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i know it’s wrong but it made me feel better.

i dont even know what made me even think about, but when i did i really gave it some thought. i was really afraid of hurting myself so i only cut myself a little bit, but surprisingly it felt kinda good. it’s the only pain i can control right now and i love the idea of having control over something. the only problem is that i dont know if i’ll be able to stop.

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always_angel_fac offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (13 minutes after post)

i will just ignore that because it makes me feel better mentally. i dont fell like i’m hurting myself at alll

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sticks_and_stones offline Verified User (9 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

haha yeah

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An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

I would self-injure myself when I was 12-16, at that time, I didn’t care of the scars, the sadness it brought to my parents when they found out… The pain, for some reason helped. Looking back, I wish I hadn’t gone through that phase, but there’s really nothing I can do about it it.

Try to stop if you can ASAP, you’ll feel alot of emotions later in life when you look at your arms, legs, tummy and find scars all over, which will never fade.

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

=(
please stop it

Okay for one thing, if you want is control, why are you doing that when you could be trying to fix whats really bothering you instead? The fact that your hurting yourself shows you dont have control over yourself and no self restraint.

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always_angel_fac offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (27 minutes after post)

i dont know why it makes me feel better it just does. and i’m a fast healer so i’m not worrried about any scars. i only cut my arms, my palms and the bottom of my feet, it relaxes me.

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

Theres lots of things out there that can relax you that dont hurt you though. Why hurt yourself even then? ya know =/

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always_angel_fac offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (41 minutes after post)

its the only pain i can control right now. i decide when it comes and when it doesn’t and i love it

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

Shouldnt you try and control happiness instead of pain? Just watch some funny movies/shows/standup and you might feel better. Go out into the sun and watch the clouds. Exercise can give you control over your own body but in a non harmful way. You can control the feelings of others and try and make them feel better and trust me that will make you feel better too.

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An Undisclosed Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (51 minutes after post)

Well, literally, you ARE hurting yourself. If you could REALLY control pain, wouldnt you STOP the pain? THAT, is not control. Adding pain on top of pain will only make you explode later. STOP DOING IT! You can be totally anonymous calling a suicide hotline. It’s okay to call.

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always_angel_fac offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

either way, i’m dealing with my pain. this just seems easier to me

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forcallofdut offline Verified User (8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

Ignoring the obvious is easier i guess…

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 10 minutes after post)

please stop, dont make me have to come over there -_-

Why do you crave control so much? whats going on thats getting you down?

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always_angel_fac offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)

everybody is taking it from me. my parents hardly let me go anywhere. they sign me up for things without my consent saying that if i have a talent then i should use it at all times. my teachers are asking for things that are uncalled for. they wont me to help everyone when i cant help myself. at church they want me to be an example to every little kid there and i cant. my youth pastor tag teams with my parents when she’s trying to get me to do something i dont want to. it’s usually grownups asking me for everything and its impossible to say no with parents like mine. my life is a schedule that i didnt even plan.

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 27 minutes after post)

You need to talk to them about it then, how they are treating you or make you feel.

I think I get it now, your just under too much pressure and stress because people hold you so high and your afraid of letting them down. I dont think you will let them down.

Just do some unexpected fun new thing if you dont like how its “planned”

I really dont want you to keep hurting yourself like that. =S

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always_angel_fac offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (14 hours, 36 minutes after post)

oh thanks for the advice really. when i went to tell them yesterday they called me spoiled and went through the whole ‘back in my day we obeyed all of our elders’ speech

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (1 day, 1 hour after post)

Then you can respond back that you didnt ask for those things and they are forcing it on you because of thier own insecurities and let downs and are trying to live thier life through you. That might get them mad but i think wording it that way they might snap out of it later. I cant be sure, I havent done it before.

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An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (2 days, 5 hours after post)

thanx but it didnt work. made me go to a play rehersal i didnt even sign myself up for. got home at 12:30 am and then my mom woke me up at seven to get ready to go with her to praise rehersal that i’m not even in. then i had to stay the whole day for the play.

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sum offline Verified User (7 months, 4 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 7 months, 3 weeks ago (2 days, 5 hours after post)

Maybe get some other relative or family friend to talk to them for you? It might be more persuading, if you keep going against them it would get them mad a bit maybe but if you hold your ground and dont back off they will eventually stop controlling you.

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