Well, I will get right to the point.
My only hobby is to play videogames, which I’m sure isn’t rare in today’s society. I always considered it my ‘talent’, not that I was neccesarily the greatest at video games (not at all) but I was at least definitely above average. My point is that for some reason, lately I’ve been doing really bad in videogames (mostly online). I know to most of you it doesn’t seem like a big deal, which I perfectly understand, but it’s just that its the only thing I enjoy doing. Everytime I play something, purely to have fun, I get my behind blasted. It’s like the only thing I liked was swept from beneath my feet. I’ll give you an example: I’ll play a shooting game, I’m about to kill somebody with my gun and the person doesn’t notice me, I’m literally a bullet away from killing him. And BAM!, his team-mate comes and shoots me in the back with a shotgun.
The online world is a crazy place, and if stuff like that happens every now and then - then that’s understandable. But it happens EVERYTIME! and that was just 1 out of 1000’s of examples.
My eyesight isn’t the best, in fact I’m nearly blind in my left eye. But with the glasses I wear (24/7), my vision in the right eye is 20/20 (which btw is ‘average’). I honestly don’t think it’s my eyesight hindering me from being as good as I was. Well anyways it’s just sad when you try to be fair and have a nice game, and you basically get punished. I am pretty into videogames, and I always check out screenshots and videos of new, upcoming ones. But I always think in the back of my head, that it’s not really worth getting since I’ll just get dissapointed due to my skill. I know you people are probably gonna try to tell em to practice or something similar, but I play videogames usually everyday so I really don’t understand. It probably seems ridiculous to you guys, but its like this: Imagine you’re a photographer and the only thing you like doing is taking pictures, but all come out blurry. No matter how good your tripod is, how good the lighting is, and how still the camera is they all come out blurry.
It’s been like this since over a year, so its not like Im having a bad streak. But the thing is I truly try to be good, watch other players, practice. But w/e I do, I still get whopped. I switch up my gameplay, but its pointless. I’ve been trying to buy some new games, but as the economy current state is - I have no money. Well people always say “everything happens for a reason”, so I should probably just hang up my gloves and quit. It’s just sad, because I even avoid buying games that are great since I know I’ll get killed at it. I truly wonder if I have some type of curse attached to me, or if in mny last life I killed 120 people to deserve this punishment. But its unbearable to see that the only thing you were once good at (and had fun with), you get destroyed at. Like you were the grandmaster of chess, and an amateur beats you three times in a row. It’s saddening, but I should probably just give it up and find something boring to do.
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