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But why kill yourself when you’ve got us?

cjcarcraz wrote:
Then run into the road and get runed over then or jump off a cliff!!!

You idiot shut up and go somewherelse.

u dont wnt to kill your self u just feel like it, trust me life will get better i was down in the dumps at one time trust me just look at the world in a diffrent light and you will pull through!

Wow, really?
You couldn’t come up with a single reason? Are you kidding me?!

I’ll just be as bold as to do a little bit of profiling here. Hope you won’t mind.

We’re alike you and I.
I can really relate to a lot of what you said. I’ve always been a-social and “weird”, but not in the good way. Just that sort of person that you feel like smacking down.

Only with me it took 2 more years to understand what I did wrong. It’s not that people don’t like you, no. You just let them believe that you are not likeable.

I’m sure deep down you are an alright guy. Probably fairly funny and smart, right? Your problem is that you can’t promote yourself right. You probably look at people your age and start to judge right away “Bah, morons. Look at them smoking and laughing like idiots”. I use to do that. And, yeah, you’ll probably be right about them most of the time, but that still doesn’t mean you shouldn’t give people a chance.

Relating is very difficult, I know. I’d say that I got far better at it when I signed up for a drawing class last year. At first I was passive and introverted, but after a couple of weeks I sort of broke the barrier and started cracking some jokes. Before I knew it, I was the heart of the company and I was lucky, ’cause I was the only guy there. Girls started looking up to me and it’s actually pretty nice feeling to get. I even had a chance with two of them, but things got sort of complicated. Nevermind.

What I’m trying to say is that you need to start small. Most people are nice ny default, by they choose or are led to believe that they should hide it, because nice = weak and pathetic.

You need to establish a contact with the human race, but I suppose it would be difficult to do so just out of thin air. Try to look for a group or activity you can join. Anything at all. As soon as you start opening up to people you’ll see how much easier it gets.

Go to www.emofree.com and download the manual and read it-ask a counselor or someone strong that you can trust to help you with it-you need immediate help, and there are reasons for feeling the way you do, and there are solutions without meds, without internment in a psych ward-please, just try it-take a look and see if you can embrace something so simple-I am not there yet, but almost

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u have a terrible social skills, i presume. why do u hide from ppl? dont u hv family, relatives to begin w/? make an effort to socialize, wat ru damnn afraid of?

I don’t remember my 21st - it was /that/ exciting!

I also didn’t start living until about 23… then i had my heart broken and hid for another few years…

but **** - am i enjoying life now!

It gets better :)

I’m not going to say more, except to give support to crafte :D (although i would disagree and say things differently at a few small points, the main is superb, and right :)

Read - Listen - Learn - 21? pah! - think of the **** you’ve taken up til now as a karmic downpayment for a fecking superb life later! - but, read :) and ask questions :) and learn :)

crafte wrote:
Wow, really?
You couldn’t come up with a single reason? Are you kidding me?!

I’ll just be as bold as to do a little bit of profiling here. Hope you won’t mind.

We’re alike you and I.
I can really relate to a lot of what you said. I’ve always been a-social and “weird”, but not in the good way. Just that sort of person that you feel like smacking down.

Only with me it took 2 more years to understand what I did wrong. It’s not that people don’t like you, no. You just let them believe that you are not likeable.

I’m sure deep down you are an alright guy. Probably fairly funny and smart, right? Your problem is that you can’t promote yourself right. You probably look at people your age and start to judge right away “Bah, morons. Look at them smoking and laughing like idiots”. I use to do that. And, yeah, you’ll probably be right about them most of the time, but that still doesn’t mean you shouldn’t give people a chance.

Relating is very difficult, I know. I’d say that I got far better at it when I signed up for a drawing class last year. At first I was passive and introverted, but after a couple of weeks I sort of broke the barrier and started cracking some jokes. Before I knew it, I was the heart of the company and I was lucky, ’cause I was the only guy there. Girls started looking up to me and it’s actually pretty nice feeling to get. I even had a chance with two of them, but things got sort of complicated. Nevermind.

What I’m trying to say is that you need to start small. Most people are nice ny default, by they choose or are led to believe that they should hide it, because nice = weak and pathetic.

