Im stuck in a hole ive been in my whole life. - Help.com

Why do you feel you felt out of place at college?

You need to get help, as I am 33 and delayed my problems til they destroyed everything I was and worsened its one thing to have problems in your twenties, but it gets a lot worse if you let them go. I still feel suicidal it isnt cute anymore when you get to be my age, people will not be there, in fact all the friends I thought I had never gave a flying fk they only want to know what you can do for them, thats just how people are. If you have a hobby get active, the gym is always good without the gym I would of lost it completely. I know I hated college whenever I had to do group work, anxiety problems, and try rogaine./

You need to stop playing the tapes of what is expected of you and find something that you have a passion for.. If you dont know what your passion is, find out what it is.. Make it your job to find your passion and then do whatever it takes to get there… Your a boxer in the ghetto, you have to survive…….

You are 22 and worried about this stuff? you still have your whole life ahead of you..enjoy it while you can..there is still time for pot-secondary..hell..I am 43, recently divorced mother of two, my ex took off with a young bimbo, and left us to fend for ourselves. I now have my grade 12 (at age 42)..and plan on taking more courses so i can do paliative care..you need to think very hard about what you enjoy..and use that as your tool for what you can take in college, or as a job.
There are good counsellors at the college that can help guide you in the right direction…you just need a new look at life..stay positive, and focused…try a tech school..maybe. I have a young friend that was feeling like what you have described. He just took on the attitude of “screw every one” and although he still probably doesn’t fit in..he is making the effort. still in highschool, after skipping out for a year, he is doing very well..and will graduate next year 1 one late but he is doing it. He works part time in a hotel, and i think he plans on going to a culinary school. as for the hair..it is probably because you are stressing yourself out…seek help..don’t be afraid to share with someone. we all have issues and need to vent, or seek advice now and again. If i can go from living very comfortably to begging at the food banks door, to doing so-so..you can too.
if you would like to chat sometime… higgyswanton (at) hot mail com