Talk with me?
I know it wont mean a **** thing if you do.
Darkness is the default and flames always die.
But just…talk to me. Keep the torches lit as long as you can…I don’t want to be alone anymore.
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you are not alone. talk to me. lonliness is not a good feeling. just talk. i will listen to you. i dont want you to feel alone.
I dont know what to talk about. I just need to forget the fact that no-one gives a ****.
i do or i wouldnt have chosen to talk to you. i care. and nufin you do or say is going to change that.
so lets talkdo you have anything you want to talk about or we can just talk about how the grass round my house id green cause it rained.
Ive probably done enuf posts talkin about ****** friendships, might as well talk random stuff now because i just need to feel like someones there.
im here to listen to anything you want to say. im not here to judge you. im only here to care.
Hey there’s lots of people who’d love to talk to you. I’ll listen
Devil…that sounds harsh…but it doesnt make you an idiot.
Rachae, thanks. I just…whats there to say. Everytime I try to go anywhere with people i end up being alone, even if im witht hem.
Life is about mistakes, and about the fact that all flowers grow from the dirt. None of us are perfect, and some of us seem to have it harder or make more visible mistakes then others…but it makes us strong, it makes us vibrant, it makes us rich in our own way. I wish the best for you .
so its not that you are physically alone as there are people there. it more that it feels like you are alone when there are so many people around you. please remeber that you are not alone cause i care. and i can tell you i feel i live in a world with so many people but it seems like no one there even though i can see them all walk by.
devil.. i wasnt talking to you sorry
No I got kicked out so he could make out with the girl. Or rather I left because the sounds of lips smakcing in the background is …a little too much. Same thing happened at my other friends hosue last time iw as there.
i cant say anything that will make it any easier on you. all i know is i care and you shouldnt be made feel that way.
Its ok, its a little thing. Its just in the last year I cant even name how many friends have turned their backs on me or taken from me and given nothing in the return. The sad part is they dont even get it, they dont even understand that I’m hurting about this type of thing. Not a single one of them. They are good people..>i mean…i think they are. But they just cant understand that I just want someone to care how i feel, ask me how its going sometime or anything…o rlisten when im down. Whatever. I need to stop…going out of the house and hanging out with these people. i thought I was fighting the loneliness, but I’m only falling deeper into it. Maybe to feel myself I need to be alone…maybe to feel…not-alone…I need to stop being aroudn these friends, if that makes any sense.
it does make sense. feeling understood is important rite? sometimes when you are lonely yo feel the need to be alone. i know it seems strange but it is how it works. i know it dont matter but when i feel that way i just put it down to needing to be alone to try to figure out why
gf > friends
gf will be there for you when you are down and sh!t, why dont you have a girl and stuff makes life soo much easier and more beautiful to live ….
where are my manners :D
HI first ^_^
tricky.ser wrote:
gf > friendsgf will be there for you when you are down and sh!t, why dont you have a girl and stuff makes life soo much easier and more beautiful to live ….
Gf > then friends.
T.v. > friends.
Drugs > friends.
New friends > old friends.
Money > friends.
Yes, so true.
gf > friends
friends > tv //anything is better then tv , such a waste of time :)
friends > drugs // show me reality, give me truth… no illusions
tricky.ser wrote:
gf > friendsgf will be there for you when you are down and sh!t, why dont you have a girl and stuff makes life soo much easier and more beautiful to live ….
I dont care whether or not I have a girl, this is about the way people treat eachother,w ithout care. Its no solution for me to find a girl so that I can turn my back to my friends too. I dont care about finding a girl or not, that isnt even relevant.
im happy to see that you see that a girl isnt going to make your friends treat you any different. a girl wont make everything better.
but im sorry to say id prefer to see you have a girlfriend than drugs. drugs are not worth it.
Snar wrote:
tricky.ser wrote:
gf > friendsgf will be there for you when you are down and sh!t, why dont you have a girl and stuff makes life soo much easier and more beautiful to live ….
I dont care whether or not I have a girl, this is about the way people treat eachother,w ithout care. Its no solution for me to find a girl so that I can turn my back to my friends too. I dont care about finding a girl or not, that isnt even relevant.
life is too cruel, life is too hard to actually care about others, you berly have energy to take care of urself… a girl is more relevant then you can imagine, she will give you strength to face this world, she will give you strength to love, as you give her strength she will give you strength…. a girl will bring sense to your life… she is more relevant than you can imagine
rachae wrote:
im happy to see that you see that a girl isnt going to make your friends treat you any different. a girl wont make everything better.but im sorry to say id prefer to see you have a girlfriend than drugs. drugs are not worth it.