You need to establish a contact with the human race, but I suppose it would be difficult to do so just out of thin air. Try to look for a group or activity you can join. Anything at all. As soon as you start opening up to people you’ll see how much easier it gets.

thought I was the only one that missed fred-what a blast from my past-look, read the manual, and if you still feel like there’s nothing out there, look at the dvds and start your own thing that will attract others into your life-it is a way out without taking yourself out-help could be on the way, it is out there, seek and you know the rest…and don’t we all want to be free from these chains, sometimes it takes a leap to get it done-I have been free, but now I’m back-I think it is like everything else, has cycles-it is learning to intervene before it gets out of control

guster32 wrote:
thought I was the only one that missed fred-what a blast from my past-look, read the manual, and if you still feel like there’s nothing out there, look at the dvds and start your own thing that will attract others into your life-it is a way out without taking yourself out-help could be on the way, it is out there, seek and you know the rest…and don’t we all want to be free from these chains, sometimes it takes a leap to get it done-I have been free, but now I’m back-I think it is like everything else, has cycles-it is learning to intervene before it gets out of control

Nicely put except for the “leap” part. It’s always. You always have to leap in order to achieve something. I can honestly say I don’t remember a single thing in this life that came easy to me. Heck!
Last night I went to the john for a number 2 and it was a struggle! I shouldn’t have drank that briar tea…

I agree-if you post and need help, for Christ sake, stick around and listen to the advice people are kind enough to give to you-sort it out and use what works for you

Yeah, i’m always struggling, but I don’t know anybody that isn’t one way or another-life is a test, and right now, I am failing it miserably, but I do think things will change, that’s why this dude needs to have a little faith and get up off his butt and go out and do something worthwhile, if only for himself-geez, it’s short enough without taking your own prematurely

Hey! just so you know, 55 feels like 21 sometiimes and if you are lucky enough to reach that ‘golden’ age, maybe you will also be lucky enough to feel like you are 21 again-still have a lot to live for, and the possibilities are endless-

i didn’t mean to post that anonymously,hah! must be losin’ my mind since I am 55!

Anonymous wrote:
Hey! just so you know, 55 feels like 21 sometiimes and if you are lucky enough to reach that ‘golden’ age, maybe you will also be lucky enough to feel like you are 21 again-still have a lot to live for, and the possibilities are endless-

i am in my late 20’s and feel aged.

Sorry for the not posting, I was about, its just it just took me a while to type the first. Seeing my thoughts laid out plain in front of me, well it kind of hit me for six.

I know people are right when they say get out and meet people and thats all great on paper but its a lot different in reality. Maybe I should go have a talk with someone.

Anonymous wrote:
i am in my late 20’s and feel aged.

HAHAHA you’re not nearly old enough to feel old yet.

Suggestions: find an interesting lively hobby. ever heard of parkour (or free running?)

Jalex wrote:

Anonymous wrote:
i am in my late 20’s and feel aged.

HAHAHA you’re not nearly old enough to feel old yet.

Suggestions: find an interesting lively hobby. ever heard of parkour (or free running?)

no

Anonymous wrote:

Jalex wrote:

Anonymous wrote:
i am in my late 20’s and feel aged.

HAHAHA you’re not nearly old enough to feel old yet.

Suggestions: find an interesting lively hobby. ever heard of parkour (or free running?)

no

Well have a look. It has been getting increasingly popular recently. Google it.

Jalex wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Jalex wrote:

Anonymous wrote:
i am in my late 20’s and feel aged.

HAHAHA you’re not nearly old enough to feel old yet.

Suggestions: find an interesting lively hobby. ever heard of parkour (or free running?)

no

Well have a look. It has been getting increasingly popular recently. Google it.

im lazy

i hope somebody comes back to this-I have got to ask the question-What is making all of these younger people feel so old? Being most of your ages ia a wondrous time, even though I wouldn’t want to go through it again, it is a tumultuous time, but wondrous! What is aging you to the point where you do not think your lives are worthwhile? I did not have a problem with self-esteem at your age, other problems, but not that. What can be causing this “pandemic’ so to speak of all of this negativity from the younger people-you are the future and that should make you proud because we are going to come out of this funk and you will have a wondrous world to take care of! Remember,what goes up must come down and vice-versa-don’t listen to all of the rumors and propaganda, listen to your hearts and proceed on with your life-it does sound easy onpaper-it’s hot as **** here and I don’t want to go out, but I will-making friends is hard, and now I find myself having to go out into the world and do just that-the alternative is being alone, and alone is great, sometimes, I like it for awhile, then I need a little company-talk with someone who wants to hear you, not someone who is distracted!

