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231me231

I Tried…

I try to be nice, I try to communicate, I try and I try, so why doesn’t it work? why do I still get shunned? Why do I still feel emotionless, I feel empty, I don’t care. I don’t love, hate, get upset, feel happy, I’m like a zombie. A mindless shell that is seen but not understood, heard but not listened to.

I have everything I need, Me. That’s all i need. What’s the point In being near them If they don’t want me close? When will It end? When can I feel again?

These are questions no one can answer. Questions that have no answer, I can’t change, They refuse to, so what is the point?

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Eddieee 163 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (5 minutes after post)

Drop you defenses
You win
I’m all for seeing
Your true colors within

I know I’m blind
These painted colors
Just believe in me
Yet, I see your soul

This faith grows old
Life is cold
Where is the key
To fined comfort in…

Drop your defenses
Just believe

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kumite_clar #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

its not going to change. everything is pointless. nothing really matters, u can only make something pointless. i’ve been in ur boat for years and its frustrating. nothing matters. u would be fine sitting in a jail with ur eyes closed with an I V in ur arm. goodluck

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Eddieee 163 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

NO. Every thing changes…this to shall pass.

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

you will start caring, just cope for now, it’s a defensive thing to protect yourself…i’ve been there, its really depressing feeling nothing about anything, but it will pass, just continue

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

10 years? it hasnt passed in ten years?

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Eddieee 163 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (24 minutes after post)

You are loved…drop your sheild.

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (25 minutes after post)

in that amount of time you have never cared? is it just your family you apply this to, or is it your friends aswell? You cant help what your born into, but your friends, they are your choice. There are people like you, that you are compatible with…

“man is here for the sake of other men-above all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness depends”-Einstein

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

i’ve had friends, but i never cared for them. i know that sounds harsh but i didn’t.

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

So can you think of any extreme emotion you’ve had? Losing anyone/anything that really upset you, or caused you to shut down from people?
with me, my dad died, and i just stopped caring, because it hurt too much

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (30 minutes after post)

my great uncle has died, my great aunt, my aunt and my granddad have all died, i didnt even cry at the funeral

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (38 minutes after post)

but also i, myself have died 3 times

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

Annyia D.B Hardwick wrote:
but also i, myself have died 3 times

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (40 minutes after post)

ive dies 3 times, my heart stopped, my breathings stopped, i was even pronounced dead by the doctor once

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Eddieee 163 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (43 minutes after post)

Pull back the shield between us
And I’ll.. kiss you
I know this darkness in you mind
Drop your defenses

Believe in this
You reveled your colors here
Come to my arms
What are your true colors within

I need to know just how you feel
I need the key to let me in…

They need the key!!!

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (44 minutes after post)

the thing is, you do only need you, but what do you want? because if you try hard to be nice all the time, you’re seeking their affection,..

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

people told me to be nice, they told me to talk to people, an when i do, they ignore it, and edieee no offense i don’t like poems

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

so what are you looking for help with then?

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231me231 10 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

i wanted to no the whole point in it all

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Eddieee 163 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (49 minutes after post)

Poems are my shield, Sorry

Annyia D.B Hardwick wrote:
people told me to be nice, they told me to talk to people, an when i do, they ignore it, and edieee no offense i don’t like poems

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Lalalala 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (50 minutes after post)

the bigger picture, well i dont have any religious agenda, so to me the point is to find what you like, who you like and where you like and to live…its all about learning, i didnt really know myself like really know myself until i realised my awful side, but you need that to know where your going and what you can take-it makes you far more resilient than most

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Neutra 120 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (2 hours, 34 minutes after post)

Well, you already did your part so you don’t have to worry about it. Just because people act stubborn dosen’t mean that you have to dwell on what’s wrong as well.

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