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This world is like a prison.
It just occured to me, today. I was sitting inside a class full of people and the doors were open beside me, as the instructor was talking I began to look outside and daydream. And suddenly, after the buzzing of happiness that was w/me all day (because I’m going through life changes right now, that I see as positive). I began to feel this bittersweet sadness. I almost cried. It was strange, the sun was shining and children were laughing and there was energetic life outside. But then it hit me, this sudden comprehension and thus this bittersweet sadness, we’re trapped in these bodies, with these self-serving urges and fears. We’re imprisoned inside this existence. LOL, is this call existential angst? Ai, jeez.
I’ve talked to my therapist, *whom i was advised to go see, due to my being reduced to a slobbering, sobbing, melodramatic, weirdo when drinking, note: drink ALONE.* and she’s told me that she thinks I’m suffering from manic depression and should consider medication (wonder what she’d say about my sudden sadness today…bipolarism maybe? lol). I disagree with her medical advise. Altho, I”m not trained in these things, I know that problem-some human emotions, can be interpreted in different ways, based on POV. I feel moments of joy, like today. That’s normal, people can experience joy in prison. But still, I’m contained here and stuck for awhile. Cut-off from the “entirety” of the truth. And all I see, when I look around me, are people that feel this to0. This disjointedness. But the thing is, is that most of them have allowed this prison to consume them. They’ve allowed this disjointedness to become “normal” to them. And I feel so lonely around most people. And drained. And angry. Because unfortunately, when people fail, I feel their failure, when people succeed I feel their success. And I have too high of standards I think. I hate envy, but i do envy. I hate jealousy but I do hate jealousy. Those two, I’ve pretty much learned to weed out. Just start at the root and gnaw those things away. But anger. OmyGod, so much anger. I can’t put this away.
And I feel so juvenile and inept because of it. Help me.
Your body is not a prison, but a tool. Like a knife. You can use a knife for destruction, to kill, to damage. Or you can craft incredible art out of it. Your body is not dissimilar. You are only looking at things in a negative light, try to see the other side of the coin. You are here only once, make the most of it; because you wont be passing this way again.
there is islamic statement says:first life is a prison for blievers and heaven for non blievers
as bliever would have the best in the other life while the non bliever enjoying this short life and would be prevented from real heaven lastly
if ur body does not please u,make ur soul do that
make ur soul pure,honest ,ambitious and loving
loving fair,others,freedom and the best love is loving God,the lord who created u and gave u that ability to love
got blessed
Shepherd wrote:
Your body is not a prison, but a tool. Like a knife. You can use a knife for destruction, to kill, to damage. Or you can craft incredible art out of it. Your body is not dissimilar. You are only looking at things in a negative light, try to see the other side of the coin. You are here only once, make the most of it; because you wont be passing this way again.
Shepherd, let me guess, you’re Christian.
& i’m not being negative but rather realistic. Maybe you need to stop looking at life through rose-tinted glasses. sigh, i sound angry but from anger comes truth. sorry, that’s the reality.
I’m an atheist. :)
I do not believe in an afterlife. Nor do I believe in a higher power. I believe we have already overcome unbelieveable odds in being here through genetics. And I believe that we should make the most of our short time. Because when its over, I believe things go back to the state they were in before we were born, nothingness. Sobering, but we wont be conscious to care.
drMIDO wrote:
there is islamic statement says:first life is a prison for blievers and heaven for non blievers
as bliever would have the best in the other life while the non bliever enjoying this short life and would be prevented from real heaven lastly
Believers…non-believers. Y must religion be broken down into the “haves” and “have nots?” comparisons. I just want relief. It would be nice to just have that.
I believe that there is a lot of truth in that Islamic saying. Ultimately life is rather pointless if merely lived for life itself. In Maslow’s hierarchy of need’s he outlines a need for self-fulfilment (living for something other than individual needs or experiences).
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Ok, well I’ll tell you something. That reality, that nothingness?
Is as sweet as a welcoming, cool hand on your sweaty forehead when you
come in from the searing heat. it’s weird. It’s like being in a box and then,
all the sides kinda like fall down around you. I’ve experienced it before. & then
the funny thing is also, things that matter before down seem so important.
Ok, Yankee you sound disjointed yourself. Very clinical observation.
The fact that you’re feeling is the beauty of it. According to what I believe, when you die, there is nothing. And its not depressing because you wont even be aware of it because you wont exist. But I’d rather be, than not be, because at least being, I have control and I can experience things. To and atheist, good and bad experiences are the beauty of life - because it is the experience of living.
I don’t have anything against Christians or any religions. But they just seem so
smug and like lil’ kids clinging to security blankets.
But hey, I haven’t been dead for awhile, so there rightly might be heaven,
hell, Islamic judgement, etc. It’ll be a riot for sure. Doubt I’d laugh too much tho.
Shepherd, that’s amazing. I’m so happy that you feel that way.
Then promise me, you make sure EVERYONE around you, feels the same
way you do, THEN. And you live by that principle.
If not, you’re a smug bastard. A kid in a candy shop w/a mouth
full of cavities.
And if not? You feel this beauty and share it w/others? I want to know you.
