it’s exhausting.
i work so hard to make everyone think i’m normal and happy when i’m not and i’m so tired.truth be told,i’m always 1 step away from collapsing.i always feel like i’m breaking down and falling apart.no one knows how much pain i’m really in.
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Good job staying strong around others. It’s attractive. However, it is also nice to have some friends who you can let your gaurd down with, and be real. Do you have anyone you can just chill with?
exactly.people think im so brave.my friends keep telling me how strong i am cuz i stopped cutting.they dont know how much i think about it.how badly i just want to give in.
I don’t know how you feel, but if you feel like i do most of the time, i think i could help.
You need to try to control your thinking. When you have these negative thoughts, thoughts about cutting or begin thinking badly about yourself, you need to push them away. Get involved with something: a hobby, excercise, listen to music- to distract you. After time goes by, you will feel better.
i just dont know what to do anymore.i dont know how to fix everything thats wrong with me.i feel like i have nothing to give to anyone.
Just take it easy. Focus on improving yourself, and your life. Let time pass. You will grow beyond these hard times. Use these negative thoughts to fuel the development of a skill. For instance, every time you feel bad, pick up a guitar. You will learn to play, and it will help you feel better. Then, in a few years, you will have survived this rough time, AND you will know how to play guitar, which is very sexy.
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i just dont know what to do anymore.i dont know how to fix everything thats wrong with me.i feel like i have nothing to give to anyone.
Sometimes it’s not about what you have to give to everyone :). Sometimes it is about what you have to give to yourself. Never sell yourself short, you may just think that you are one person, but sometimes that is all it takes to make a difference.
music does help alot.mostly mcr and nin right now.its when im out of the house,at work or wherever,i start thinking about things and i fall apart inside.
You have to learn to recognize your thinking patterns. When you start to have bad thoughts, you got to say ‘Hey!’ and stop it. Might try using affirmations as well, if just to reverse your thinking.
i have so much that i need to forget.ive been talking to someone about it and she says what happened doesnt define me.i just feel like damaged goods.
yeah, listen to Send me on my way, by rusted roots. its a real uplifter, just dont watch the music video if you dont like hippies xD
Rythem Emotion from FFX2 is another good high energy song.
Man, we are all damaged goods. Everyone has regrets, you just got to choose whether or not you want to linger on these things, or let it strengthen you. We are all survivors. Just getting up in the morning, going to work, managing to smile… we should feel proud that we are able to do that. Life is hard! It’s hard for everyone, in some way or another. You gotta be tough.
some things happened when i was a kid.i feel like that combined with the cutting is all i really am.she said it doesnt define me.
Also never forget, tomorrow will always be what you make of it, try to be the best you that you can be. don’t let your past interfere with what you want to become
i just dont know who i am anymore.idk exactly what my character is.idk what kind of girl i am.
i know i define my future by my past.i think just because something worked out badly in the past,it will always work out that way.i think every story will have the same ending.
its ok.you dont have to go away lol.i was molested.
Spazzy, sometime i need to speak to you. i need your help with something.
idk where he is but i hope he burns in hell.
Sure ninja neko.just gimme a shout.
yea lol.that would be awesome.what sucks even more is im actually related to the bastard.
thanks hun.that means alot.and to answer your question it was my cousin.
you’re incredibly violent. i kinda like it lol.
i know one of my biggest problems is pushing people away before they even get a chance to get close.im afraid of them finding out all these things about me.i dont want them to hate me.
o my spazzy im seriously crying now, im so sorry, and HES A FUCKEN *** HOLE!!!! im so sorry.
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