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i am struggling with a broken heart.

. .like proper broken!! the story is to long to recount but my soul partner, who is an alcoholic, has left me but i dont know why. . .struggle struggle! we had a baby then quite soon after he lost 2 very close members of his family, of course the drinking got worse but i was always there for him, loving him, listening to him. he would leave us alot, but i left him alone and he always came back. this time he hasnt been in touch and will not communicate at all. he said he doesnt love anymore, cant feel anything and so doesnt love me! the thing i struggle with is how can love just disappear??? he seems so angry and bitter at me and still i love him very deeply. sometimes i think i wish i wasnt so spiritual a person then i wouldnt have so many confusing feelings and no answers. . .sometimes ignorance would be bliss!!

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Victoria Sponge offline Verified User (2 years, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
Fritwell, K2, GB | 5 months, 1 week ago (8 minutes after post)

Hey honey, I am so sorry that you have to go through this, and if he is drinking maybe he isn’t thinking clearly?

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (12 minutes after post)

That’s unfortunately one of those catch 22 deals….When you delve into yourself to run away from whats hurting you- it can be all too easy to lose feeling altogether and in turn forget what ever made you happy. There is no cure, or easy remedy, it’s just part of adjusting to the sucktitude of life. Some people can come back from it, others can’t. I’m not one of those people that says you can learn from everything- because a lot of times things just blow…but the fact that you feel loss is good, that means you are still feeling. Don’t shut down, your child will need you now more than ever. Embrace the pain if you can, feel every ounce of it, let it carve out a hole inside of you that can later be filled with what joy life might throw your way. It wont happen now, but sometime….it will probably get worse before it gets better…but it CAN get better…Good Luck, my hopes are with you

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (19 minutes after post)

well i think senor sueno said it all.

i hope you feel better soon, and i hope things turn around for you :(

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (1 day, 12 hours after post)

Dear Broken Hearted,

First of all, I am sorry for the pain your situation is causing you. Second of all, if you love an alcoholic or addict and you don’t belong to Al Anon or Nar Anon…well let’s just say it is likely that peace and serenity will continue to be lacking in your life. You have a child to consider now. He/She has to be your first priority now. Taking care of yourself and the baby is really important not only because you will feel better but because it takes the pressure off the Alcoholic..imagine the burden he carries. Your constantly allowing him to return may be enabling his self destructive behavior. If you leave him to his own path, he may hit the rock bottom he needs to hit before he decides he wants to get better and get help. Get support and do what you can to take care of your little family. Al anon has changed my life and I would recommend trying to find a meeting, some even have child care. And even if you don’t go say the Serenity Prayer “God grant me the serenity to ACCEPT the things I CANNOT change, the courage to change the things I can and THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE”

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 month, 3 weeks after post)

I’ll tell ya what you do sweets, being the same kinda proper *** that your potser is. Make certain that you and his are safe and well cared for. If/when he rings, don’t have a bell hanging.

Part of confession is reconciliation.

You might find this hard to believe, but being a drunk is pretty f’in hard. Honestly! ****; drink a pack of insert pain here> go to work, earn your pay, tend to routine responsibilities, mow if you have it to cut, etc. etc.

If he cares about you, and your family, he’ll want you to put your priority there, if he doesn’t, (that would be an instinctual oxymoron), then there is no good reason you should listen to a **** thing he says…unless of course, you have a **** good reason. (who knew?!)

Trust your gut! If you don’t trust that look at your boy, and trust his.

Best wishes, hopes etc. –>

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