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Ok so I’m a girl.

I’m not sure if I’m being child abused but I’m 95% sure I am. I worked up the courage to call an abuse hotline and ask if I really am being abuse and the counselor said yes. I explained that “my mother rarely punches me, she hits me for sure, and sometime she hits me until I am on the ground and then she keeps on going. She threatens me to knock me out and give me black eyes. {she does threaten but she hasnt gave me a black eye or knocked me out yet. The counselor asked me if she has actully done it, and that is what I had said.} My parents have been hitting me for a long time, there wasnt a time where a remember hitting me was a knew kind of punishment. Whe I say my parents I mean both of them but mostly my mom. She is the one that I am scared of and often times she told me that I should be scared of her. I’m not sure if I am actually being child abused because when I told the counselors about the rare punches she had already jumped on. But the punches arent that hard THEY HURT of course but they are not that hard, I compare them to if the punch was on my noise would my noise bleed? I dont think they would. Once she slapped me and knocked a tooth out but it was already loose from jiggling. I think it was in third grade. I think I exclaimed to her you hit my tooth out and she had some response similar to GOOD. I told the counselor that I had just called to see if I am actually being child abused, I lied and said I had counselors at school to talk to when I really dont. I just wanted to know if I was or not. Now that I’m more sure that I am. what do I do??? The things I’m really scared of is:
*My mom said if she ever went to jail because of me, when she got out she would hunt me down. (I think hunt me down and kill me though.

* I go to private school, Its really small. If I told one of my friends about the situation it would get spread and fast.

*I go to private school so I can get into a really good private high school. If I get taken away whats going to happen about my education

*My father was in the Vietnam war. I can go to any UC school free of tuition. This is my way of getting into college. If I go away would I still get a chance to go to college?

*If I called and reported my mother, I would be asked a million questions, I honestly believe that I would answer each one to the best of my ability. If they asked if my father had beat me, I would say yes because he did. When I was in third grade he would make me do excersise on our tread male for an hour non stop. If I took a quick break he would go off and there goes the movement in my legs, but HEY I was looking for all you belt marks. So even though its in the pass and my dad can swear not to anymore would they still take me away from him to? I’m not being funny or anything like that but I read the Twilight series. I think that my relationship with my dad would be pretty close to that, but alot different then Bella and Charlie’s. I have no problem with that, believe it or not, I dream about that. But can they take it all away and send me to foster care, or a group home.

*I’ve seen form homeless to harvard on lifetime. Are group homes really like that, what about foster care? What are the chances that I end up with “perfect” foster parents and then beat me when we get home, or rape me. I wouldnt be surprised if some of the worst predators just get foster children and danger them (beat, rape, etc.)for a longer period of time.

*I want to be an actress. I take it very seriously. What are the chances that my dream would come true if I were to be in a group home with foster parent?

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME.

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