Hey Ashley! Welcome back =)
How are you?
i did miss you actually.. umm you just said everything’s great to jayde, so thats good to hear :)
Autoloading replies are out now :(
.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]I’m great.
Yourself? (:
I’m ugh but thanks lol.
How was life with out Help.com?? lol.
Commander Ikari wrote:
Autoloading replies are out now :(
I hate that soo much, i hate having to refresh the darn page everytime =/ lol.
bluflames83 wrote:
i did miss you actually.. umm you just said everything’s great to jayde, so thats good to hear :)
;D My cousin had a baby in March. I’m excited.
But, she’s so worried about it (being a mother) that her husband has to give her Seds. to sleep. o_O
Commander Ikari wrote:
Ashley!
Commander Ikari wrote:
Autoloading replies are out now :(
Ikari! ♥
Oh Boo. (N)
wow thats… i dont know :) is she doing okay with it?? taking sleeping pills isnt fun.. :/
Hey Ashley, what did the pirate first mate say to the captain just returning from a city full of sentries?
I’m not sure how it happened but you were like my very first friend somehow. I didn’t even figure out how to get them for six months but for some reason I had like three for the first six months and Indian Bob was on my list. I really don’t know you but am very glad you are back because you are my oldest friend and we are strangers. Hope I don’t weird you out too much… welcome back.
bluflames83 wrote:
wow thats… i dont know :) is she doing okay with it?? taking sleeping pills isnt fun.. :/
Yeah. She’s fine. It’s a boy, and very healthy. I went to a baby shower as well. It was fun.
D: Ah crap.
It’s like 10pm. -___- I have to go for tonight.
I’ll be back on tomorrow.
I promise! :D
I’ll miss you.
Night!
Dr. Ralph wrote:
I’m not sure how it happened but you were like my very first friend somehow. I didn’t even figure out how to get them for six months but for some reason I had like three for the first six months and Indian Bob was on my list. I really don’t know you but am very glad you are back because you are my oldest friend and we are strangers. Hope I don’t weird you out too much… welcome back.
Hello!
^^
Oh Really now?
*blushes*
I feel special.
I’m not weird-ed out at all. (:
Commander Ikari wrote:
Hey Ashley, what did the pirate first mate say to the captain just returning from a city full of sentries?
:O
No idea.
What?
sounds great :).. you seem, idk, calmer?? now.. :) g’night ash..
.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]
Commander Ikari wrote:
Hey Ashley, what did the pirate first mate say to the captain just returning from a city full of sentries?
:O
No idea.
What?
“Were you seen, kidd?”
C’mon Ikari, what’s up????
Dr. Ralph wrote:
C’mon Ikari, what’s up????
I just delight in telling far too detailed and unfunny jokes involving obscure information that involves a pun or play on words.
My weakness.
Well actually I wrote that before I saw your next post… I was waiting for the punch line but I guess you have to keep punching refresh to get anything to come up now.
Hi ashley, hope you didn’t forget about me.
Hey Ash, love your new picture!
How’s everything in the crazy world outside?
I’m really hoping to hear you sing again…
And yeah, you were missed, be sure of it! ^^
Dr. Ralph wrote:
Well actually I wrote that before I saw your next post… I was waiting for the punch line but I guess you have to keep punching refresh to get anything to come up now.
:D Haha.
*hits refresh so many times she needs to get a new Glade Air-Freshener*
Neutra wrote:
Hi ashley, hope you didn’t forget about me.
^^ Haven’t forgotten about you either.
ChavyWasabi wrote:
Hey Ash, love your new picture!
How’s everything in the crazy world outside?
I’m really hoping to hear you sing again…
And yeah, you were missed, be sure of it! ^^
o__O Oh. Yeah, it is.
So much drama! -___-
People come to me for advice, Haha. I can give wonderful advice apparently. *shocking*
*hug* ;___;
bluflames83 wrote:
sounds great :).. you seem, idk, calmer?? now.. :) g’night ash..
