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I have been depressed for as long as I remember.

I guess there must have been some ok times throughout the years based on the horrible depilitating period I am going through right now. At least I was able to function on a day to day basis. I took myself off of effexor xr, which I have been on for over 9 years, and suffered throuh terrible withdrawal symptons. I felt better than I ever have for about a month. Then, end of January I started panicking and having severe anxiety. I have quit 2 jobs since then, went back on an antidepressant called Pristiq; have been on that for a week. Been having the worst time of my life. Taking Zanax (.5mg) and since that was not working I am now on Klonopin 2mg twice a day. All it does is make me go to sleep. When I wake up I am immeadietly in tears and panicking. I am getting more Klonopin with the instructions of taking 1 three times a day to avoid going to sleep. I don’t know when this is all going to end or if it will ever get better. I cannot leave the house. I am not eating. I don’t want to be hospitalized because I have no insurance or money. I am not talking to anyone. My boyfriend cannot handle me like this and his life and job are being affected adversely. I do not know what to do next.

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Emilie T offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 2 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

Awwww….bless you ..I want to give you a massive hug.

Your poor body and synapses must be in a real spin with all those different tablets rushing around..

O.K…I am going to be really tough on you now………

You MUST eat!!

I have had severe depression. Various medications and stuff but am now, recovering…..

You must eat… Before you do anything else…EAT.

Force yourself to eat 3 times a day, good nutricius food. Do nothing else yet. don’t worry about going out. Just EAT even if every part of you wants to reject food.

O.K?

Now. Sit with your pyjamas on and a pillow and do not much else…except EAT!!

You also need to tell yourself that this illness is NOT who you are however small at the moment, find a little place within yourself that is o.k..cos there is one…and remember it.

you are ill.. you need to trat yourself like you would any ill person…i.e be kind, gentle and caring.

Those tears will stop.

Your boyfriend loves you … however frustrated he may be! He will be o.k with this sofa eating self caring business for a week or so if it gets you on the mend.

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7 months, 2 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

I am no expert but u may need to get some more help, hope u get better soon x

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Emilie T offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 2 weeks ago (20 minutes after post)

Let lots of daylight in…

Look out of the window……

set yourself some goals….

i.e in ‘2 weeks I will go swimming.’

And however **** you feel at that point…DO IT….go to a pool (or whatever) somewhere you don’t know anyone if it helps.

Get your boyfriend to take you for tea somewhere in three weeks….

I know it souns patronising but you have to make a recovery plan and stick to it, at the same time as being very very kind to yourself o.k?

the medication can help, but its trhe new thinking and behaviour habits that get us better inthe end.

(p.s I have sat at my computor since 10am and not eaten a thing……so am a total hypocrite)

I have to constantly monitor myself so I don’t get depressed.

It’s a fundamental neglect of self that comes from depression.

It is also depression that comes from a fundamental neglect of self.

I know it’s not that simple but whatever has cause your long term depression is deep rooted and will take time to repair and find strategies to manage…. there is no quick fix.

Please be nice to yourself o.k… :) let your boyfriend support you. don’t worry too much about the impact on him at the moment…If all he sees you eating,and watching crap T.V for a bit..it’ll be o.k. Life isn’t perfect and relationships mean that we adversly effect our loved ones now and again..

This is life and it makes us who we are….

TAKE CARE xx

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 2 weeks ago (27 minutes after post)

Im really sorry how your feeling =S

sounds like anti-depressants arent the best things, sounds like you need anti-anxiety meds. Those can also take care of depression in cases like yours i think. You should go back to the doctor and tell them the new things youve been feeling.

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blueangel_39 offline Verified User (7 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 1 week ago (1 week, 4 days after post)

I don’t know how religious you are, or if you are at all. But last year, I was dperessed, not quite as bad as you, but I was very depressed, and I have no idea why, I just was. Anyways, during the summer I started going to church with a group of people. They were all so welcoming and I finally felt like I belonged somewhere.
My depression and anxiety has been getting worse lately and when I feel like I’m just about to snap, I pray. I cry and pray and cry some more. It calms me down for a bit and I get my mind off of the anxiety.

Also, try writing, or get your emotions out in a creative way. Take this depression and turn it into something positive. Some of the greatest writers were depressed or bi-polar. ADD people have a huge creative side to them.

I think god gives people certain problems because they know they’re strong enough to overcome them and they’re meant to have them. :)
Just don’t give up, whatevers going on with you, is meant to happen. Think of how happy you’ll be when this is all over. Maybe you’re supposed to have this sadness so in the end you can be superrrr happy.

I think its so sad that stuff like this happens to people, especially that its happening to me also. But the people we see daily or hear about that have depression and kill themselves, it happens because they gave up.
You can’t give up. :)
You can beat it and you will be the happiest person in the world when you do.

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armine-armeni offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (2 months, 2 weeks after post)

Dear friend, all this writing that you wrote i had been thou, and the only thing that helped me, was Jesus Christ. I started to read the bible, go to church and finally i repented.It might sound kind of weird for you, but that the truth.I would like to write one of verses down for you,
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his begotten son that whoever believe in him, may have eternal life…So if you got any questions, hope that you can write me back, and be blessed.I will pray for you, with my family. Thank you for reading, and hope you’ll get better.

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