I wonder if I have the strength to kill myself.
End everything here.
Its not a weakness, people shackled by life are doomed to live in a terrible world. Im trying to work up the courage to free myself from this hell. I lost most sports I loved after my foot broke. I have no functional relationship with my family. I hate study. I hate all my hobbies I used to have, guitar, drawing, working out, eating, drinking..lol, and doing things in general. The only thing I like in life, my girlfriend, wants to break up with me because she thinks shes not good enough for me. Yeah. Lifes a b**** that gets worse over time.
Living takes effort. Its not worth it.
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So you go from a good life, to a down turn and throw in the towel?
dear.. i guess we all loose trust in life, but don’t you give up..
wanna talk?
make her see that she is the only one who really matters to you
by the way if you kill yourself then she will feel guilty.. you should give her confidence ..
Hey dude, don’t fret.
Your foot will heal.
Your girlfriend sounds like she’s lying.
Stop drinking beer.
What good life? Up until 10 I basically had no parents, what i saw of my dad, he was someone that liked shouting and hitting and being scary at the time. Now hes just an ***. Ive learnt to live without them, its how i operate, and now they try pretend its all better and i can forgive them and be happy. No, not happening, they disgust me.
Every time Ive found something Ive liked its been stripped of me. My grades are Sh*t, what happened to being a freaking A student!? And anxiety attacks pretty much stop you from doing ANYTHING constructive.
I am saying the following simply to explain why i CBA to give her confidence:
It is commonly thought in our year I am probably one of the nicest people, as in helpful, kind, with manners, presentable etc, (not nerdy, just nice). I am so nice to her, and no matter what I do, she always inadvertantly gets frustrated at herself and me. making me unable to cope with her as nothing i say helps. Ive posted to my friends what i say to her thats nice and has put her into a rage, they agree it shouldnt have.
I DONT DRINK, i dont smoke, i dont do drugs. I logically admit life sucks.
My suggestion is to begin drinking. It has a calming effect and you will not get bored with it… no scratch that. Maybe you should concentrate on finding something that you enjoy and throw all your energy into that! Just make sure it’s not drinking or something else destructive.
Life is the choices you make for yourself. Happiness is not guaranteed. The joy is in the trying. You sound too young to give it up. We are all walking our own path and we meet each other on lifes path for good or ill. You are an importatnt part of someone’s path. Maybe not today but someday. You must be there. Start making choices that are about your needs and integrity, Your girlfriend wants to break up, OK. Being alone is a way to reflect on your life. You are what you bring to the party and every one brings something different. we need you. No one else has what you have.
dear
i don’t drink, i don’t smoke, i don’t use drugs
i’m judged a school and avoided because of that
my dad was 12 years alcoholic, he stopped, but now mom and dad are fighting day and night without asking how that affects me
loneliness overcomes me each evening
i don’t have friends .. just 2
i find hard to trust anyone, i have social phobia ( i feel like i’m never enough good, i feel taht on the street people are only looking at me and they laugh)
i hate my life sometimes
but giving up is never the answer
by the way i long for love as hell
but i’m lonely at least you have a gf …
i always help people, but the most who are near me just take advantage of me..
so you are not the only one… so don’t you dare to give up
GOT IT?
OK - you don’t drink that’s good start.
Sounds like you’re really angry at your parents though.
Sometimes when we’re angry at our parents its because they are too straight and proper for us to reach. If that is the case, they might have standards which you don’t feel you’re meeting.
If that’s the case, maybe you’re turning your rage in on yourself and maybe even reflecting it out to your gf.
Perhaps that’s why she feels that she’s not good enough for you.
Ralph:
If they have it worse, I dont see why theyre still living. Oh, they probably have something to live for, or maybe they just havent found logic enough to say life is pointless. I could become a nuclear engineer if I wanted to, go to Cambridge. The hell is the point!? I dont enjoy it. I dont want it.
Freindly heart, do you live to help other people get through troubles as if alleviating others of theirs somehow makes you feel as if the good you are doing makes your life worth your troubles? Why do you live?
I dont have a reason. Np, ttyl
I havent for ages, but im going to cut my leg now. I think its just bloody anxiety atm thats messing up my thoughts.