No no, I’m not saying either of those are alternatives.
Tricky, I’m sorry. I spent two years with a girl, fell in love, went down that path of dependance. Thats not for me right now. Im young, I have my whole life ahead of me, sure I’ll have fun but I will NEVER see eye to eye with you if you try and tell me I need a girl to make me whole. i think that is ****** up and very very dangerous logic.
Snar wrote:
Tricky, I’m sorry. I spent two years with a girl, fell in love, went down that path of dependance. Thats not for me right now. Im young, I have my whole life ahead of me, sure I’ll have fun but I will NEVER see eye to eye with you if you try and tell me I need a girl to make me whole. i think that is ****** up and very very dangerous logic.
ok then :)… here is what i think is true :)… before you do anything in life you have to seek yourself when you find yourself and become whole… you seek a relationship, god , etc… yet not all ppl can comprehend that and i usally give the typical advise of going for a girl, yet it is not the best path, the best path i believe is much harder, to seek oneself and the point of oneself, then when you find the answers for your general questions you start seeking answers outside yourself, the questions that face the world… you being on drugs didnt help much to hit you with what i believe the true path, sorry if i was abit judgmental :)… so now you need to find a source to get pleasure ^_^, other then drugs :P … sports hobbies , anything ?
Snar wrote:
Tricky, I’m sorry. I spent two years with a girl, fell in love, went down that path of dependance. Thats not for me right now. Im young, I have my whole life ahead of me, sure I’ll have fun but I will NEVER see eye to eye with you if you try and tell me I need a girl to make me whole. i think that is ****** up and very very dangerous logic.
btw nothing in life goes to waste ^_^ so two years are not of waste :)
this is my secret poem, i guess it aint secret no more :P
My dear
The time has come to grow up;
The days of youth and dreams are over;
The time to face the world has come;
Be not be afraid;
I will hold your hand along the way;
You are not alone;
Even tho you always felt that way;
So I give you my hand;
Take it and follow me;
Or leave it and go astray;
You will hear of wisdom beyond your understanding;
Learn what you can;
Leave the others that you cant comprehend;
The time will come when they will make sense as well;
My dear;
Most of what you hear is a lie;
For, for every story a person who benefits;
In this world, we are nothing more than;
A consumer and sheep who follow blinds;
Be a sheep with many friends;
Or risk loneliness for what you believe is false;
Loneliness is one of the worst feeling in this world;
Be careful what you choose;
Nothing heroic about choosing loneliness;
Most likely it will lead to your own destruction;
For whoever is alone will stay alone;
Whoever is poor will become poorer;
Whoever is rich will become richer;
That is the way of the world;
You either decide to wear a mask and go with the flow;
Or choose to be and seek what you want and face the world alone;
Even if you choose the path of friendship
Nobody is really your friend
They are your friend just because you are wearing your mask
Once you decide to take the mask out or choose to take a rest;
You will realize that friendship was never yours;
But the illusion of friendship that surrounded you and made you feel secure;
A beautiful lie that cushiness this world;
Yet there is nothing wrong in choosing either;
We are brainwashed by the idea of heroes;
Nothing heroic about being alone;
Nothing heroic about wearing a mask;
It’s just a matter of choice really;
There is no right road or a wrong road;
It’s sad what this world has made us;
It’s hard to take ourselves back;
We are not heroes;
We are not unique;
We are not special;
We are just like everybody else;
Am, like you;
And you are like me;
We are all humans;
We are weak;
Emotion dependent;
Bounded to error;
We are not strong;
We are not independent;
We all depend on some thing;
To bring us emotion satisfaction;
Others to bring us the illusion of power and independence;
Yet the truth remains;
Am not better than an addicted person;
Am not stronger than an addicted person;
It just happens to be that am addicted to other things than drugs;
People who don’t have any source to bring in emotion stability;
And the sensation of power and independence;
Will be bounded to go to drugs;
To fill this voidness;
Am not better than them;
You are not better then them;
We just like to believe we are stronger;
Since that brings us sensation stability;
But the truth still remains;
We are not stronger; we just have a source to get our energy;
Time, gender, surrounding, life style, family, so called friends;
All play part;
At some point of mix you will have a 100% chance of somebody doing drugs;
Doesn’t matter who it is;
Even you;
You will fall short;
We are not stronger or better then anybody else;
Compared with drug addicts;
We aren’t addicted for a simple reason;