Back.
Oh Yes. o_o
I’m actually not all confused about my relationship for once. (Y)
WOO!
Commander Ikari wrote:
.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]
Commander Ikari wrote:
Hey Ashley, what did the pirate first mate say to the captain just returning from a city full of sentries?
:O
No idea.
What?
“Were you seen, kidd?”
XD OH YES. Lemme tell ya about that.. *trails off into mumbles*
Good afternoon dear.
How are you?
*hug*
*hug*
Fine, how are you doing?
omg really?? you better start getting confused or hell might freeze over!! :) Thats great though, :) howd you manage that?? :)
Commander Ikari wrote:
*hug*
Fine, how are you doing?
I’m just horrible.
;/
bluflames83 wrote:
omg really?? you better start getting confused or hell might freeze over!! :) Thats great though, :) howd you manage that?? :)
Oh. I’m confused now. xD
Like always.
souvenir wrote:
hey ashley
Hello. ^^…
So how did you come up with the Indian Bob name? I used to call myself Jo-Jo Bob. Jojo was from a Beatles song (Get Back) and bob because I moved to Tennesee and there were so many people named something-bob that I just had to make fun of them!
You’re doing horrible? Why?
aw that sucks :( how come?? on the bright side, i dont hafta worry about hell freezing over.. :)
bluflames83 wrote:
aw that sucks :( how come?? on the bright side, i dont hafta worry about hell freezing over.. :)
@___@
You know that confusion that always happens…? *cough*
Erm….. YEAH.
Uhm. It’s happening. >>.
Now I know why you were my first friend… *cough*
Dr. Ralph wrote:
Now I know why you were my first friend… *cough*
o.o
Did I reply to you?
xD I’m not sure.
;o
If not, whell. ♥ I’m sorry.
*hug*
:DD OF COURSE!
Why was I your first friend? Lawl.
..so you broke up with john again, or are thinking about it?? and in another couple weeks you’ll get back together with him?? : )
bluflames83 wrote:
..so you broke up with john again, or are thinking about it?? and in another couple weeks you’ll get back together with him?? : )
Thinking.
STILL.
@___@
Yeah, so obviously. I’m going to be alone my entire life with this issue.
Bahaha.
“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”. *sarcasm* OH.YEAH. RIGHT. In my case a bit, but.
What the hell!? I’m really not getting anywhere.
This too, shall pass….
Don’t worry so much.
Ohkay ohkay.
So, whell. *sigh*
This is how I feel.
;o
He’s like uber serious and what not about me. He NEEDS me and wants me. Right? So.
He’s told me this before. That’s he’s just not happy without me. Like he’s missing something important. That he only wants me.
I feel that I really do like him. “Love”, if you would say. Yeah.
But, I know I’m not taking this as seriously as he is. ;o
He makes me happy and whatnot. He’s nice. I do miss him. I feel as if I’m missing something there too. haha. -_-;
I know all about him, but it’s just sometimes, I don’t feel a “spark” or whatever the hell you wanna call it for a teenager.
Blah blah. @.@
;o He says I can do so much better and I can find someone who’ll be better. That I’m free to leave any time I want.
The guy hates being alone as well. ~__~ Some of you know, that he has had suicidal thoughts, AND may I tell you, he has TRIED (more than once). So…
& I’m always the one talking him out of it every time.
I really like him, but it’s just that. I know everything about him. I could get “bored” or whatever for a while.
He’s never gotten bored of me though…
I guess he’s not as random as me?
Eh.
He thinks he should have still be left dead, but after a few nonsense arguments, I tell him he’s alive for a reason.
*Most of my friends she know the story* *sigh* ((If not, shout me.))
–We all know where this is going.–
&.& and someone state out asking me, “What do YOU want to do?”
You know what, I DON’T KNOW! =o
I obviously wouldn’t be here asking and venting if I knew what to do.
———
I don’t know if I mentioned this on help. but.
