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there it goes, was in a club
and ever since i was in school was dreaming of starting this kind of club so when i entered university first year [ which was last year ] it wasn’t aproved of but i managed to meet friends with the same goal [ we all like japanese fandom wheter its anime, manga, dramas you name it] we were together for about a year, and as you know uni life is seperated for each semester alone so last semester we opened the club and new people joined ( i was under a lot of stress from studies and my GPA really dropped so i bailed on them most of that semester ) this semester i only saw them a couple of times and they seem to have lost faith in me .. never getting in touch like we used to .. i tried to explain to them .. but words failed me .. so i want to know who is at wrong here .. me for concentrating on studies ( and hating it )or them for having fun and almost forgetting about me ?
and should i have the confidence to show up and gather with them like i used to .. now its almost 6 months ago ? ( note: whenever they see me they go like WOOOAAA here comes the ghost ! )

oh ya .. and one more thing i hate it … now i am more and more anixous and kinda parandoid and feel that my social skills are demoloshed ( feel like craaaaaaaap )
plz help ;-;

tell me if i was wrong
ever since i was in school was dreaming of starting this kind of club so when i entered university first year [ which was last year ] it wasn’t aproved of but i managed to meet friends with the same goal [ we all like japanese fandom wheter its anime, manga, dramas you name it] we were together for about a year, and as you know uni life is seperated for each semester alone so last semester we opened the club and new people joined ( i was under a lot of stress from studies and my GPA really dropped so i bailed on them most of that semester ) this semester i only saw them a couple of times and they seem to have lost faith in me .. never getting in touch like we used to .. i tried to explain to them .. but words failed me .. so i want to know who is at wrong here .. me for concentrating on studies ( and hating it )or them for having fun and almost forgetting about me ?
and should i have the confidence to show up and gather with them like i used to .. now its almost 6 months ago ? ( note: whenever they see me they go like WOOOAAA here comes the ghost ! )

oh ya .. and one more thing i hate it … now i am more and more anixous and kinda parandoid and feel that my social skills are demoloshed ( feel like craaaaaaaap )
plz help ;-;