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Hello everybody my name is alex and i am 22 years old,

and im on here because i seriously need help with my situation i have talked to many people many friends but i feel like i need the outside of this world for help,and i need to get this of my chest and i cant take this pain any longer this will be a long story but i really would appericate any help and advice i can get,continue i was in a serious realtionship of 4 years with my girlfriend which is 20 now at the begining everything was fine we were in love everything was perfect like a fantasy, sometime last year in NOV of 2008 she moved in with my parents and mostly because her parents were struggling with her home and had to foreclourse the home and she had nowhere to go, so i accepted for her to live with me and my parents, she lived with me for about 7 months, after that some time passed she told me that she wasnt happy here anymore and wanted to move back with her family at the time they had gottin a new home already, i completly broke down and did not want her to leave i begged cried and did everything i could for her not to leave my side, so we decided to go on break which lasted about a week, during the time of break that we had, another problem was that we had sex regularly and for some reason we never had a close call of ever having a baby and we always wanted one at the time so something was not right, so i made my doctors appt and decided to go get checked out the barriar of bad news came to me and i was diagonesed with testicular cancer, after i came back home i broke down to her and told her what happend to me and i felt as if the world was over for me and im still batteling against this cancer, after this she felt bad and decided to be with me and understood what i was going threw and supported me threw the whole way after i got my surgery as well, after some time we made the decision to apply for a apartment and start new, we have been there for barely 3 months and we are already breaking the lease and going on our seperate ways, one night i had a vibe something told me to go threw her phone because something was not right, i had found out that she txt her friend that she hasnt been happy since feb and that she just wants to be single, i felt so horrible reading this that i had to comfront it the same night i couldnt belive what i read, she confessed to me that she loved me but she wasnt in love with me anymore and hasnt been happy with me since FEB 2008, and she just stayed with me thinking things would get better and i would change and also because of my situation, she wanted to remain as friends theres no way i can see her as a friend after 4 years and still be roomates which i think that is a big NO and we tried that for maybe one week and i just couldnt take it, it was not going to work out like that i decided to break the lease i took all my things and moved back to my mothers house for the time being, there was never nobody envolved no cheating what so ever on my end or hers and i know this for a fact, so the conclusion to my story is i feel heart broken i feel like i lost a half of me and i dont desire or have any feelings to do anything, she told me that she doesnt want a boyfriend anymore she just wants to be single have fun and party and meet new people and focus on her self, she said the reason why she didnt love me anymore was because her love for me just faded away i never wanted to go out with my friends like that and i always wanted to stay home with her, and everytime we would have a little fight i showed to much love and it started to irrate her,and said i got mad whenever i didnt included me in her plans and that i was always too weak to handle the situtions and it was a turn off to her i just dont understand wouldnt a girl love for all thoes things to show everything to her i know not over board but just a good boyfriend you know?? i admit i included her in alot of my plans and dreams just to make our realtionship stronger but i guess her heart is not there and maybe i did spend to much time with her, i really need people to understand me somebody out there that can give me the best advice to move on or somehow make her realize that we worked hard for this realtionship i dont want to throw it away but yet i cant force nobody to love or be happy with me if that person doesnt feel the same thank you all so much for reading this i know this is really long but i really need to get this off my chest

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