A guy I went to school with (from elementary to high school) and was close with when I was younger hung himself a few days ago.

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A guy I went to school with (from elementary to high school) and was close with when I was younger hung himself a few days ago.

He was only 19. The thing is, I felt more shock than sadness when it happened but ever since the other night when I heard one of his close friends talking about the details of it and how badly this messed himself up, I just can’t stop thinking about it. Here was a guy who seemed perfectly fine on the outside- football star, popular, friendly, handsome, etc. He certainly wasn’t one of those emo kids that create a lifestyle around depression and being odd. It just doesn’t make any sense! The thing is, I myself am recently recovering from severe depression that I managed to keep hidden for years and I would be lying if I said that I have never contemplated suicide. Still, nobody realizes how close I came to being in his place and now, even though I’ve been there, I just can’t believe this happened and I’m spiraling down into depression again. Sorry for the novel, but this is all just so ****** up. We are all way too young for this **** and I just don’t know what to think. I don’t even know what kind of advice I’m asking for here. This is not the first person I’ve known to commit suicide (the other was my neighbor, a loner who stepped in front of a train) but this one is really hitting me hard.

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Anonymous #
8 months ago (7 minutes after post)

that sound horriblly tough
i dont have any advice to give but to get help from a proffessional, tell your parents or a friend or a friends parent anyone you trust that can get you help, imagine if your friend would have asked for help, dont let yourself get that far, you have the power to seek help, and dont let anyone else hurt the way u are hurting now.
if you want to talk some more im here.

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An Unknown Location | 8 months ago (17 minutes after post)

Thanks. Its just that everything has been turned upside down by this. My brother (same age as me) doesn’t want to talk about it because he is too upset and is holding it all inside, which worries me and I’ve told him this (via text message because now I can’t even talk about it aloud without tears coming). I can’t talk to my sister (also same age) because she didn’t really know who the guy was and didn’t go to our high school. I have talked to my Dad, but he himself has a history of depression and I can tell that the whole situation is getting to him (mainly because it was the guy’s dad who found him) and I don’t want to worsen his emotions. I dunno, I guess I will make an appointment with my old psychologist though so thank you for suggesting it.

Help me with: My roomate’s boyfriend is a complete *******.

Anonymous #
8 months ago (20 minutes after post)

i think that is a great idea to make an appointment.
you sound like you are in a horrilble situation without this anyways, you diffinatly need to find an outlet, maybe you could even trick your brother into going to a therapist. that could be really good for him.

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