depression help: 12 days since my first post.

xTKx

12 days since my first post.

I am worse than before. I have seen a psychologist and he beleives that i am not depressed!
I have anger issues and anxiety. I already knew that from looking at myself. Help seems so far away. I am feeling so lost and confused and i really don’t know what to do?
So much keeps going through my head, Good and bad, and i can not seem to stop it. I feel like i am going crazy. But been told i am not crazy!

I don’t feel depresed. Doctor says i am. Psychologist say i am not? I don’t know who to beleive and that includes myself!!!!!!

I have spoken to people on the phone. That don’t help. I can think for myself but i just don’t know what to beleive????

Everything i beleive in does not seem real anymore because of not knowing who to beleive.
I have to wait for a referal to start therapy as i have no money to get it myself and i can’t even sort out the silly things in my life like getting of top of my bills. I do not know what i do with my money? I try so hard to work things out and it looks good on paper but in reality (or at least my reality) it don’t work out? I just can’t seem to do anything no matter how hard i try.
I feel i am going to lose my flat that i had to fight so hard for. If i lose this i have no where to go. No where to stay. I have no one close to me anymore. I have pushed everyone away through hurt.
I don’t know what to do and ending it keeps crossing my mind. I have told my doctor this and he said he can’t help, go A&E
I told the psychologist this and he said i don’t think you will do anything. AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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San Francisco, CA, US | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (0 minutes after post)

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5 months, 3 weeks ago (2 minutes after post)

Maybe you should see a different psychologist & get a second opinion

raufv200 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

i think u r better to go out of the city for weekend and cry a lot that helps, and try not be alone, find a bf or gf … ?
it’s tha same I fell now, but this web site will never help you also
Is there anything to do with your flat, why do u have to loose it?

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xTKx 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (28 minutes after post)

I have nowhere to go and no money. I have not stopped crying. Cried so much that when i cry now my tears go dry but i still cry.

So far no help found anywhere really. Keep looking and asking but most i get is ‘we can listen’. It’s like everyone says you have to do it yourself. I don’t know how to. I feel people listen but do not hear.
I feel i will lose the flat because of not being able to stay on top of things. Gas, electric has a risk of being cut off. I can manage the rent but thats it. Whats the point in paying rent wirh no energy and food?
My crazy thoughts include going out robbing shops for food and other things i need. I have never been a tea leaf before? I really do feel like i am going crazy!!!

I am going to try and see someone today (PSYCHOLOGIST). Right now though, i feel that i will get told that same thing as i am not currently in a ‘MONENT’.
Apparently there are two types of suicide. One where you have a plan and one where you don’t. And apparently, if you don’t have a plan you will not go through with it?
Yesterday twice i was very close to doing something. Maybe i didn’t because i didn’t have a plan but each time i feel closer to doing it.
The local places for mind health all seem to be closed weekends. Good job mental health don’t effect people on saturdays and sundays!

raufv200 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (30 minutes after post)

what about getting a job?

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (49 minutes after post)

Hey try this PSYCHOLOGIST he is really great His name is Dr. Raymond Hamdon search on google you can get details about him.
if you cant let me know

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xTKx 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 3 weeks ago (55 minutes after post)

I can’t hold a job. I just end up leaving and i don’t know why. It gets too much and i also have/get thoughts that people do not like me???? There is so much going on in my head and i don’t know why, what it is, or what to do…..

I’m looking Dr Hamdon up now

Thanks

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