guster32 wrote:
i hope somebody comes back to this-I have got to ask the question-What is making all of these younger people feel so old? Being most of your ages ia a wondrous time, even though I wouldn’t want to go through it again, it is a tumultuous time, but wondrous! What is aging you to the point where you do not think your lives are worthwhile? I did not have a problem with self-esteem at your age, other problems, but not that. What can be causing this “pandemic’ so to speak of all of this negativity from the younger people-you are the future and that should make you proud because we are going to come out of this funk and you will have a wondrous world to take care of! Remember,what goes up must come down and vice-versa-don’t listen to all of the rumors and propaganda, listen to your hearts and proceed on with your life-it does sound easy onpaper-it’s hot as **** here and I don’t want to go out, but I will-making friends is hard, and now I find myself having to go out into the world and do just that-the alternative is being alone, and alone is great, sometimes, I like it for awhile, then I need a little company-talk with someone who wants to hear you, not someone who is distracted!

idk wats aging us. lack of hope. happiness. all of it.

No, no,no-that is just what the evil forces that are amongst us want-don’t you see? It is the youth now that will be the caretakers in the future which is full of possibilities, if everybody embraces this-the possibilities, I mean-just think what you can contribute! it is definitely infinite. now is the time for all of you to come together and know what your reasons are for on this earth! You all just cannot give up! I refuse to believe this about so many of you that are so bright and talented and funny and sympathetic when you don’t even know a person! I guess that’s why I am the way I am at my age. I still look at life as a child would seeing all that is and could be-my imagination runs wild and I envision all kinds of things that could and should be. I guess I will never grow up just old, but you all have your futures ahead of you. I will not be the one who gives up on you-NEVER

Amen

Hey anonymous, if you are still checking this. Your post matches my current situation *exactly*. 21st birthday was in front of my computer. I’m now just coming up to finishing university (computer science - aren’t we even more social rejects than engineers? :P), and there is nobody I will keep in contact with. Nobody I talked to in lectures, except for the odd forced situation such as group projects. Flat mates I don’t talk to, except a “hi” if I happen to pass them in the corridor. I rarely even had friends in my entire school life, the few people I kind of knew I haven’t seen they left school aged 16.

Yet for all that, I’ve never really felt seriously suicidal (except perhaps the odd moment if something bad happened to me, and I had nobody for moral support). I think my coping strategy has been to have goals. My goal is to set my own business up or become self employed or something. Plus some more far out and possibly unachievable goals too. Maybe to try and become stupidly rich or something. These have also given some structure to my existence.

Maybe my life is not ideal, but with these goals it makes me think I will survive just to see what I can achieve in life. If I have some wild ambitions, and then spend all my life with these in the back of my head (or hopefully working directly on them), then surely I will achieve something? Without friends I can work even harder, maybe I can achieve some great things out of this melancholy existence.

See what *you* can achieve too.

As a final note, one thing that has helped me get through university, is to develop an acceptance for how I am. I know my nature is to be very introverted and also shy; this won’t change whether or not I have any friends. There are some books which helped me, “Party of One - a loner’s manifesto” and “The introvert advantage” to name two.

Keep fighting the good fight :) If you want to discuss things message me or something :)

“If you’re going through hell keep going” - Winston Churchill

I admire your strength-and I hope you do not remain alone all of the time-although, I really like being with me, I need to speak to humans occasionally. A lot of people are becoming more and more introverted these days. Sometimes it is easier than to deal with all the drama and BS out there. I am glad you have a good attitude and have goals-they keep us going

Well said!

That’s a beautiful sentiment veovi. Bittersweet indeed but beautiful!

Thank you, danonymous. It is merely what I’ve told myself during (far too many) times of doubtfulness in the value and adequacy of life.