Well screwit, I wont be able to tell if I can kill myself until the sh*t hits the fan. I guess id have to be on the building to know, so theres no point in talking about this.
Why exactly don’t you see the point in living? Why do you need a point?
You need to talk to someone about this desire to self distruct. Get hep now. Call a hot line, get to the ER.. Get off the compuer and get help now. You need help. If your parents are around and don’t understand how dangerous you are to yourself make a choice to find help yourself. Choice for life. Always.
Why bother putting up with working. Why bother putting up with friends lying. Why bother putting up with people hating. Why bother putting up with the ignorance and stupidity of others. Why watch things get taken from you.
Why put up with the arduous monotony of life.
I am seeing psychologist/neurologist people. My parents know to some extent, but i hate them so much i refused to let them know in detail, any affection from them makes me want to hit them. I refused the medication. Im not taking it.
I carved a heart into my hand. It means nothing now. I’ll have a heart on my palm forever. No one wants to be with someone like that
I could sit here trying to convince you why what you’re feeling is flawed. But what you really need to do is go onto a course of mild anti-depressants. You don’t seem depressed in the classical sense, but you’re jaded with life. The medication can be obtained by a GP and wont result in you being labled as a “manic-depressive” or anything like that. If you’re not willing to do that in an attempt to help yourself, then you don’t deserve the shot you have.
As someone pointed out earlier, you’re living like royalty compared to most.
Thanks, I didnt think so, I fail at everything, Im getting D’s now, Ive lost my girlfriend, Im losing my friends, my parents, the one thing I dont want are coming back. I am the epitemy of fail. I have everything someone would ‘need’ guitar, pc, spending money, and Im not happy. I should be. Im doomed to be self pitious and pathetic forever. I know Im pathetic, everyone says so, and I can see it too.
I’ll finish my book. lol, it would be a waste of waiting for 2 years to buy it XD Brisingr by Christopher Paolini if you know it
*then ill decide what to do
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i understand what you’re going through. i’ve been there. i literally had to drag myself just to live for 2 years becoz i so lacked energy. the worst thing about it is that feeling of loneliness when you have no one to turn to.. it just feels so weird and so hopeless… so unreal but so real. then you try to do everything you could to make life more meaningful. still not. that was why i was contemplating suicide too…. but not anymore. i figured that there is a god-shaped hole in every man’s heart that only a person god-sized can fill and i found that in jesus… have you ever thought to seek help from god? though you might think he doesnt care, he does really care… and listen. and he loves you more than you know… other means are only temporary, but what we really need is love. that i found in him.
Why would I beleive a fictional character? The idea of god is more absurd than presuming space and matter are made of the same thing. A bunch of people long ago when they knew hardly anything about the science of the world around them created a fictional character and a story that explained everything. People across the globe did it in entirely different ways, but there was always a fictional character that filled in the spaces and let people think someone had their back (the perfect placebo effect for overcoming difficulties in life).
Anyway, I have long since stopped debating about religion, however I did start this topic so I felt I had the right to air my opinions here.
Those opinions arent going to change so dont even try arguing please it just takes up time.
But yeah, i dont think ill be commenting on this site again.
Thanks for everyones input! It was interesting and heplful, cya round
Oh, forgot to say, good luck everyone, hope you find what you’re looking for! =)
if you dont have the stength to kill ur self i will help u :]]
I know the feeling. Ive had enough. I lost my friend to suicide in Sept. eveyday is an up hill struggle not a day goes by where i dont think of him. I wanna b with him again. im also in the middle of selling my 1st home with my x partner which is makin my life miserable n i feel a buurden on my family as im am now a failure. i was goin out with a boy 4 a while. now i have turned him against me due to paranoia..which i seem to have a habit of doin with my partners….
I wanna take the easy way out but my life insurance dont cover it. i dont wanna b a burden to my family even after im dead as the will need to pick up the peices of my debt.
I would love to Die. But if there is someone that loves you or cares for you you need to stay for them. I hurt every day. My home life sucks and my job sucks. I have nothing going for me. Death will be the best thing for me. But I can not kill my self if there is someone that cares for me. There are always someone that cares for you.
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