situation a less-frightening and debilitating one. Looking for that end goal, whatever it is for you, can really empower you when you’re at your lowest.

I would also like to add the self-harm and thoughts of suicide. PLEASE do not misinterpret this, but self-harm and suicidal thinking is not normal (and I’m not saying you are a ‘freak’ or ‘weirdo’, but that self-destructive behaviour and thinking is not cohesive to life!). As such, I would truly like to urge you to go and see your doctor at your earliest opportunity. Failing that, talk to the teacher you trust the most or, if you have one, your school nurse. What’s going on for you right now is not right. It simply isn’t. Everyone, at some time or another, needs someone to help get them through their rough patch. This seems to be an incredibly rough patch, so *please* seek consultation with your doctor or conversation with a teacher or nurse. If your school has a counsellor, it might be an idea to see if you can have a chat with them. You need to take care of yourself.

Be strong and look out for your butt, you’re the only one that will!

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (3 months, 1 week after post)

Hi. My name is Ash. Im sorry to here what you are going through… i can kinda understand becasue im going through the same but im only 15. my parents are not very sick but are weak. and yh…everyday ive thought of killing myself. everysingle day. well its probably why im talking to you now i just want to escape.

i think its amazing your gonna marry at 18 and have a good life. man… sucide is not the way. becasue u can escape eventually. my scholwork has been affected to and my parents have no condsideration for me or my brother and have an obsession with money. im sorry to here what ur going through but i dont no what to say really. ppl will tell u to go and c the doc and get conselling but i dont think thats what you wanna do- i wouldnt.

my only advise to you is that you have a siblings which u need to luk after and i no every1 will tell u this but ill just say it again because the thought of leaving my little brother in this dark place is unbelievable. its great u wanna marry ur girfriend at 18. it really is. it may be the best decsion of ur life… but just…just take a bit of time to think about it mate yh?

oh yh and hey gud luck with studys. if u are as smart as u say u are then u will do well. and i no its VERY VERY hard to study…. becasue i get constantly sworn at for sitting at my desk studying. my parents where both dropouts and they think its always good to quit education and get a job qucikly. DONT DO IT. becasue trust me… i swear on my life u do a bit of study and when u r older u will get that job you wnt.

hey dont kill urself. u g.f. and ur siblings may miss u. and hey life aint even begun yet… remeber ouve got a future. your parents life is nearly over. but yours has just begun. im sorry if i sound harsh but theres no way to sugar coat it.

hey if u wanna talk email yh? im not the best adviser in the world and u dont even no me but sometimes its beter just talking to a stranger.

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cya mate tc

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An Unknown Location | 4 months, 4 weeks ago (4 months, 1 week after post)

Dear AnOnymous,

Good for you for hanging in there until now. How difficult it would have been for you to try to make your family life work. It sounds like you’ve given your best from a very young age. A young person should be taken care of, guided with love and healthy discipline, and be nurtured. But many adults can’t do that because they had so much problem all their lives that they could not resolve. It seems like it’s beyond what you can do at this point.

I understand what you’re going through. I had my share of pain and hopelessness in my life during my young years. I am 35 now and I am glad that I didn’t end my life during that difficult time. Life is definitely worth living and I am stronger and more wonderful today because of those tough times.

It was very smart of you to reach out for help. There are people out there living close to you who can help you. Although it doesn’t seem like it sometimes, you’ll be surprised to find out otherwise. Go to a church and ask the pastor to help you. I don’t know where you live but go to the nearest Youth With A Mission base (www.ywam.org-this is the master website but there are many small offices in london and many other places in UK) and find people there to help you. You should take care of you first and then later you’ll be able to help your siblings so they can do the same. Doing their homework for them will not help them a bit. You’ll be able to help them tremendously just by showing them how you make right choices in life.

There’s still so much hope for you so don’t give up. You’re so young and there’s a whole life ahead of you. From what I’ve read, you seem like a genuine, smart and good-hearted young man who has the right mind. You’ll definitely make it in life. God created you so wonderfully. You have a very special, unique purpose in your life. The world is a better place because you are here. You might not see nothing but darkness now but you will find that purpose in your life. Your life is so precious and worthwhile. You should give your life a chance and find out what your life is meant to be.

don’t worry too much about a level course and how inadequate you will be for that. I have friends who have ph d for the sole reason of just hanging in there long enough taking one step at a time very slowly. First you need a secure, safe, calm environment which will not cause so much stress and depression in your everyday life. Or you need some means that can help you to make that secure spot in your home that will not be disturbed by others so you can endure two years until you become 18. And then you can focus more on what you will do for life and what you’ll be studying so you can have a career.

Go out and get help beyond internet. Go and see people’s faces and talk about your situation. Don’t give up until you find that person who truly cares and who can help you. You WILL find that person.

Don’t give up! Remember, the world will be a better place now and 10, 20, 30, 100 years from now because you’re here.

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