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i really just need someone to talk to.

Someone who will listen. Someone who wont judge. My girlfriend of nearly 3 years broke up with me a little over a month ago. this is about a month and half away from our senior prom. the day i was going to propose to her. i thought we loved eachother. I loved her more than anything else on this planet. she told me everyday that i was her whole life and i meant everything to her. i lost my virginity to this girl to add to the pain. she left me for a friend that i knew from times that us 3 have hung out. I work at a grocery store and i have been for 2 years. i was closing registers when i got a txt message from her saying our love has witherd and that she has been with him for 2 months. This means that i spent new years eve, our snow ball, and many other things with her while she was cheating. I knew that he liked her alot, and that they liked spending time together. I got jealous and said to stop seeing this guy. I acused her of cheating a few times. she left me bc she says she felt trapped. I still to this day dont know what that meant. the day after the break up she thought i wouldnt talk to her when that was acutally the complete opposite of what i wanted. we start talking and she tells me that she wants to be friends with benefits. she claims that to this day she has never had sex with that guy. i truely believe her. I dont know why i have a gut feeling that she is telling the truth. This guy has some sort of mental condition. i cant put my finger on it. he is some kind of slow. so once people found out who she left me for, being in high school, i got ridiculed all the time. about a week later she told me that she would help me find a prom date. i never made many friends because of her. i was always spending all my time with her. we had a great time together. whenever i did find a girl that was a friend. my gf would ***** me and the girl out. i have always been taught not to cheat. thats just how i was brought up. so i never did anything with these friends. my ex gf decides to try and hook me up with this ugly girl that was a good friend of hers. i had to turn her down due to the fact that i didnt want to sit at the same table with my ex and her new bf. so i did turn to one of the girls that i liked talking to. im a shy kid so i asked her indirectly to go to prom with me. she said maybe for a really long time. at first she didnt remember who i was because i didnt talk to her that much. eventually she says yes, but that is alot later. me and my ex have sex a few times. meaning that she cheated on her new bf too. she says she still loves me and has feelings for me. her parents tell her that they are moving to a different state due to a job offering. that leaves her with a few options. move in with bf, move in with unstable sister, or move in with a friend. she choses her bf and now the other options are out of the question. our feelings for each other have grown back again. she told me she loves having sex with me. she loves being as ‘1′together. she loves the way i kiss and the way we have sex. by this time i get attached to prom date girl. she says she doesnt want a bf. she claims that she would make a bad gf. she says she has manfriends. basically a bunch of people that she considers to be somewhat couples with. she has sex with one regularly but seemed to stop and start saying no once i came into the picture. i offer to take this girl places but she always has some sort of excuse why she cant go. Ive been asking her to the movies for the past 2-3 weeks. alas she always has another excuse. by this time i have decently gotten over my ex. but she starts up with the whole i love you stories again. i dont know what to do with this girl and my ex. deep inside i would love to be back with my ex. besides being an infant i can remember 2 times in my life i cried. when my dad died and when she left me. i have cried way to much over her. all sorts of things in my life remind me of her. she says she wants to start hanging out with me more and more. i am very attracted to this new girl. i would love to be with her. she drinks and smokes but her looks and personality make up for it. this new girl loves talking about her old bfs. she also tells me that an ex is trying to get back with her. i am now stuck. i dont know what to do. no one will listen to this story. the people ive called friends forever are sick of my situation and offer me no help anymore. i need to get out of this now, before i or someone else gets hurt even more. promdategirl wont be hurt to bad. ive tried telling ex that i dont want to talk to her. i told her im trying to get away from her. i will never have a chance with ex bc she needs new bf to have a place to live. promdategirl will apear to like me, then all of a sudden switch like she doesnt. i dont know what to do. im very nice and kind to both of them. is there any one who has any sort of idea what i should do in this situation. there is probably more i could add to this story i just cant remember it right now bc im so depressed.

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