But then again, one cannot be responsible for everyone’s emotions. & ppl misinterpret motivations, many times. And all that responsibility, I’d imagine, you’d break down from the weight. and shut-down. you can only do what you can. I understand.
Haha, I don’t force what I believe onto others. I don’t mind the religions floating around. People have a right to believe what they want, but anyone who thinks like me is welcome to discuss it. I believe what I believe because it just seems like reality to me. I may be completely wrong. I may be spot on. But thats all part of the fun.
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ok. I think we’re on different pages of our lives here.
You’re um, about 14?
I say that because of your last help blog, about the genderless nominative pronoun. :)
And yes I believe that we need one.
You think I’m 14 because I asked whether a genderless nominative pronoun is necessary in English? oO
well are you? 19? I remember learning about nominative pronouns in school, but i forgot after leaving.
And being on different pages may not be the factor. I’m British. British culture is extremely tolerant. We are taught from a young age not to push our beliefs onto others. We believe everyone is entitled to their own vision of life, especially since nobody can prove anything when it comes to such matters.
srinh
the principles of love,honesty….etc is pure human nature that religions include islam and christianity came to reinforce
may be this feeling would make people suffer when they see what they hate but imagine live without these priciples? wow we would be deads..machines
loss the meanings hence never enjoy
and i am agree with shephered in the point of 2 be or not 2 be
which is not agains the idea of heaven
it would be nice to be successful in both lifes
I can see your point. And that’s POV is great in many ways. But do you believe that too much tolerance can be… not so good?
Shepherd wrote:
And being on different pages may not be the factor. I’m British. British culture is extremely tolerant. We are taught from a young age not to push our beliefs onto others. We believe everyone is entitled to their own vision of life, especially since nobody can prove anything when it comes to such matters.
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Not to be rude or anything, but no one here is making any sense. Your minds are wondering lost and that is why you don’t understand each other. What you both need is someone who feels the same as you do, this way both of you will go further in your quest. If you continue the conversation with someone that does not see what you see, feel what you feel it is a waist of both of your time and a disrespect for your self.
Well, yes, that’s why I’m asking questions, Anonymous. I’m trying to understand Shep’s “quest”.
drMIDO, hmm…are you saying that it’ll be nice to be nothing after death?
I agree too. I’m just like ranting today.
And if come off as argumentative, I’m apologize.
I don’t have a quest. ^^
This is how my nation has evolved. Britian is among the worlds oldest civilisations, and we went through our early brutal periods. Then the Imperial era, as a superpower (where the United States is now), and now we’ve reached a benevolent period of tolerance. Thats just the way I was brought up, I can’t say how I’d feel if I was raised in another culture, but I do believe culture has a lot to do with it.
Especially when you examine the waring nations in Africa and the Middle East. They’re going through the same thing Europe did in the dark ages. They’re just further behind. From my observations, this is the way civilisation progresses, and eventually they will catch up.
It does sadden me to see the oppressive cultures trying to change my country, and it does irritate me that our tolerance is abused for violence and selfish ends; we I, and my country (for the most part), take pride in the fact that we moderate and accept it.
i did not say that
i say simply enjoy ur first life as much as u can
and prepare to have happiness after deth
I’m tired now. Goodbye. Thanks for taking the time to contribute.
actually I’m going to the gym. Goodnight.
Hey Srinh, I’d like to get drunk with you, would be a laugh :-)
I understand that the body can feel like a prison, chasing after its needs while the inner beauty watches those precious moments slide by.
I also can see it as a tool, but like any tool, it takes caring for. If you spend you whole time carrying the knife, sharpening the knife, and making a belt pouch for it - well it can seem to own you not the other way around.
I see it more like a wave on the ocean. You can fight it, but you can paddle with it, then catch it - THEN stand up and surf along.
My prescription for existential angst - go to a national park with no one around, and hike up a hill while only wearing a strong pair of boots. When you get to the top, see a long way. Being exhausted, nude and being able to see a great distance will either make you roar like a dragon, or give you a deep sense of calm. Just don’t get caught, or they’ll drag you off in a straight jacket.
Also, things like almonds and blueberries are great for those part of the brain that need replenishing after too much big thinking, it can help big time to reduce the intensity of mood swings.
You worry to much, look for things in life that make you feel free and happy, and focus on those. dont worry about death until your on your death bed, if your worried about being trapped in your body, go and explore, see all there is to see, do what you want. If others fail around you, do not worry, as they are not your problem, if people are succeeding, be happy for them and try to gain what they have, if you feel it will bring you happiness. And as much as i know most people dont agree with what i am about to say, i really think it will help you. try smoking some marijuana, it changed my life for the better, cleared things up for me, and just made me relax and be happy. if you dont like it, dont do it again, but i really think it could help you, if you use it in moderation.
We are born one day we die, surely it doen’t really matter what we do in between just try to enjoy it as much as you can, and try not to think about why you are here and what is the universe all about
Ok, I’m considering everything, you’ve all mentioned And appreciate the input.
Chunkymove, that sounds like an awesome thing. To bike up a hill naked. I’ve found that exhaustion helps my mind sleep.
drake, i gotcha on the weed thing. I used to smoke myself. But probably won’t do it again, sinuses flare-up easily.
Victoria, you’re absolutely right. Life should be enjoyed.
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