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Okay.

I’ve had this problem for a whole year now, so I’m just going to put it out there.
A year ago my life stopped moving. It wasn’t obvious during that summer, but now I can see it started then. And from February on its been: Really? How do I get out of this?
That’s the internal. The part I’m embarrassed to talk about is what has been happening on the surface. My face has changed. Last June, I looked fine. I mean, I didn’t even really pay attention. I had never worn makeup or done anything to it. My face was just there.
In July, I noticed I was getting one of those girl mustaches, kind of dark hairs where they were blonde and sparse before. Whatever- it wasn’t too noticeable. Then in November, I saw a line coming from my nose, stopping on the way to my mouth. I know everyone gets these, but I was a little disappointed to see it. And what was strange is that I could feel the line- it was kind of a pressure on my face. Still, though, it was fine. A little mustache, one line, I could deal. Just as long as nothing else happened.
Well, in February I started getting really bad acne. I hadn’t had any since high school, which was 3 years ago. I thought I’d go to the dermatologist and get it over with, quick, but it just got worse. It was only a few weeks ago when I started using regular products from the drugstore that it quit- leaving purple acne scars, and holes. Great.
Around March I started getting more hairs on my face- dark ones coming from the sideburn area towards my cheeks, and fine ones on my chin. And I got dark hairs all over my chest, and the hair on my legs really cropped up. I looked on the internet and found it could be hirsutism or polycystic ovary syndrome or tumors or any number of things- but the symptoms for those diseases seemed a lot more severe than mine were, so I let it go and just cut the mustache off.
In April I got a line coming from the other side of my nose to match the first one, and the pressure that they put on the face is really distracting. Then last month I got one in the corner of my mouth, going downwards. And now I have one in the other corner, though not as harsh.
I guess it wouldn’t bother me so much if I couldn’t feel them, but especially with the mouth lines it feels sometimes like the numbing shots they give you at the dentist. Even if I never looked in a mirror I there is the drooping pressure there all the time. I just really want to go back to a year ago, when none of this had happened, and stay there.

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