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Ok so let me start here it all started when i was 11

Years old, My mom discovered that my dad was doing crack and they got devorced, at the age of 14, we discovered my mom had HIV. so i had to drop out of school at the age of 15, so that i could start working and providing money, because my mom couldn’t. I even made a fake ID to say that i was 16 because the leagel working age here in south africa is 16. One day she got a stroke and they took me away from her. I went to go stay at my eldest brother, the thing with him was he drank alot, and also did drugs, but at the time i didn’t care, I was worried about my mom, eventually when i realised i couldn’t do anything about my mom, I also started doing drugs, Meth, Ex, Cocaine, this went on for about 3 years, after my mom died. And i decided that this cannot go on anymore, i stopped with my drugs, moved away from my brother, ive been clean from drugs now for a few years. But the only problem is I don’t have education, Im trying so hard to get it, but its kinda hard living on your own, paying rent, food, working everyday, I actually need to still get a ID. But i just dont have time to get my ID because im working everyday to survive. And i only make like R3000 a month which is nothing. Ive got this problem. where i get devoted to a job and i cannot quit. I was even thinking of doing some illeagle stuff to get some extra cash. Its so hard to get a decent job with out education. Can anybody give me some advise. It just feels like im stuck on one Level, repeating a loop

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ryanamanda offline Unverified User #
An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (56 minutes after post)

Wow here I am worried about simple things baby steps and a short term game plan maybe will help my world is so far from yours but look how far you have come already

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (2 hours, 28 minutes after post)

Yeah well i think i miss family alot also, its been a while. All the people that i am friends with just wants to go out and party, and it really sux, wanting to go and socialise and everybody is drunk, maybe i dont know who i am anymore, i just keep getting thrown around, and eventually just get back up, and try again, but a person only has so much energy. So soo much confusion in my head, and i don’t know if im losing it or just really depressed. im only 22, and ive gone through hell. maybe im busy relapsing and i need to get a fix or something and thats a road that i don’t want to walk again, id rather kill myself then do drugs again

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An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (4 hours, 27 minutes after post)

You have a story like somebody who is going to become a president of a big company. Someone like you have greater power to love the life than (so-called) normal educated people.I believe you are doing the best that you can do right now. I can understand from your words that you are one whose feet are on the ground. Comparing yourself with other people only gives you pain. Please remind yourself everytime that every single body in this world can have a chateau with available material right now.Ask for that from whatever you believe created you, you deserve the best. Imagine your life without missing anybody, have the money and ID you want, have everything you want from life, how you would feel? dream about that every morning … Everyday struggles of yours making you more powerful everyday. Believe in yourself. Sorry about my english … wish I could write better than this, everything flying in my mind right now.

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greaterwithgo offline Verified User (5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 5 months ago (5 hours, 59 minutes after post)

I use to inspire people around me to sometime ago, and now im the one asking other people for advise, well i am hopeing to get become a president of some major company soon, I use to have alot of stuff, my dad use to own a big engineering company, but then he went on business trips for 6 months at a time, eventually my mom found out, when she started getting unhappy that he was working too much, she confronted him, so for me it was kinda hard getting use a life, where i had basically everything that i wanted to growing up poor and all alone by myself(by myself meaning, the stuff my brother was doing i wasn’t actually intrested in, like a lifestyle that i didnt want. The only thing that i want now in life is security for hopefully a family i will start someday and that my children won’t go through what i went through in my childhood, to come home to a family that loves you, something worth fighting for.

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