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*!MaryChan!*
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I don’t feel well.

Still trying to cry - but I can’t.
Still trying to feel whole again - can’t.
Trying to be happy again - not succeeding .

To my friend came back from suspension. Told him a lot about my past. and he hugged me… I almost cried ( but I couldn’t)

People say they are there for me and I know that. But they aren’t Physically here.

I’m recently have been having flash backs of being abused by my brother.
I’m shying away from everyone at school again.

I keep having small panic attacks. Some wher I can’t breathe.

I seem to be short of breath sometimes.
I get either really hot to where i need to sit so i don’t pass out or something. Or relaly cold to where I’m shivering.

i have been having the urge to cut.
But I know I need to find a different escape.

And I still have no idea why im the way i am.

Can someone help me out a little?

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (7 minutes after post)

You say it’s annoying when people cut..
But you don’t know what it’s really like for them.
Cutting may be for someone the only escape.. .

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

I’ve tried multiple ways to kill myself… I couldn’t do it either..

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

Idon’t know

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kforhel offline Verified User (1 year) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (18 minutes after post)

you know its very easy to say that I want to kill myself… I wanaa die… just because we dont know the importance of this life……………. Once we are about to lose it then only we know how much imp it is……
Ask someone who is dying with cancer or some other way he will tell you what life really means……
Life is there to live…. and you have full control on how you want to make it….
If you dont like the way you are living try to change it..give it all you have..

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Neutra offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 12 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (38 minutes after post)

It’s sad to hear you feel that way. You are the way you are because you are an individual. We all are and express the way we all feel differently. It dosen’t matter who we live with or who we interact with, the truth is that you can only be the way you are just as everyone else can only be who they are as well. I know we can’t be by yourside physically but we are all connected in thought and if we could be there with you physically most of us would be by yourside. I can’t speak for everyone else here but when someone is in trouble that I can’t always help I still keep them in mind as I wanted someone for me at one point to be with them in thought. I know this may not help alot but just try to continue to do your best for now. Wake up saying that it’s going to be a good day no matter what happens, you won’t let anything pull you down as you can only make the decision to be happy. I hope you feel better mary chan.

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Sans offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 57 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (42 minutes after post)

Ask yourself what’s going on right now that makes you feel pressured. Is it the move?

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

I think the move may be a part of it. but idontknow.

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 7 minutes after post)

It sounds like major anxiety Mary. I have been to the emergency room at least twice because of it. It really stinks, but sometimes that is how we react to stress. There are ways to cope with it. Are you seeing a counselor?

Hang in there girl!!!

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

No.. I don’t go to the counselors at school.
they don’t understand..

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 14 minutes after post)

Reading above I see you are moving? I am moving on Friday and I am beside myself with anxiety. Maybe I can sense a little of what you MAY be feeling. It is good to have someone to talk to though. Do you have a relative you can talk to or a close friend who is pretty understanding of these things?

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 16 minutes after post)

No..i’ve tried talking to relatives and friends..but they don’t really understand.

we moved the saturday before last saturday.

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 22 minutes after post)

oh wow! Was the move successful, I mean you didnt lose anything did you? It happens sometimes……. anyway, is it hard for you to convey how you feel? What part do you feel people least understand about your situation?

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 28 minutes after post)

Yeah.. we got moved fine.

trying to explain through speaking actually is impossible..
I was confused by a promot for english one day.. and I worded it all funny - definitely didn’t come out the way i practiced in my head - and he looked at me funny and almost laughed at me..
I could barely speak above a whisper..
it’s hard for m to communicate for people.

They try to relate it to themselves..
i once wrote a total of 8 pages (front and back) Of how i felt and how i felt the way people were treating me.
a “friend” got mad at me for not showing her so i showed her.
most of it was about her treating me the way she does.
and you know what she said?

*crying * ” i feel the same way. idon’t really fit in.” She fits in with everybody.. and she ignores me! And then says ” oh i feel the same”
.. that made me feel like i wasn’t important. she took something about me, that i wrote about how i feel. and aplied it to her.

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Shakeybritches offline Verified User (1 year, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 45 minutes after post)

I can relate to having difficulty communicating.

It’s good that you write how you feel, I believe. Sometimes it helps me, though I do not practice it much, but it helps when I do it. However, I dont know that I could ever let someone else see it because I would be afraid of “revealing” too much about my frailties and I would feel very vulnerable.

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 6 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 51 minutes after post)

I had to.. or else she wouldn’t talk to me.

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