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i’ve had the hugest crush on a guy for the past 2 years.
i don’t know what it is, but for some reason i just can’t stop liking him no matter how hard i try.
he’s changed a lot since i started liking him, too. at first he was a funny, sweet, emotional guy. then he was an awesome, musical, rocker guy. and now he’s a depressed, people hating, musical-ish, serious guy who hates me. and i’ve liked him just as much every time he’s changed.
i’ve always been his friend, even tho i’m not his BEST friend, or even best girl friend. i wish i could be, but he’s always liked one of my friends better. i’m almost definitely sure he has a crush on her, which makes me feel even worse since i have SO much more in common with him and i understand how he feels (i’ve been depressed before, my friend who he likes doesn’t understand him tho) and more than once she’s said something along the lines of ‘ugh i wish he’d stop being so weird i hate him’ and i’ve had to convince her that he’s not trying to be like this, he’s going through a bad time, we should stand by him instead of getting angry. and still he likes her better?
by now i’ve lost all hope of him ever liking me, so even tho i still like him it’s different than when i first started. but no matter how much i try, i can’t stop liking him. i’ve tried seeing him as a bad person, thinking how mean he is and why should i like a person like that but nothing works. i can’t ever stay mad at him no matter what he does to me. i tried to tell myself i deserve better than a people hating, anti-social guy but i keep on liking him anyways.
it just makes me feel worse and worse being unloved by this guy after all i’ve helped him with, comforted him, been understanding, and convinced his best friend to stay his friend more times than he can imagine.
i know i must sound so stupid but i just feel like such an unlovable load of crap. why can’t i stop liking him??
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