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What if i’m the ONLY reason he isn’t dead yet?
I have this friend who i’m very close to. I love him so much. But he’s quite a miserable person to be honest. More of a loner, quiet, and somewhat cynical. I’m the only person he really has anymore. He doesn’t want to live anymore, he’s said so & his actions in the past prove that. He says he’ll stick around for me, because he doesn’t want to hurt me. I guess i should just be happy that he feels he has a reason to stick around, but its just so emotionally draining on me. I mean, i’m always there for him & i can’t help but wonder if we ever got into an argument or something than he might decide he has no reason to live & might go ahead & kill himself. I could never live with that. I love him to pieces & he loves me to. I just want to help the best i can.
i cant go to an adult about it, cuz people have tried to help him before. Through counseling and everything. But it doesnt seem to work. So i kinda made it my mission to ensure he isn’t so sad & stays alive. Who knew it was such hard work… I just dont know what to do anymore. I dont know if i could live with myself if he committed suicide & yet all of this is taking it’s toll on me too. Can anyone help or give advice please?
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