girl help: last year i got made redundant from work. - Help.com

you know what…
its just me getting worked up over nothing.
well its not nothing, but you knwo when your angry. really angry with everything.
and all you need is someone to make you your dinner, and listen to your problems.
someone who you dont feel is just sitting there waiting to get away.
someone nice.
thats what i really want. and its been so long since i had that.
its just so depressing, feeling you are on your own.
thanks for the reply though.
and i really really wanted that job.
if i got it, it would have solved all my problems. its strange how a little money can help in so many ways

maybe.. doesnt feel likly.
no. no family really.
when i fell out with my mother, it was both of our fault. i admit. i admitted that to her, but she wouldnt listen to that, she wanted a full appology from me.
i cant give it to her, beacuse of all the **** i have put up with her in the past.
its like i cant reward bad behaviour.

besides, when it happened, all the family said i was in the wrong, except my mothers sister. she was great about it. she said i could go stay with her, but at the time she was heavily pregnant, and now she has this little baby, i couldnt put that stress on her really. it would be wrong.

i live in wigan, near manchester. uk.
yea, hes a little star. looks like me he does:P blue eyes and lovely stawberry blonde hair.
i dont get to see him much. i cant have my mum find out about me right now.
im 20

oo and im sorry to say ive never been to kenya, but have heard its very hot, so if your going somewhere, take sun lotion :P

since i have been on the benifits, and been in this hostel, i found that wigan has the 7th worst homeless problem in the uk, and the council accomodation is how shall i saw ‘out of date’. perticulaly the ones availabe for a single male under the age of 25. as for private renting, i’ve tried that, but its incrediably difficult to find a landlord who will take someone unemployed and claiming housing benifit, without 2 months rent in advance, (around £600) and any that dont want that, the accomaodation tends to be in as bad a state as the council accomodation.
i feel like with regards to my housing problem, that the council views me as one of those ‘young males’ who go out on saturday night looking for a fight and a shag.
im not.
everyone should have equal rights and oppertunitys, yes. but then again, i’ve worked hard in the past, and paid tax, and to only have some council flat on a rough estate, where kids ride off road bikes up and down the road late a night and roving gangs or chavs, or some small dingy flat above a kebab house.
it just feels a little unfair.
maybe im a snob, but i wasnt brought up like this, and i dont want it, but i cant even help myself get out of it.
im a civil engineer, but with no trade in the market, theres no jobs.
im simply looking for work that isnt there.
so go back to college?
well yes i want to.
but i cant do a full time course, if i do, i dont get any jobseakers allowance, and no money.
and if i do a part time course, im still stuck with no job and no proper place to live.
so the only options that i feel are avaialbe to me is to get some dead end job in a call center, take up some small ***** flat above a kebab house and hope for the best.
so thats why im still in this hostel after 5 months.
and i cant go stay at my aunties, its to small, and she only lives round the corner from my mother, i cant expose my self to that stress, or the stress of mr sleeping on the couch and it being awkward between mer, her, and her sister.
it just wouldnt be fair.

thank you, i appreciate everything you have said. have a good nights sleep.
jonjoe.