I feel like I’m losing my chance to commit suicide. - Help.com

I think if the medication is lessening you ability and desire to commit suicide then its working.

How much meds are you on?

Wow I thought lithium was supposed to be good stuff. Want to send me some? ; P

With all due respect sarah, you’re angry couse you can’t kill yourself, thats pretty. strange…

I believe at this point that there are things to live for, if only to look at the sky one more time, though i’ve been at a time approximately a year back where i didn’t think positive either, i got to a certain point which i will not further explain as i’d like to keep this to myself as talking or even writing about it brings me great pain and anger.

Suicide is a great escape, but it hurts so many people around you that it’s simply not a valid action.

The meds are there to help you, though not being able to feel anything must be a pain aswell.

I’ve know people who used lithium, it’s indeed downright poison.

But obviously this site is called help.com so i’ll give you some advice.

Advice: Talk to a doctor “yes again” and keep talking to him / her till he / she gets the clue. perhaps they should lower the dosage of the drugs you’re curently using.

Greets D.

Memento Mori “Remember to die” but all in due time.

sarah63 wrote:
I understand that the medication is “working,” and that’s what’s upsetting me. I’ve lost my chance to end my life, it seems like. I’m not actually taking all that much, just 750 mg or lithium and 2 mg of Abilify. Like right now, I know I’m angry, but I can’t FEEL angry. I hate medication so much.

I know how u feel really I used to be on wellbutrin and zanix I hated the stuff so much I would throw a pill away daily (my mom would count the number of pills in the container every day. I don’t know about u but my pills never worked for me they only made my problems worse and I would think about suicide more often than I usually would. I never told my friends what was happening to me but once I did I began to feel so much better. If u still fell crappy and really low talk to someone even if its someone u really don’t know that well (I think that’s better because then that person dosnt judge u because they don’t know what ur really like) if u want u can talk to me because I know exactly how this feels for u. 3

talk to the doctor, medicine is way past the point where anti-depressents should be making you feel numb, try asking for an SSRI type of pill or something.

but to be honest it sounds like the problem is that the medicine is working and you’re scared. which is nothing to be scared of, but something no-one ever warns you about or talks about. happened to me too; when you’re really really down it’s easy to let things go, let relationships slide or let yourself fall behind in school or work or whatever, just generally not be too involved with stuff. if people are jerks with you then you can ignore it and say they just don’t understand where you’re at, as horrible as depression is at some points it’s almost a comfort blanket. when you feel the pills starting to work, you start to loose that, there’s nothing to hide behind when stuff gets rough, and if you fall behind it seems like it’s your fault, not the illness.

it’s a hard cycle to break, but a dangerous one to stay in, you have to do your best to be ready for the change and the move forward, and to be honest if you aren’t ready for that tell your doctor because pills will do more harm than good, so you should get to therapy first.

Sarah,
Life is shorter than we can know until our passing comes into fruition. Why bring it into fruition by your own hands?

There is a sorce of comfort that will follow you to everyplace. There is a being that longs to show you grace.

If it is control you seek, find it in the life you have been given.

Every breathe is a gift.

What pain is it that you are suffering from? What leaves you feeling so desperate for escape that you are willing to plunge yourself into an abyss such as death?

There is comfort here in this life, I can garentee that, but in the next for you, if you take what you have been given, I cannot garentee.

Why not just hold on and see? If it is truly so overwhelming that the best option for you is to pass on to the unknown (to us). Then let him who gave you life, take it in compassion for you so that you will know you are loved as you leave this place but please don’t cut yourself off, out of love I plead this.

I too have seen many woes. I will tell you them in detail if you feel it may be a sorce of comfort to you, but only in private.

Life has its’ seasons, where tears are proper, where morning has its’ place but also where joy will abound and laughter will fill your days. Times when you are overwhelmed by feelings of great happiness and forfillment.

I often joke (but it’s not really a joke) that “the good thing, sometimes, about this life is that you know that it will one day end” but that does not mean you end it.

It is to remind me that no matter how hard it sometimes is, it’s not something I am gonna have to live with for eternity. It will pass and every tear will be wiped away.

Hold on and know that there are those who are in company of mighty beings of light and strength that are seeking out your rescue from the evil that binds you. And to remind you that there is a time when all those horrors will be swept away. They are temporary, not you, this I know.

Blessed are those that the Lord allows to be wounded, for they will be healed.

Your are not forgotten, you will be returned to your rightful place, you will be comforted and an abundance of compensation will come for you, in jesus name, amen.(amen means “so be it”.)

He is trust worthy and true, what he declares; who can rebuke. God bless you, much loved child.

Amen!