;o
A few months ago, in February, he went out with my best friend. DD: I was miserable. Blah. I missed him. @___@ (Even after I left).
And, the stupid ******* got all depressed cause he missed me and planned to break up with her and then, ONCE AGAIN, doing the stupid thing that involves a gun.
I talked him out of it. Eh.
Then we got back together.
So, it all leads up to today.
SO, YEAH.
There’s defo. a pattern. xD
Commander Ikari wrote:
This too, shall pass….
Don’t worry so much.
Why can’t I just be 18 already? Lawl.
Hell froze over.
Its over.
@_@ for good, i should say.
I did it… again. yes. again. don’t ask why. i couldn’t really tell you.
I need support on this.
.ashley[indian.bob wrote:
]hell froze over.
Its over.
@_@ for good, i should say.
I did it… again. yes. again. don’t ask why. i couldn’t really tell you.
I need support on this. d;
How did it go down?
ashley! : )
.. I wish i could drive over to your house and actually talk to you…
i know you love him, but he seems a little dangerous, after finding out about all this suicide stuff..
the thing is, we’re kids and dont know anything, i feel like ive seen this scenario before, somehow..
you broke up, give him a week or so, or if that is too long, a couple days to be by himself or with the guys to hopefully get his head straight..if he can.. then you can go back to being FRIENDS.. i think john would be much better to you as a brother, but at this point he might expect to get back together with you because it happened so much before.. i guess i mean that you can still be friends, but he has to stop loving you first, and he’ll need support while he’s getting over you, so maybe talk to some of his friends after a couple days and ask how john’s doing, see if they’re helping him at all.. if you can, arrange for him to have someone else to talk to about missing you, just until he’s over you, then you can slowly start being like a sister to him.
.. there’s two or three girls who are like sisters to me, one who i never see any more, and i tell them tons of things i wouldnt tell anyone else, and they wont skrew me over.. i trust them more than i trust myself, they’re cute, but i sort of trained myself to see them as sisters, people who i can trust.. maybe try to do that to john?? one of those girls is an ex girlfriend : ) so it can be done..
.. he seems really clingy, and thats a lot for you to handle.. the truth is, even though it hurts, lots of people break up and get back together a lot when they’re teenagers.. this girl who sits next to me in old testament can tell me like every week that her boyfriend dumped her and she needs a hug, and then two days later they’re back togther..i dont know what the point of that story was..
.. ive rambled enough ; ).. sorry..
Commander Ikari wrote:
.ashley[INDIAN.BOB wrote:
]HELL FROZE OVER.
ITS OVER.
@_@ FOR GOOD, I SHOULD SAY.
I did it… AGAIN. YES. AGAIN. Don’t ask why. I couldn’t really tell you.
I need support on this. D;
How did it go down?
*pokes at very newer post*
bluflames83 wrote:
ashley! : )
.. I wish i could drive over to your house and actually talk to you…
i know you love him, but he seems a little dangerous, after finding out about all this suicide stuff..
the thing is, we’re kids and dont know anything, i feel like ive seen this scenario before, somehow..
you broke up, give him a week or so, or if that is too long, a couple days to be by himself or with the guys to hopefully get his head straight..if he can.. then you can go back to being FRIENDS.. i think john would be much better to you as a brother, but at this point he might expect to get back together with you because it happened so much before.. i guess i mean that you can still be friends, but he has to stop loving you first, and he’ll need support while he’s getting over you, so maybe talk to some of his friends after a couple days and ask how john’s doing, see if they’re helping him at all.. if you can, arrange for him to have someone else to talk to about missing you, just until he’s over you, then you can slowly start being like a sister to him.
.. there’s two or three girls who are like sisters to me, one who i never see any more, and i tell them tons of things i wouldnt tell anyone else, and they wont skrew me over.. i trust them more than i trust myself, they’re cute, but i sort of trained myself to see them as sisters, people who i can trust.. maybe try to do that to john?? one of those girls is an ex girlfriend : ) so it can be done..
