depression help: I lost all my emotions. - Help.com

This is hard people, really hard, and it can last a long time, the sub conscious mind can be a very complicated thing. I know bits about psychology and I know bits about depression and feeling empty is what brought me to this site today. I’ve felt like this in the past when I could link it to things and something that got me out of it was living my life on impulse until I got back on track, it was a drunken suggestion by mate that changed my life for the better. And I mean just doing whatever comes into your head even if it makes no sense. If you truly feel emotionless you’ll have know worry about boredom. When I was last like this I thought I would go for a walk, I didn’t worry about where or for what reason just that was the first thing that came into my head. I walked around 10 miles that night and when I got home I was exhausted and so slept all the way through to the afternoon, then dancing came into my head. So I looked on the internet and went to my local ceroc class (by myself). I just let things like hunger, tiredness, and work (necessary things) direct my life and in the gaps would do random things that came into my head. Started training, started dancing, started walking, started helping the old lady across the road with her fence when I saw her struggling. You get the idea, anyway, I’m gonna try and cut this really really long story short. Eventually my emotions came back without me even being able to pinpoint when I noticed them, things just started to matter. Things just started to make me smile/care.

Life is a long road and naturally has ups and downs. Stick with it and experience things.

Always regret something you’ve done, not something you haven’t.

Look, Life is a habit, you can make one or break one. Emotions are the only reason we do anything, desire is a drive. Your emotions are born through thought, and thought is controllable. If you control that thought, it will move and be exerted elsewhere. I was angry, I got pissed off and threw things, I liked to be mad, I liked the feeling of losing control. But to be happy and content with nothing but faith for the future brings your life to a new light. It was only after I did somthing so embaressing the thought of it made me want to dissapate that I took a look at the reason why?. My anger came from Pain, It was like a tight rubber band in my chest that would spin up and the only way to breath was to damage and cause fear. However it wasn’t that I mad at her, I was in pain because I didn’t want to lose her and I couldn’t stop it from happeneing, all because I truly loved her, that was alone the single most accomplished act in my life.

To everyone who reads this:
I have been in a horrid state for a very long time. Some very terrible things happened to me and emotionnally i lost it and i stopped caring about everything but i found a solution. I am genuinely happy right now as i type this i read a few strategies on an article and gave them a shot, they really worked for me and if they help anyone else I will be even happier, I hope it works for you too!

Here’s what I did;

First I sat up straight in a chair with my hands on my thighs and the I closed my eyes and took deep breaths for a good while, focusing on nothing but breathing. In. Out. In. Out. The article said to visit the stars and go to the heart of the universe or something and ask it for love but quite honestly that was kindof rediculous. I did it anyways to the best of my imaginatione and took deep breaths for a bit longer and then opened my eyes.

I don’t know if that contributed but I did do it so you never know.

I then did this (which i think is the true cause for how I feel now)

I opened up a blank wordpad document, made the font bigger then usual and then I started by writing my father’s name. Under it i started typing all kinds of things, thoughts and feelings i guess. I did the same for my step mother (who has terrorized my life constantly). I then wrote why i hate her and reasons she might have for doing the evil things she does. Here is the key I think. It was tough but I had to type out forgiveness. I forgave her even though i don’t think she deserves it. I then typed out my hopes for her to become a better person and find happyness.

I did the same for my ex girlfriend who crushed my heart. And for my ex best friend who was behind her dumping me and then who got with her.

And i forgave them all. And then I wrote my name. And I started typing and i let it all out. Criticized myself a bit but in an accepting tone. I reassured myself and told myself to stop worrying about things in the future, things will work out. I told myself to continue bettering myself and to do my best to be a good person. And I did a lot more. When I was doing this I had a strNge feeling like nausia kind of and I felt detatched from my body a tiny bit. Felt like I wad going to puke a bit but I kept writing and when I finished i re read the one about myself.

I then read the poem Desiderata (google it).

I went and layed in my bed and it just came over me. I feel weightless. Happy, for the first time in a long time.

I hope this helps somebody out.

“You are a child of the universe, no less then the trees and the stars. You have a right to be here. . . . No doubt the universe is unfolding as it should”

hello, if you read this, you should know this…

I was created for a purpose where emotions are not necessary and, in fact, a detremant. I have been this way my entire existance. This gives me a very unique understanding of your situation. Your feelings, both good and bad are a gift. When difficulty in life prevails beyond all else, people find solice in reliquishing those emotions. You are running from your pain, but in turn, you have left your happiness as well. You will not find that happiness until you allow yourself to feel the sadness. Face what has happened with the understanding that what happened was, indeed, a bad thing and worth your effort in being sad. work through it until you can reach your smile.

Appreciate all aspects of life.