debt help: I am a 25 y.o male, and could really do with some support. - Help.com

I am a 25 y.o male, and could really do with some support.

First of all, I have no family members I can confide in. My mother died when I was 19, and my father left when I was 9. I talk to him occasionally but I have never felt confident I can discuss things with him. I probably see him on average once a year for 3-4 days. I have no other family and until the end of the week live alone.

I lost my minimum wage ****** job 3 weeks ago, and in the last 3 years I have been in and out of employment like a yo-yo. I really struggle to find permanent work and any job I have had in the last 5 years has been temporary.
I have had some good times in my short life, I have travelled the world, been snowboarding for a whole season, and had lots of fun. But now I have nothing, I have no money, and am moving out of my accommodation as I can’t pay the rent. I will effectively be homeless unless I can find a job in the next few days. Believe me when I say I have tried everything, I have taken wads of C.V’s throughout town, and handed them to managers of countless shops, restaurants. I have applied online to hundreds and hundreds of applications, had some real soul destroying jobs, where I have been yelled at for months on end, I usually snap and get fired.
I can’t get unemployment benefit, due to walking out on my last job. They see it as my choice, not because I spent 10 months of getting verbally abused. If I was a permanent employee I could have gone to a tribunal, but as I was a minimum wage temp I just got basically told I wasn’t welcome there anymore.
I have severe debt, through stupidness on my part, and from being paid minimum wage which I struggle to live on.
So I have to be out of my apartment by Friday, and will be turned out onto the streets, honestly think this is the end for me, I am very depressed. But have too much hope to commit suicide, but I believe that this hope is killing me, as I have ended up at rock bottom.

I have experienced unrequited love once in my life, and never had a girlfriend at all. I really am upset that I have never had the opportunity to share someones life with them. I have screwed up so much now, and know this will never happen, and it is ripping me apart. I would kill myself if I had the guts, to end this pain, but I am too much of a coward.

It has been helpful in a way typing this, I would never have come this far if I had just one friend, or one person I could speak to. I just honestly don’t have anybody.

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