.. he seems really clingy, and thats a lot for you to handle.. the truth is, even though it hurts, lots of people break up and get back together a lot when they’re teenagers.. this girl who sits next to me in old testament can tell me like every week that her boyfriend dumped her and she needs a hug, and then two days later they’re back togther..i dont know what the point of that story was..
.. ive rambled enough ; ).. sorry..
I wish you honestly could drive over here to, as well. D:
Gosh.
So, close yet so far away. @_@ *sigh*
He doesn’t tell ANYONE how he really feels. I have to pry it out of him constantly.
If he does tell me something, as if he’s “fine” I know he’s lying.
He just doesn’t want me to worry about him at all, or “any more” as he puts it.
One of those times, where you might have heard me post somewhere that he dated my friend? Right. SO, (long ago, I made a post about selling your soul to a demon or whatever). Blah blah. Got deleted for //trolling//. Anywho, he didn’t tell me he was planning on taking his life. It came back, wanting to cause no harm but to check up apparently. It told me the things he would never tell me. Especially this.
And then, it went away. I confronted him,(over msn. ~_~), about this and he was shocked as how i found out.
So… he’s very secretive.
Yeah. I asked his good friend Derek to watch and talk to him. But, right now, not to mention me so much.
I’m pretty sure I can try to see him as my brother.
Worked out before with some other guy I had a crush on. Now, we’re good friends.
:OO That’s NOT rambling.
Rambling is like all my other posts. ;o Probably are my other posts.
Monday, today obviously.
He was so distant and non-talkative.
As I expected.
It’s a bit weird.
I walk home with him after school for like a block.
Silence and I could tell he was upset.
This morning, I could tell he’d been crying earlier or last night.
;/
We where walking and after some silence he was all like,
John: You don’t have to wait for me any more after school.
Ashley: … ;/ Ohkay.
John: I mean, if you don’t want to you don’t have to anymore. I don’t care.
Ashley: I still will. I want to. You’re still my friend.
John: Yeah.. *goes inside and mumbles*
Gahhhhhh. That made me feel so much worse. D:
WTF. FML. ~_~
im sorry ash :(
i dont really understand the demon thing :/
the more i think about it, the more i think john will be okay. you have broken up so many times before and he has avoided suicide and stuff. he’s older now and yeah, he’ll be okay..
maybe for a couple days, or at least a day you should not walk with him.. the thing is it’s only going to make him think of how things used to be, instead of moving on.. make sure him and derek are going to play airsoft this weekend or something so john’s not alone..
with the mumbling and stuff, that’s understandable, to some extent he needs some time.. maybe a lot of time..
and your posts aren’t rambling :)
bluflames83 wrote:
im sorry ash :(
i dont really understand the demon thing :/
the more i think about it, the more i think john will be okay. you have broken up so many times before and he has avoided suicide and stuff. he’s older now and yeah, he’ll be okay..
maybe for a couple days, or at least a day you should not walk with him.. the thing is it’s only going to make him think of how things used to be, instead of moving on.. make sure him and derek are going to play airsoft this weekend or something so john’s not alone..
with the mumbling and stuff, that’s understandable, to some extent he needs some time.. maybe a lot of time..
and your posts aren’t rambling :)
I didn’t walk with him today because I needed to stay after school to help some teachers with a play.
So.
I really can’t avoid walking home with for, it’s only like 3/4 of a block we walk together. That isn’t so bad.
I could’ve gotten picked up but my dad changed his work hours to end at 3 and school gets out at 2:15.
My mom can’t drive and my brother gets home around 2:45.
It’s no use, and I cant really avoid it. SO. Eh.
eh is right.. : / ….it’s good that he got to walk by himself today, i think.. maybe help with the play just the next couple days?? idk, i think he needs to be without you for a little bit to realize he doesn’t need you(not trying to sound mean) so that you can go back to being friends… a little time at least.. i dont know, i feel like i dont have anything good left to say..
Jayde*
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