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Well, searching for something might just be the problem.

If you are so caught up on searching for an answer, then you’ll never learn to just accept what is and therefore truly, genuinely, live.

Suicide is not the answer, and to be perfectly honest it’s an escape from reality.

What is it that you feel you need the answer for ?

nota.but.sand wrote:
Living, and why leaving someone seems to be the hardest thing to do.

Leaving someone as in what ?

If you don’t mind, can you do into a little more detail ?

nota.but.sand wrote:
Leaving this materialistic world, killing myself.
Why is so hard for me to die. I have tried to kill myself 4 times, none of them worked. sadly. And I want to know why. I am determined to figure that out befroe I try again, and because I never will figure it out I guess I’ll never try to kill myself again.

Well, have you ever thought that maybe after all unsuccessful attempts to kill yourself, you should still be on this earth ?

maybe it’s a sign, you’re hear for a reason sweetie. Many people will suffer if your not here, you impact many lives.

Don’t try to kill yourself. I know, easier said than done, but you just have to think and have fate.

Everything will get better.

nota.but.sand wrote:

nota.but.sand wrote:
Leaving this materialistic world, killing myself.
Why is so hard for me to die. I have tried to kill myself 4 times, none of them worked. sadly. And I want to know why. I am determined to figure that out befroe I try again, and because I never will figure it out I guess I’ll never try to kill myself again.

I don’t even know how much I realy want to die. :( if it is just a phase, or if I realy do.

Okay, well that should just make you stop and think right there.

If you are contemplating the fact, then why are you considering it ?

If you know it’s something you don’t want to happen, then why could you possibly feel that way ?

I can’t simply answer this for you, because I’m not you, and you’re the only person who knows you.

some times people spend so much time “searching” that they miss whats right in front of them. i dont know what your prob. is exactly, but as you said yourself,suicide is NOT the answer. If you have tried to kill yourself, and failed repeatedly, then you should stop by now. obviously it is not your time to go. God still wants you here on this earth. I dont know if your a believer or not, but god has a purpose for everyones life whether your atheist,christian, ect. When hes ready for us to know what it is, God will reveal it to us. Just know that youre here for a reason… and while you are,you might as well enjoy it. Pray. Trust me no one can help you more than the Lord can. everyone is going to suffer and go thorugh times like this in their lives, but its how you handle your problems that show what youre made of. but like i said before,God clearly wants you here for a reason. ill pray for you.
Im here if you wanna talk.

abraham knew he would not have to sacrifice his son. i believe abe. told his son,god will provide the lamb. it was a test of faith. Abraham had faith that god would provide a sacrifice,and he did.
My bf and i have been 2gether for a year and a half,and he tells me how he used to be really depressed, suicidal,ect. He told he attempted suicide once, he wasnt a christian, and he told himself that if it didnt work that obviously god wanted him here.
obviously, he failed. he later found God and he is an amazing person who helps me alot when i need it.
God’s not harsh, he just has his own way of doing things, ways that we arent always meant to understand.

The reason you have not been successful at killing yourself is because something is telling you that its not time! And you shouldnt be the one to decide when you die. I have been trying to find help to all my problems (and i dont know why i have so many at age 21) but i too thought that i would miss out on lots of things a normal person my age would get to experience, and i have come to realize that it doesnt matter. Everyone has their own life. We dont all experience the same things and its not like we have to. I make my life what it is. Its an adventure to find out whats wrong with me and to try to fix it but untill then i will be looking for the answeres and living my life to the fullest and thats what you should be doing too!

i dont exactly like to call it christianity. im a christian,butimnot into lables. to me,its about relationship,not religion. Ill be honest with you,im not big fan of church and for some one who might be interested in knowing God, church will be the hard part. Most churches, from my experience, are filled with nothing but hypocrites, fake christians who like to talk the talk but dont walk the walk. Its not so much about going to church, as it is about reading the bible. Praying and spending time with God is whats its all about, Your relationship with christ. How are you not allowed to read the bible?

JDC wrote:
i dont exactly like to call it christianity. im a christian,butimnot into lables. to me,its about relationship,not religion. Ill be honest with you,im not big fan of church and for some one who might be interested in knowing God, church will be the hard part. Most churches, from my experience, are filled with nothing but hypocrites, fake christians who like to talk the talk but dont walk the walk. Its not so much about going to church, as it is about reading the bible. Praying and spending time with God is whats its all about, Your relationship with christ. How are you not allowed to read the bible?

Thus the reason im not a huge fan of churches either. I am religious but i dont see going to church as crucial. All i see in churches now days are people that just want to raise the most money to make the biggest most richest looking church and thats not what chrisitanity and religion are all about. Churches fighting to be the biggest and baddest… thats hypocritical and i wont be a part of it.

me either. i was recently chased away from a church i attended for years. but ive actually found a really good church now. Not trying to dampen your spirits before. there are good churches and good christans out there, im just speaking fom experience, be aware of whose real,and whose not. it is sad to see what people turn it into.

well who is stopping you from reading the bible? read it if you want? No. going to church doesnt make you a christan. Having a personal realtionship with our Lord and savior does.

well where do you live? you can find one almost anywhere.
Walmart??

yeah,they have bibles there. You should check it out.

hmmm… idk the prices. i know you can get free ones some places. go to a local church and ask someone if you can. Theyll give you one, whether you go to that church or not.

ok. well good luck. im sure youll find someone who can lend you one.

I hope your starting to feel a bit better by now

oh booo =( *hugs*

YW :)

Anything particular got you down today?

*hugs* it will be okay. Do they allow internet? I could talk to you while your there