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it’s exhausting.

i work so hard to make everyone think i’m normal and happy when i’m not and i’m so tired.truth be told,i’m always 1 step away from collapsing.i always feel like i’m breaking down and falling apart.no one knows how much pain i’m really in.

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dotspot offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

Good job staying strong around others. It’s attractive. However, it is also nice to have some friends who you can let your gaurd down with, and be real. Do you have anyone you can just chill with?

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (8 minutes after post)

exactly.people think im so brave.my friends keep telling me how strong i am cuz i stopped cutting.they dont know how much i think about it.how badly i just want to give in.

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Ninja Neko offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (9 minutes after post)

I don’t know how you feel, but if you feel like i do most of the time, i think i could help.

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Eddieee offline Verified User (7 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 132 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (10 minutes after post)

To hell with them. Sometimes you need to take care or yourself.

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dotspot offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

You need to try to control your thinking. When you have these negative thoughts, thoughts about cutting or begin thinking badly about yourself, you need to push them away. Get involved with something: a hobby, excercise, listen to music- to distract you. After time goes by, you will feel better.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (13 minutes after post)

i just dont know what to do anymore.i dont know how to fix everything thats wrong with me.i feel like i have nothing to give to anyone.

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dotspot offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

Just take it easy. Focus on improving yourself, and your life. Let time pass. You will grow beyond these hard times. Use these negative thoughts to fuel the development of a skill. For instance, every time you feel bad, pick up a guitar. You will learn to play, and it will help you feel better. Then, in a few years, you will have survived this rough time, AND you will know how to play guitar, which is very sexy.

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Ninja Neko offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (16 minutes after post)

SpazzySpizzy wrote:
i just dont know what to do anymore.i dont know how to fix everything thats wrong with me.i feel like i have nothing to give to anyone.

Sometimes it’s not about what you have to give to everyone :). Sometimes it is about what you have to give to yourself. Never sell yourself short, you may just think that you are one person, but sometimes that is all it takes to make a difference.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (17 minutes after post)

music does help alot.mostly mcr and nin right now.its when im out of the house,at work or wherever,i start thinking about things and i fall apart inside.

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Ninja Neko offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (22 minutes after post)

a good, high energy song may help.

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dotspot offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (23 minutes after post)

You have to learn to recognize your thinking patterns. When you start to have bad thoughts, you got to say ‘Hey!’ and stop it. Might try using affirmations as well, if just to reverse your thinking.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (24 minutes after post)

i have so much that i need to forget.ive been talking to someone about it and she says what happened doesnt define me.i just feel like damaged goods.

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rggggghhhh offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (24 minutes after post)

yeah, listen to Send me on my way, by rusted roots. its a real uplifter, just dont watch the music video if you dont like hippies xD

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Ninja Neko offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (25 minutes after post)

Rythem Emotion from FFX2 is another good high energy song.

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dotspot offline Verified User (1 year, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (29 minutes after post)

Man, we are all damaged goods. Everyone has regrets, you just got to choose whether or not you want to linger on these things, or let it strengthen you. We are all survivors. Just getting up in the morning, going to work, managing to smile… we should feel proud that we are able to do that. Life is hard! It’s hard for everyone, in some way or another. You gotta be tough.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (32 minutes after post)

some things happened when i was a kid.i feel like that combined with the cutting is all i really am.she said it doesnt define me.

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Ninja Neko offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

Also never forget, tomorrow will always be what you make of it, try to be the best you that you can be. don’t let your past interfere with what you want to become

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (40 minutes after post)

i just dont know who i am anymore.idk exactly what my character is.idk what kind of girl i am.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (43 minutes after post)

i know i define my future by my past.i think just because something worked out badly in the past,it will always work out that way.i think every story will have the same ending.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (49 minutes after post)

its ok.you dont have to go away lol.i was molested.

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rggggghhhh offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (51 minutes after post)

oh dear.

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Ninja Neko offline Verified User (5 months, 2 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (58 minutes after post)

Spazzy, sometime i need to speak to you. i need your help with something.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 1 minute after post)

idk where he is but i hope he burns in hell.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

Sure ninja neko.just gimme a shout.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 8 minutes after post)

yea lol.that would be awesome.what sucks even more is im actually related to the bastard.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 17 minutes after post)

thanks hun.that means alot.and to answer your question it was my cousin.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 24 minutes after post)

you’re incredibly violent. i kinda like it lol.

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SpazzySpizzy offline Verified User (7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 41 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (1 hour, 36 minutes after post)

i know one of my biggest problems is pushing people away before they even get a chance to get close.im afraid of them finding out all these things about me.i dont want them to hate me.

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meg_ryan offline Verified User (6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 40 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 2 weeks ago (18 hours, 43 minutes after post)

o my spazzy im seriously crying now, im so sorry, and HES A FUCKEN *** HOLE!!!! im so sorry.

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