Gypsy, what is going wrong? Maybe it’s “world astrology.” Sometimes things go wrong everywhere for a few days, and then they straighten up. Have you ever noticed that on some days nobody can drive right? Or nobody likes you for a couple of days? Or communication is screwed up? That can actually be astrology.
I’ve never thought of it that way honestly….but its been more then a few days that everythings been goin wrong…its been like a few months…Just lately the past 3 weeks have been the most difficult. I just can’t deal with it anymore.
The best thing I can think of to do in that situation is give up. Just let it all go on without you. Go on a retreat. Leave it behind.
I know how you feel. Eventually you feel better anyways though. Whats been happening now? Would talking help?
What kind of stuff is going wrong for you?
Yeah I really want to get away…at the end of May i’m going to get away for awhile and go visit a freind in North Carolina…12 hours away from where I live soo that will be good. Its just I cant let everything go. That doesn’t work for me…its like the more I want to let it just slide away…the more it follows me. The more it crushes everything I work for and leaves me no farther ahead or pushes me backward where its hard to get up.
sum wrote:
I know how you feel. Eventually you feel better anyways though. Whats been happening now? Would talking help?
Yeah I think talking is just what i need to do right now :) Thanks. Alot has been goin on. I was in the hospital for a few days for alcohol poisoning (completley embarrased) my family is a ****** up mess ALL the time, My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me over the phone…found out HE was cheating on me, My fish died, I have all these psch problems (depression, adhd, possibly bipolar), bills are getting out of hand…and a billion other things
I also keep having these crazy thoughts about killing myself…i’ve tried it twice and i’m still here. I’m not saying i’m going to do it again…i’m just a mess. I can’t stop thinking about it. I cut myself sometimes and that WAS getting better but I can’t control it anymore. No one knows EXACTLY whats wrong with me. If i dont know whats wrong in the first place how can they fix me? How can I fix myself?
The last part could ALL have to do with drinking, and I really don’t mean to be preachy when I say that. It’s true though.
It would really be good to simplify your life and eat really healthy, quit drinking altogether, go to bed early … all that boring stuff. You might be surprised how things would clear up.
The thing is I DON”T drink that often! To get the alcohol poisoning was a crazy accident! I seriously didn’t mean for it to happen! I can’t remember anything from that night but bites and pieces…I’m still waiting for lab results to come back from the drug tests they did. I DON”T do drugs but they think I may have been slipped something and they had to send it out to the lab! That freaks me out! All this other stuff about killing myself and everything started WAY before the hospital part…its just a giant mess
Florie wrote:
It would really be good to simplify your life and eat really healthy, quit drinking altogether, go to bed early … all that boring stuff. You might be surprised how things would clear up.
I have quit drinking haven’t had anything like that since that happened. I’m going on more walks and its hard for me to go to bed real early cause i work midnights…5pm to 5:30am and so my sleep schedule is off…has been for about 3 years now that I’ve been on this schedule. I just can’t do it anymore!
Im sorry that all that stuff is going on. Just calm down and dont think about if you were drugged or not, its best to just think you werent.
Yeah your right…honesly i’m kinda torn about the whole situation of that…Like..I acted sooo stupid and am embarrased that I acted that way! It would be easier to be like “I was drugged, thats why I acted like that” but then on the other hand, If I really was then that would be a ****** up mess in itself!
Ignorance is bliss……. dont think too hard while you can. If anything happened its best to save it for later rather than now since you dont even know
Gee, one time my aunt and uncle came to visit and we went out and bought some liquor (because I don’t drink much at all) and I had ONE drink. I think the liquor was somehow bad, because when I went to bed everything was spinning around, and I really wasn’t drunk at all.
I agree with Sum. Just take it easy and tell yourself good things. Kind of just chill out for a while. Working nights really goofs up most people. It’s unnatural, and your body rebels – so does your mind.
I hope you can get a break really soon, and maybe find a job that’s better for you.
You should drink more water too to make sure whatever the problem was is all the way out so it wont effect your mind more than it already is from the emotions.
all good words from Sum!!!
sum wrote:
Ignorance is bliss……. dont think too hard while you can. If anything happened its best to save it for later rather than now since you dont even know
Your right! I don’t want to know! Especially all the stupid things I did at the party what little I do know about the night…isn’t all that great :S
Florie wrote:
Gee, one time my aunt and uncle came to visit and we went out and bought some liquor (because I don’t drink much at all) and I had ONE drink. I think the liquor was somehow bad, because when I went to bed everything was spinning around, and I really wasn’t drunk at all.
