Help help: i need help:(this isnt a cry for help i am completly genuine!

captinprestedg

i need help:(this isnt a cry for help i am completly genuine!

im 24 and have been in a turbulent relationship for nearly ten years but i dont wanna go into deatails!but in a nut shell im mentally ill an recently lost my job as an industrial tyre fitter due to the fact i was diagnosed with spina bifida occulta and have suffered for my whole life in pain unaided so i have self medicated for years which means im fairly tollerent to most opiets,but i have maneged to secure 1000mg of methadone and i just wanted some advice about making a proper job of killing myself as peacfully and efficently as possible,iv thought this through long and hard,iv seeked mental health support for many years which has only ever ended in misdianosis and no help,i split with my partner last year an started again but she was with someone within one week and it slowly destroyed me untill i attempted suicide but mucked it up,she took pity an took me back when i lost my job on xmas eve,but what happened had affected me so much she left me again on farthers day this year because i was a mess,she’s taken my son away and poinsed the few people i know with lies abou me beating her(which i am incapable of!!i love her with every fibre in my body) due to debt i have lost everything,i have no home an because we moved to the isle of wight for a nicer life for my son i now have nobody an have become a recluse,i have no money,no future and nobody and i just cant go through losing her allover again along with all my other issuses and illnessis and many more things i cant even begin to list an iv just lost the will to carry on,this isnt a cry for help and iv made up my mind i just want sound advice about the methadone overdose and what to expect from it,please please dont judge,like i said,iv thought it through an i dont need any guilt trips just sound advice,i hope someone understands and helps because part of my mental issue is OCD and im a coward an im frightened of suffering and messig it up again

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ameliaearthlin 47 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (5 minutes after post)

oh hun. U have had it hard.
Never give up!
I have been diagnosed with m.s. I know the only answer seems to kill yourself.
It is not!!!
Use this time alone to heal yourself.
Nothing is impossible.
What metal illness do u have? Ive suffered severe depression and panic attacks. I believe u r fixable. You just gotta fight for it.

Help me with: poem..everything was perfect.

Genesis721 8 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (10 minutes after post)

I am so sorry you are suffering so much. I beseech you to control local help agencies that can support you through this. They are many people who have disabilities too and they are working them with the help of others. Have you called the hospital to see if they have an agency that you can call? Perhaps contact the local churches and they may be able to send someone over to see you. Don’t give up, try to heal from your loses.

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captinprestedg 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (24 minutes after post)

all the mental health team here do is see iv had a little fall out with the GF and put it all down to that my mother has begged people to do something,she herself was a mental nurse for 20years untill she became a heroin addict due to her illness(degenerative diesese of the spine)for the pain which i nursed her through,i have no father he left before i was born so it has always been just us but because of our history we get written off,i have severe deppresion(dont we all)OCD,real anger/rage problems to the point of feeling like i have a split personality etc etc,but i have reached my decicion an i need help so i dont ending up in a pool of puke being ill an a vegatable x

Genesis721 8 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (28 minutes after post)

Contact the local churches. They are in direct contact with agencies suchas: Catholic Charities and Lutheran Charities. Please reach out to them.

Dr. Ralph's Beard 75 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (37 minutes after post)

You need to call a suicide hotline and talk to someone and let them know what’s going on.

Help me with: They just started year round school here and the kids are on fall break.

captinprestedg 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (44 minutes after post)

well with out sounding ungratefull,i asked for adivce and if anyone can advise please do,i have made up my mind,all i cause is hurt an pain for my self and everyone around me and the world certaily wont stop with out me,in fact it would probably be a better place!i am a reasonable person and im not histerical iv thought this through and i just wanted to know i wont suffer or risk it not working if anyone can help me please do x

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An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (52 minutes after post)

i called the local helpline while i was in crisis ast year an they offered an appointment in 2months to which i responded with an overdose which i ballsed up,even then they just said it was a cry for help and booked me into a self help group which i attetend,but they cancelled on the day and ever bothered to assist me further,iv contacted them multiple times recently only to be offered an appointment for assesment in 3months

captinprestedg 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (57 minutes after post)

someone please please advise me on the methadone,is 1000ml (1mg to 1ml) enough and will i suffer?im such a ccoward:(please im begging someone to help,someone must know,im so deperate

Sans 52 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 2 minutes after post)

captinprestedg wrote:
well with out sounding ungratefull,i asked for adivce and if anyone can advise please do

No one here is going to help you kill yourself. That isn’t a solution. If you really love your son, then keep trying to get the help with your illness that you need. Your relationship isn’t the most important thing. Living life to the best of your ability and raising your son is.

Dr. Ralph's Beard 75 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

Yeah pour the methadone down the toilet, it isn’t the solution it’s the problem.

Help me with: They just started year round school here and the kids are on fall break.

captinprestedg 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

im not asking anybody to pour it down my throat,an believe me my son is better off without me because he is goig to be used as a weapon against me all his life and i dont want that for him,i have secured a hidden account iv filled with entouchable money(all be it not much) for him when he,s older an written him a 20odd page letter to open when he’s old enough and ready to understand,i love him and despite what anyone says he would be better off with out me,i just want advice on the effects of that ammout of meth!and wat sort of a father can i be with all my crap,no job and a seriously vicious now ex?plus the fact she’s legally stopped me from seeing him by reeling of aload of BS about me being violent and dangerous to the social services?i truley cannot go through this,everybody has a final straw an losing everything again is mine,if i cant get advice then i guess i’ll have to take the risk

captinprestedg 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 30 minutes after post)

i thought someone would understand,do u think i’d be asking bout this if i hadnt thought it through?im intelligent and reasonable and extremly open minded!i didnt want a guilt trip just help,nevermind i guess its goodbye thankyou to the people that sounded concerned and much love,i hope you get the help you asked for!!

Genesis721 8 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (8 hours, 40 minutes after post)

Leaving your son should not be an option. Do you realize that no one on this earth except his mother will understand and be able to guide him the way that you do. Forget about how she is talking about you, stand up for yourself. Your son will see that you are a caring human being and will believe for himself. Please don’t do this because this is all your son will really remember about you. He will wonder if he has the strength to stick it out and that will haunt him as well.

I am sure if you told the agencies that you called that you were suicidal they would see the urgency to get you some help.

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