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I remember when i was a little girl problems weren’t such a big deal.

But now that im grown things dont seem the same. Iv’e been thru a lot and I fell like my life is worthless. manY things have happened to me that im not so sure how ive made it to the point that i’m now in. When i was 8 years old my parents got divorced. my life completely changed. No matter how much my mother hurted me and my brothers she had men coming in and out of her room everyday,every night’s. My mother got send to jail living me and my brothers behind. My aunt would take care of us. But it was as she didnt even existed. i was 12 by that time and i would have to take care for my brothers. they were 5,6,9. And my big sister (14) for all she care. She would party her life out. My mom and her were like best friends while me, she always left me behind since i was the “good girl”. i was the step sister out of 1 sister and three brothers. i really had no one to relate to. but then when i turn 13 my own cusin raped me. i kept it bottle up till this verry moment. when i turn 15 my mom settle down with some fucken guy. they got married behing our back. know he live with us. i meet the wrong people and was at the wrong places. i started using crystal,weed, crack…u name it ive done it and guess what my “mom” hast even knowdes it. thats how carless she is. i cut myselves all times of the day. many homies and homegurls have past away and its so hard for me to keep my selves alive. i tried several times to kill myselves tried the; choking,pills,overdose,been in comma for 3 months. ive been depress thru all the years of my life. i became a gangmember. school…carless. i used to run away a lot. and thats when my “mom” started carring. i know she dont give a ****. my house looks like a pig pen and what could she say? ” i’m tired”. seriously my life is drifting out of my life and theres nothing i can do. i lost my bestfriend. im worthless. i dont want to live. to hard. to slow….. i wish i could die.

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