I agree with Sum. Just take it easy and tell yourself good things. Kind of just chill out for a while. Working nights really goofs up most people. It’s unnatural, and your body rebels – so does your mind.
I hope you can get a break really soon, and maybe find a job that’s better for you.
Awww i’m sorry that happened! Thats not fun at all to feel that way! I’ve been doing nights for a while now…its actually working out well for me. My job is kinda stressful as I’m a Nursing Assistant in a hospital, but I guess when it comes down too it I like it. I like helping people! Honestly I’d rather help them then myself. I know I should care about what happens to ME! But seriously I couldn’t care much less. Everyone else seems to have so much more to offer then I ever could! It seems like no one really cares about me. Even tho everyone says that I’m wrong…I CAN’T help feeling that I’m right. I don’t really have anyone. The ones I do have I thank God they are in my life but for some reason or other…I still feel alone and unwanted…isn’t that crazy?!
sum wrote:
You should drink more water too to make sure whatever the problem was is all the way out so it wont effect your mind more than it already is from the emotions.
Thanks I’ll give it a try:)
No, gypsy-corner, it isn’t crazy. I think everyone feels that way sometimes … It’s sad to feel that way though. I know that feeling very well.
Dont lack care for yourself, your as good as anyone else. If you dont care about yourself you could hurt those who care for you or inhibit your ability to care for others.
Its not crazy to feel alone and unwanted, sounds more like a insecurity thing. I get that a lot myself, its like you have to always hear good things to feel good and a single bad thing can ruin it.
The “orphan” feeling … :)
sum wrote:
Dont lack care for yourself, your as good as anyone else. If you dont care about yourself you could hurt those who care for you or inhibit your ability to care for others.
Its not crazy to feel alone and unwanted, sounds more like a insecurity thing. I get that a lot myself, its like you have to always hear good things to feel good and a single bad thing can ruin it.
Its not that I have to hear good things about myself. Actually I hate being the center of attention. It makes me feel weird:P I just want to feel something. I don’t hear anything good that people say because they DON’T say it! My family really doesn’t say/do anything to make me feel like I shouldn’t feel like this. When they do it comes out sounding flat and meaningless. I guess its hard to accept that someone actually gives a ****. I just feel like even tho I have people in my life…I couldn’t be more alone then someone who had no one.
or at least a trip to the ocean
I wish! Illinois doesn’t have much of a water scene!:(
gypsy-corner wrote:
Its not that I have to hear good things about myself. Actually I hate being the center of attention. It makes me feel weird:P I just want to feel something. I don’t hear anything good that people say because they DON’T say it! My family really doesn’t say/do anything to make me feel like I shouldn’t feel like this. When they do it comes out sounding flat and meaningless. I guess its hard to accept that someone actually gives a ****. I just feel like even tho I have people in my life…I couldn’t be more alone then someone who had no one.
Yeah I get that, I get embarrassed sometimes when good things are said about me, but the difference is i love it sinse i need it. Yeah, like I said you can sometiems reject whats said if its good but anything bad sinks in. Its really just how your thinking rather than what they think.
Florie wrote:
you need a kindred soul
No point in worrying over that. My love just came out of nowhere when i wasnt looking for anything
Thats usually how it happens Sum :) Im happy for you!
Oh its not that happy though being unrequited T_T
I didn’t necessarily mean a lover – a friend who really understands you, and understands the basic stuff of life, like sometimes feeling like an orphan, needing to escape, finding the same things funny, etc.
awww I”m sorry Sum! Thats stinks!
Florie wrote:
I didn’t necessarily mean a lover – a friend who really understands you, and understands the basic stuff of life, like sometimes feeling like an orphan, needing to escape, finding the same things funny, etc.
pets sometimes work too
gypsy-corner wrote:
awww I”m sorry Sum! Thats stinks!
yeah it does =/
im working on fixing it but its crazy
Yeah we have a lot of pets here…sometimes I think too many…Thats another thing thats bothering me! My dog (Michael) who I’ve had for 14 years is getting really sick and I think is on his way out pretty soon. It sucks but its for the better I know. He’s lived a good life. He just means a HECK of alot to me. When things hit they hit ALOT at a time I guess:\
Yeah, ive lost about 4 dogs and 3 cats over my life and my current dog has cancer. So i know that well.
It’s just darn awful to lose a pet. It tears your heart out.
