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Well,

I’m 19 years old, I’ve been depressed. I’m turning 20 years old in the fall, I want to achieve my dreams come true, it feels like its taking forever. When, im talking about my making my dreams come true… I want to have the career always want. I feel very old, I don’t feel like going to a therapist, talking to a family member. I feel like want to commit suicide for real, I don’t feel happy. I feel hurt inside and outside, I know never get my opportunity to make my dreams come true - I’m homeschooled, I hope can get my GED in the fall. I’m worried about my future, my life and everything else. I had hopes want to become a famous designer for my work, I know never get my chance. I had this dream of mine for quite some time, when I see people make it, they achieve and they go to college, have a car and other great wonderful things. Ive been wondering why me ? what did I do ? to not get the same things in life, Ive been a good person. I never kill anybody, or hurt anybody. I’m just a innocent person, trying to make it in life. I had wonderful things want to do in the future, even get married and have children someday. I don’t feel bright, don’t feel happy inside and outside. I think when I turn 20 years old, I will feel very old. I don’t think my age is young. I don’t feel smart, just really want to hurt myself, I don’t want to live anymore, really want to go to (Disneyworld) be thinking as a 20 year old to be thats going to (Disneyworld) feel old.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (3 minutes after post)

why would you say that you want to kill yourself thats just ******** mate
talk to me now?

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (5 minutes after post)

I know how you feel and I”m very much in the same situation. I used to want to be an animator, but got so sidetracked that I lost my ambition. But there are those who know your pain. I’m currently by myself and feel like I’ve given up on life. But I don’t ever want to commit suicide. Because I know, around the corner, hope could be there. I’ll make a scene before I give in to my lost hope. And I”ve also learned that the greatest thing in life is to help raise the spirits of one another. Don’t give up! You have capabilities to come out on top that you haven’t even seen yet! I’m here for you brother! Email me at i> small>(email removed) /small> /i> if you want a friend.

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trekkie offline Verified User (5 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (10 minutes after post)

What kind of designer?

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (49 minutes after post)

trekkie,

I want to be interior designer/fashion designer.

I’m just a girl, thats sad and don’t know what to do in life. I want to be successful, have dreams and hopes. I’m from Gary, Indiana -(The home of Michael Jackson) I’m a Midwest girl.

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trekkie offline Verified User (5 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (56 minutes after post)

My dear it sounds like you do know what you want out of life and that in itself is something to be proud of. Why don’t you feel smart? Why are you hurting? Is it because you feel like you’re having trouble reaching your goals/dreams?

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 1 minute after post)

Yeah, I sometimes feel like trouble reaching goals/dreams. Especially, in homeschool (I don’t feel smart, feel like im hopeless and lazy, I can’t do it. It feels like I’m climbing mountain, can’t get to the top of the mountain. I feel at the bottom, I don’t feel smart, things can say about myself; never did drugs, hang with the wrong people, or did anything stupid. I never got in trouble with nothing, just feel hopeless. I will be turning 20 years old in the fall, I don’t feel young. I feel very hopeless, im such a big fan of Disneyworld ;) I hope able to go there too. I never had a boyfriend, never had a relationship. I don'’t feel pretty, smart and not so well either! I never get my chance in life, just feel so hopeless. I’m not just saying that… just to get attention on here, just want some help and advice.

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trekkie offline Verified User (5 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 20 minutes after post)

I am a stern believer that the first step towards overcoming unhappiness is learning to overcome negative thoughts. I give this advice to a lot of people here because it’s something that really, really helped me. For months I suffered from depression and I found myself constantly focusing on all of my problems. Then one day I read an article: http://www.lifeoptimizer.org/2008/01/…. Negative thoughts and emotions are self-reinforcing. By paying attention to them, by dwelling on them, we prevent ourselves from getting better. Sometimes bad thoughts just happen and sometimes it feels like we can’t control them. We can, however, create counter-thoughts. Every time something negative crosses your mind, think of something positive to cancel it out. I know that sounds like “duh” advice. I’ve been told to focus on “happy thoughts” countless of times and never really got how to do it until now. Counter-thoughts have to be specific. If you think of how you can’t reach your goal, counter it by thinking of what you’re doing now to reach that goal, or how you intend to.

Life is what you make it. Don’t wait for opportunities to come to you. Make your own opportunities. I will help you reach your goals, love. I have my own clothing company.

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