Our mix don’t give forth a drug addiction;
Since we find our emotion stability;
And sensation of power and independent from another source;
Next time you judge somebody remember;
You would have done the same;
If you where in there shoe;
Depression isn’t a disease;
Depression is a simple problem;
It’s a person who doesn’t have any income of emotion or sensation;
My dear;
No matter what road you decide to go;
It’s not the destination that brings happiness;
But the journey;
When you reach your destination you will find an empty room;
Enjoy the journey as you go forward;
You are dying;
But you are not still dead;
So learn to enjoy every breath you take;
So sadness takes you no where;
The world will forever try to make you a slave;
But every time you go astray;
Remember my words;
This world will make you go blind;
You will learn to judge by what you see;
You will learn to be selfish;
You will learn to be the best and take people down;
But I tell you;
Forget everything you have learned;
Question everything that you been tought;
Everything you see on the television is a lie;
Even reality shows;
Even phone taken videos;
Just like a picture;
When you know somebody is taking a photo of you;
You will smile;
The picture is a fake;
Be careful for people always want what is best for them;
So when anybody give you any advise;
Ask yourself why and how will that benefit them;
People don’t even know it themselves but when somebody asks them for advise;
They will tell them an advise which is best for them and not what is best for you;
My dear;
Don’t be fooled by money or fame;
For you will only find a dead corpse;
Life is inside you and all around you;
You just have to really want to see it;
Don’t be fooled by careers;
Don’t pursuit a career;
For that will destroy your life;
Pursuit to be good at your work;
But never sacrifice family, friends, humbleness;
Once you loose those;
You will have nothing left;
Devoting your life for work and giving it your all and sacrificing everything for it;
Is what I call a career;
You really have to sacrifice everything to be the best;
Since most people do that;
To be at there level;
You should do the same;
But friend please don’t;
Enjoy your work;
Enjoy the free time that you have;
Enjoy life;
Career are not worth it;
My dear;
Live your life;
Really live it;
Learn how your body works;
What it needs;
And how it reacts;
For the body is nothing more than a reaction to the world;
The mindless reaction;
That is where your mind comes to play;
Even tho at some level the body will over come the mind;
Like I was stating before;
Yet most of the time the mind plays a good role in life;
But the maturity of oneself is essential;
Without it your mind is a **** whole;
That will bring you much problem and sorrow;
Your body is a reacting tool;
Just like when you throw yourself in the sea and you cant move;
The sea will take you where it wants;
You really have no control;
But the moment you decide to take control back;
You start moving your feet and hands;
But if the tide is too strong;
It is pointless;
You are bound to follow the sea;
Yet even if the tide is throwing you into some place you don’t want to go;
Oppose it;
Hopefully the storm not gona last long;
My dear;
Don’t believe what you see;
For even that has been taken away from humanity;
Television is so destructive that I don’t even know where to start;
Too much lies;
It effects us too much;
The body believes what it sees;
For something to be a fact the body has to see it;
If it sees it believes;
That is how the body works;
Even if you don’t know it;
The truth effects us even if we don’t know it;
My dear;
In any game you play;
Somebody will loose;
And the other will win;
Don’t feel down when you loose;
For the other team, person has won;
And they will feel good because of the satifaction of wining;
But don’t feel sad because you lost;
But be happy because they won and are feeling good;
This world isn’t about you always;
It’s about everybody;
If you keep wining;
Remember others are feeling bad every time you win;
Because they are immature;
But from time to time loose even if you could have won;
rachae wrote:
nice poem. u got talent
naaa i dont ^_^ but thanks anywayz ^_^
snar you there ?
btw where do you live and what do you do and stuff?
WHEN WILL I GET MY WINGS?
January 6th, 2009
Current mood: drained
Category: Writing and Poetry
My inability to see the Truth has held me prisioner (in my mind), my entire life.
One day, GOD decided it was time to open my eyes.
I collapsed on my knees, writhing around on the ground and cried out in excrutiating pain.
Just like the TRUTH, the sun’s rays burned and the sun’s rays stang.
I scurried under a tree for shade and placed my hands over my eyes to cover my pale, pasty, white face.
The blind woman in me could not handle the TRUTH, such a DARK, SCARY, PLACE.
Little did I know, just one glimpse would strike TERROR within me.
So, I asked GOD for the wings of a DOVE so that far, far, away, I could flee.
Then GOD replied, my precious child please open your eyes, for only the TRUTH shall set you FREE.