Awww I’m sorry about that! Animals play such a large role in our lives almost as much as humans. Thank God we have them in our lives:)
Okay no more depressing thoughts on pets lol
Maybe you should eat some icecream! =D
YUMMM That does sound amazing! I just got done with dinner not to long ago…and i can’t believe I’m saying this…I’m not hungry:’( Ice cream does sound absolutly WONDERFUL tho!!!!
I agree. They give a LOT. And they aren’t neurotic! :) They are innocent. A good example, they set. We should be more like them.
Ice cream is ALWAYS good.
Goodnight Gypsy-corner. I hope things get better for you, starting tomorrow morning!! :)
Theres also frozen custard, dont know how its different than icecream but it tastes the same to me only better and it melts faster i think though.
Sometimes when im down i almost completely lose my appetite.
Good night Florie! Thanks for talking with me! Have a good night!!:)
My stomach kinda gets upset when I get down…like I get a kinda GI thing goin:( LOL
I have had that too, where my stomach felt bad but i more likely get a headache most the time or start feeling faint even.
Yes!!! I get that way too! It felt like I was going to like pass out! I actually did this one time at the grocery store…not that long ago! I went to the ER and they said I was just overly stressed:S My heart also starts racing really fast when I get upset.
My heart always feels funny when i think of anything love realated because of the girl i like, like a crushing feeling and a hard beating
I only feel faint if its something related to certain things but not others.
To start with, Sum is a genius, and Florie seems to be doing a good job too. Sorry I couldn’t read every word of this thread, its getting kinda late here, so I’ll try to keep this short. Something really quickly that my doctor said thats interesting is less sunlight can lead to depression sometimes, so sunlight is important. though I realize it would be difficult on your schedule (I have a similar internal clock. up all night, then tired each day.) but try to get sun whenever you can.
I have to go for now, but the best of luck to you!
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the down weeks are awful, but if we didn’t have them we couldn’t appreciate the up days, the universe has a way of balancing these things out and i’m sure good times will be coming your way soon, just makes sure your not too busy wallowing in the negative stuff or they might just pass you by x
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Thanks guys I really appreciat it!
A Living Paradox your right! WHen I’m out in the sun I really do feel a little better. Sometimes tho it makes me a little down cause I feel I should be able to enjoy it more then I do…like I’m missin out on something.
Natalie- I’ll check it out! I’ve never heard of that before! Thanks:)
Declapalme-Thanks I hope your right! Sometimes I do get overly involved in the negative:( I wish I didn’t but just hard to help it after awhile. Thanks:)
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life is full of surprises.some of them are very interesting others are terrible;but the important thing is learning from your experiences.
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bemget wrote:
life is full of surprises.some of them are very interesting others are terrible;but the important thing is learning from your experiences.
ps-praying and reading the bible is the biggest remedy for your situation,start by reading the gospel of Jhon to give you an understanding of what jesus christ has done to you.He loves you very much and wants to help you.email me - i> small>(email removed) /small> /i>
YOU ARE CORRECT PREACH :D
Anonymous wrote:
bemget wrote:
life is full of surprises.some of them are very interesting others are terrible;but the important thing is learning from your experiences.
ps-praying and reading the bible is the biggest remedy for your situation,start by reading the gospel of Jhon to give you an understanding of what jesus christ has done to you.He loves you very much and wants to help you.email me - i> small>(email removed) /small> /i>
YOU ARE CORRECT PREACH :D
Why is it there is ALWAYS someone trying to save your soul? I am so tired of redderik that religious ppl spread.
I agree with freedom of religion,
But I also believe in freedom from religion.
Its ok let them talk about it! They aren’t forcing anything on anyone. Just opinions
I disagree with mostly everything.
I think you should face problems, not just forget about them. You’ll have to deal with them at some point, and the longer you wait the worst they’ll get.
I would own up to those “stupid things” you did that night. Taking responsibility would be mature.
I don’t know about where you work, but try asking for a different schedule.
I do think you need to get away for a while. Relax and sit and think about things, like making some major changes in your life. You don’t seem very happy with it.
And pray. That’s the most helpful piece of advice I can offer.
Best wishes :]
I’m just in the same situation as u are right now… nothing is all right… bad boyfriend, family problems, money trouble… but… I assure you that it will go away :) I think it’s a very good idea for you to visit a friend, that will cheer you up or at least make you forget about all that bad stuff for a while. :) have fun, and try to ignore your problems for one day or two, and once you relax a little bit, you’ll see that your thoughts will organize, and it will be easier to deal with all that sh** that`s worrying you
Hope you`ll feel better soon :)
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