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oh my word!
im sooooooooo sorry,hunny :(

you know that brought a tear to my eye :(
i cant possibly imagine what this must be doing to you
just know you are never alone&someone will always be there in your time of need :)

we’re all here for you, i know what it’s like to lose a father, mine was killled in prison about a week ago. not the same as your husband but pretty crappy
can i ask what happened?

I don’t know what to say….
It must have hurted you so bad…
I hope things will change for you..

Go to barbyman.com Listen to the Song Happy Birthday.I wrote the Song after my Mother Died.

Dear friend, I truly understand what you mean. I lost my mom to a dreadful disease of the nervous system in 1998 (all of a sudden) that was when I was 21 and I lost my dad in 2005 in an accident and almost every day they appear in my dreams.A part of my being continues to live with them subconsciously.

During the first few years after my mom passed away, I have seen and gone through all that my dad underwent emotionally, I wish I had the maturity and experience I have now, I would have been able to support and take care of him emotionally.

I am 32 and perhaps I am less experienced than you, but if you think there is some value, you can take my thoughts. What I think you should be doing is to start opening up to your kids and your near and dear ones more and express your grief. You have taken a good step in writing about it in this forum in the first place. IT is important to find people with whom you can share your grief. You can leverage your experience and help many others who are undergoing similar pain. Sometimes these interactions could become therapeutic emotionally and psychologically.

What I found out in my years of grieving is, the more you try to hide it, the more it tries to come out and it does win you and leave you feeling exhausted, hurt, helpless and bitter and trust me if repressed grief can manifest itself in many forms. I also find the reverse is true, start expressing it and find people whom you can talk to and articulate your grief and find people whom you could help and this way the grief seems to settle down. There is a lot of pain in this world and it needs your healing abilities!

Find out hobbies that arrest your attention and keep you focused and pursue it. Find your mission and passion in life and pursue it. Don’t think you are alone, which would be to miss the point. In fact, we were never not alone because we were born alone, we experience all life experiences alone and we die alone, so we dont have to feel bad about being alone. There are so many artists, scientists as well as people in many creative pursuits, who long to be alone and devoid of distraction and when they do get to be alone they make best use of it.

Dont long for past experiences no matter how good they were, create new experiences for yourself, your loved ones and for the people around you each day. Bless each day and make sure you live it to your best and you would choose not to be unhappy and upset over anything. Because no one deserve to be unhappy!

These are some random thoughts which I thought it might help you, because I see that they have helped me, but do leave a line if you want someone to talk to or even to just listen. We have the need to heal each other friend and heal the world!

Hi sweetie,
I cannot imagine the pain u feel every minute of every day.
I dont know what religion u follow..
I follow none but my heart.
But I know that energies dont die! Everyone and everything has one.
Even though he physically is no longer with u.
He is there hun.
His energy will be there looking over u and the kids wanting nothing but to take all the pain away.

You can talk to him.
He will listen.

I dont know if u have a dog or not, but prehaps one could be a good idea for the kids… animals are natural healers.
Thoughts r with u.
Axo