Have more poetry but very picky. luv metaphors & peoms that don’t conform to usual methodologies! poems that tell a story but have to be contemplated because they are deep. have to have passion or they are no good for me. have to come from the heart, blood, sweat, tears & inspiration make them great. have this one i submitted & was asked to publish. got a copywright but wow!! way to painful for me. i guarantee nobody has a clue as to what it refers too? tell me what you think it is symbolic of our how you would interpret it? besides the obvious. don’t know if i really want to publish it because of what it represents.
I’m soosoo sick of being misudnerstood that i would rather speak in toungues! now, i just accept it & seek to understand.
Sorry for not responding everyone, I got pulled away.
I’ll start with you my good friend JJ. I hope we are in touch then too. I dont know where I’d joing a writers group but honestly that’d be lovely, probably in university I can. And I start in september…and yes…I’m excited…and yes, hopefully it’ll be a chance to escape this whole mindset.
Thankyou JJ, I’m not sure that I’m so wise…maybe I just am articulate enough to express my feelings clearly which some people can’t quite do. But you are always a ray of sunshine in my posts my dear :)
Thankyou both for sharing your poetry. Tricky I have to set one thing straight, I do not do drugs. I think you got that impression. My point was that any distraction seems to overrule friendship and that it isnt some kind of transcendant force that I’m arguing against…its just a distraction that I’m arguing against, a small pleasentry that means more than common courtesy. I didnt finish your poem tricky, it was a little long for me at 7 in the morning on 3 hours of sleep…but what I read did sound rather passionate and I appreciate that, though in many ways I must admit such a lengthy and unbroken verse is rarely a style I enjoy reading. AGT your poem was also very good, sharp, imagistic and powerful…but something I can not relate to in the slightest. Still, I know it means a lot to share, so thankyou both :).
Snar wrote:
Thankyou both for sharing your poetry. Tricky I have to set one thing straight, I do not do drugs. I think you got that impression. My point was that any distraction seems to overrule friendship and that it isnt some kind of transcendant force that I’m arguing against…its just a distraction that I’m arguing against, a small pleasentry that means more than common courtesy. I didnt finish your poem tricky, it was a little long for me at 7 in the morning on 3 hours of sleep…but what I read did sound rather passionate and I appreciate that, though in many ways I must admit such a lengthy and unbroken verse is rarely a style I enjoy reading. AGT your poem was also very good, sharp, imagistic and powerful…but something I can not relate to in the slightest. Still, I know it means a lot to share, so thankyou both :).
i was just hopping it will do you good ^_^, i think most of what i learned is in that poem… Since we are living and time will go on , happy or sad, choose happiness and seek it :D… i wish you the best man , you such a wise guy ^_^, you always impress me with your answer and stuff, good luck man
Thanks so much tricky, both for your advice, poem, and kind words. You have been very giving :)
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (18 hours, 37 minutes after post)
In a way we are always alone… No1 truly understands you ever… Not even you yourself…
Still bitter…
~*Bleeding_Heart*~ wrote:
In a way we are always alone… No1 truly understands you ever… Not even you yourself…Still bitter…
Well hey, cheers to bitterness, no-one ever said reality was a sweet brew anyways. But I DO think I understand me XD.
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 3 weeks ago (18 hours, 54 minutes after post)
Hmm then you are alone lol…why do we feel so **** bitter sometimes? i dont understnd it… but then again im a difficult person!
Snar wrote:
Life is about mistakes, and about the fact that all flowers grow from the dirt. None of us are perfect, and some of us seem to have it harder or make more visible mistakes then others…but it makes us strong, it makes us vibrant, it makes us rich in our own way. I wish the best for you .
One of the best comments I’ve ever read on help.
Snar remember that things won’t be magically great just because you get to college. There will be immeasurably more opportunity, but you’ll still have to take initiative to improve your social life. No, a girlfriend will never complete you. And good friends are usually more lasting that romantic relationships at college age. You’re someone who is determined to change the world. Part of your training is changing YOUR world.
Sans wrote:
Snar remember that things won’t be magically great just because you get to college. There will be immeasurably more opportunity, but you’ll still have to take initiative to improve your social life. No, a girlfriend will never complete you. And good friends are usually more lasting that romantic relationships at college age. You’re someone who is determined to change the world. Part of your training is changing YOUR world.
Thats one of the best comments I’VE read in so far as helping myself. You are so right sans, I’m trying my hardest to remember that college isn’t a solution, but an oppurtunity…and it’s up to me to turn that into something. I’m glad your with me on the girlfriend thing.
Its a great perspective Sans, for me to take…changing my own world as a means of getting myself to the point where I can make the larger difference I need to.
I’ve missed your clarity. Glad you showed up.
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