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Ok, so whats making you so depressed? What do you think about when you’re lying in bed?

A friend of mine that I miss terribly

First and foremost, you should sleep at a specific time because if you fall asleep it could really mess up your sleeping schedule, trust me I know.

Second of all, you don’t have to go see a proffesional, just go to a regular doctor. And if you don’t want to do that then take two exedrine and lay down for a hour, not neccissarily going to sleep but just resting your head.

I go to bed at the same time every night. Some nights it will take an hour to fall asleep, other nights it will take at least 3 hours to fall asleep and then I always, no matter how much sleep I get, wake up and am still tired but I cant sleep.

What happened to this friend?

Before you go to bed, around a hour or two, do things that give you peace of mind to help you relax easier, like eating something or just meditation to help get you sleepy. Do this on a regulat basis, not just for one day.

My friend is going through a lot of stuff in his life and is taking time off from everything. He has completely cut me off, I havent talked to him in 2 weeks and im worried about him and worried that him and I will never start talking again because in the middle of all of his crap in his life, we got into a huge fight and he’s really mad at me.

I cant focus on anything, I try reading and I cant even focus on what I’m reading which is what I normally do to get my mind off of stuff.

Well then its clear that your unresolved issues with your friend are the basis for your depression and narcolepsy. Perhaps writing a letter of apology, if he refuses to communicate, so you can reestablish contact and make things right.

I have apologized to him for our fight and he told me he didn’t know what he was doing and couldn’t give me an answer as to whether him and I would start talking again. This is always on my mind because he was my closest friend and even though it is not definite, I feel like our friendship is over. I know that if he were to contact me saying that our communication would open up again once he got himself straight, it would put my mind at ease but I cant force that out of him. I know I have to give him his space and his time, which I am really trying to do but its so hard.

I hate sitting and waiting and that is all I can do in this situation, its driving me insane. I dont know what to expect and I hate that, I hate surprises and I hate not knowing what is going on in my life. I like to feel like I have some sort of control in my own life and at this point, in this situation, I don’t.

I do not have the means to get away from everything to try to set myself straight.

get angry. anger is a means not an end but its also a higher vibrational tone than depression. its more socially unacceptable because it is in other peoples faces when they would prefer you to be depressed and out of the way. but yes, get angry, then work your way past anger

Ive tried that. I tried to make myself hate him, I tried to put all the blame on him, I got angry, I stopped caring, that lasted for all of a day and then I was worried again.

NOOOO! no, no no. you cannot get angry at him or blame him for anything (i dont even know (or care) what the deal is).
doing that will rile you into depression again, as you have found out. be angry for the sake of being angry. try not to direct it at him and especially not at yourself ok. on the contrary if you wanna fix it then love him and forgive him. not easy to do right off the bat tho.

Oh I forgive him with all my heart. I am not mad at him for anything he has done, I just miss him so much.

So I took a tylenol PM last night before I went to bed. I got 8 hours of great sleep, I have not felt so rested in such a long time and my mood has increased 93.9%

beautiful! such a delicate thing, the chemistry of the mind with a small part pharmaceutical drug

Oh Im so glad someone is keeping up with this!!! So I have not talked to my friend since the fight on Saturday. Well I just found out that NO ONE has heard from him since Monday at the earliest, not even the person he was keeping in touch with on a daily basis. I know I need to give him his space but at this point I just want to try to contact him to see if hes still breathing. Im not even worried about our friendship at this point, Im worried about his well being.