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MY PARENTS AND FAMILY ARE WAY TOO CONTROLLING. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE !!!

im 15 years old, a grade 10.i have two brothers that are 20 and 16
(they are both practising muslims and are very nosy, overprotective).
My parents on the other hand are pretty layed back. my mom is a convert
to islam and my dad has been muslim all his life but he used to have a
very wild history when he was a teenager. my mom on the other hand had
very strict catholic parents and she would basically follow ALL of their
rules without rebellion. I finally had a break down infront of my mom
telling her i cant take any of her rules anymore and because she would control
every single aspect of my life. no exadurations and she said she’d change but
only three days later she was back to her nosy, strict self.ive recently have been
havingtrouble at home, my parents cont trust me, my grades are slipping because i cant
concentrate, and ive been feeling like i have NO control (i tried controlling
my life in some way by means of anorexia and trying to run away from home.)
However, i have no job, no friends that will take me in and my parents said that if
i try to run away or move in with a friend they will call the police and sue my
friend’s parents. my parents wont let me date, go over a guy’s house or bring a guy over
(even if he’s a friend), sleep over anyone’s house, dye or highlight my hair,
stay out past 10:30pm on weekends and 9:00pm on weekdays, go to dances, hang out
with guys, go to screamo concerts, go to partys, drink, smoke, get anymore
piercings (i have 13), get any tattoos, get an allowance, wear shorts or a tank top or
jeans with small rips in them, wear extensions, put on a fake tattoo, draw on
my hand, or take the bus. ive been dating this guy for about 4 months (he’s very respectful,
kind, he wants to be a virgin when he marries, im in love with him and she knows this all)
my mom and brother have found out about him and are trying to take away everything i have
(my laptop, cell phone, ipod, ability to hang out with my friends) and i cant
handle it all. he goes to my school and my brother and his friends are spying on
me. its so hard to just see him and god forbid if my brother sees me and him holding
hands or hugging. i hear it ALL when i come home (he yells at me and threatens
me and him). so ive had to lie to my parents (which i hate but i have to.. hes basically
the only good thing in my life right now. My mom says me and him should get engaged but
im only 15 and i just want to see him and not marry him.. thats ridiculous)
my 20 year old brother has been taking thing into his own hands(hitting me,
yelling at me, threatening me) and my mom has been yelling at me
almost every day, ive been crying myself to sleep every night, ive turned
to cutting myself because i feel so dead inside. im NOT muslim and i should
HAVE to follow their morals. i cant take this anymore.. all i think of is
what ill need to take to survive and run away or ways to kill myself
or make them stop. im finding it hard to just get up every morning.

MY PARENTS AND FAMILY ARE WAY TOO CONTROLLING. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE !!!

im 15 years old, a grade 10.i have two brothers that are 20 and 16
(they are both practising muslims and are very nosy, overprotective).
My parents on the other hand are pretty layed back. my mom is a convert
to islam and my dad has been muslim all his life but he used to have a
very wild history when he was a teenager. my mom on the other hand had
very strict catholic parents and she would basically follow ALL of their
rules without rebellion. I finally had a break down infront of my mom
telling her i cant take any of her rules anymore and because she would control
every single aspect of my life. no exadurations and she said she’d change but
only three days later she was back to her nosy, strict self.ive recently have been
having trouble at home, my parents cont trust me, my grades are slipping because i cant
concentrate, and ive been feeling like i have NO control (i tried controlling
my life in some way by means of anorexia and trying to run away from home.)
However, i have no job, no friends that will take me in and my parents said that if
i try to run away or move in with a friend they will call the police and sue my
friend’s parents. my parents wont let me date, go over a guy’s house or bring a guy over
(even if he’s a friend), sleep over anyone’s house, dye or highlight my hair,
stay out past 10:30pm on weekends and 9:00pm on weekdays, go to dances, hang out
with guys, go to screamo concerts, go to parties, drink, smoke, get anymore
piercings (i have 13), get any tattoos, get an allowance, wear shorts or a tank top or
jeans with small rips in them, wear extensions, put on a fake tattoo, draw on
my hand, or take the bus. ive been dating this guy for about 4 months (he’s very respectful,
kind, he wants to be a virgin when he marries, he means alot to me and she knows this all)
my mom and brother have found out about him and are trying to take away everything i have
(my laptop, cell phone, ipod, ability to hang out with my friends) and i cant
handle it all. he goes to my school and my brother and his friends are spying on
me. its so hard to just see him and god forbid if my brother sees me and him holding
hands, kissing or hugging. i hear it ALL when i come home (he yells at me and threatens
me and him). so ive had to lie to my parents (which i hate but i have to.. hes basically
the only good thing in my life right now. My mom says me and him should get engaged but
im only 15 and i just want to see him and not marry him.. but thats just ridiculous to do so)
my 20 year old brother has been taking thing into his own hands(hitting me,
yelling at me, threatening me) and my mom has been yelling at me
almost every day, ive been crying myself to sleep every night, ive turned
to cutting myself because i feel so dead inside. im NOT muslim and i should
HAVE to follow their morals. i cant take this anymore.. all i think of is
what ill need to take to survive and run away or ways to make them stop.
im finding it hard to just get up every morning.