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hello, I think im starting to loose it.
Matter of fact, I have lost it. My life is becoming the biggest train wreck. Its slowly slipping away to wear I can’t control a **** thing in it. The common day to day things people go thru seem to be the biggest problems in the world to me. My parents are in the slumps with money, as in meaning they don’t have any. Im stuck in this small town going to school, where I am over my head in in debt and slowly dropping gpa. School has been so hard for bc I have no money to even buy my books. Yes, there is a store and a small restaurant in my town that I work at. I work 6 hours a week. Ridiculous huh? Well I have been tryin to find a job for months now, but screw this economy. Back to school, outta high school I had a chance to play basketball in college but my grades where not good enough so I ended up following the backroads to the nearest cheapest school. My brother, isn’t a **** thing like me. We have nothing in common, nothing to share, and nothing to say to each other. everytime I try to get close to him he seems to push me away, it must be me. Me and my father have never truly gotten along. He has been divorced twice now along with my mother as well. My ex-stepmother stole money from my father and pissed it all away gambling. She stole money as well from my granparents,m tapping into their trust funds, life savings, and social secuirity. This amount totaled to about 80,000 that my father is now on debt. My mother, divorced twice, left because she claims she wasnt happy. When really, she wasnt happy bc she was dealing with her drug problem with prescription drugs. She left my step-father and now hates her life as she struggles and lives from paycheck to paycheck. She has not even good advice for me. Nothing but I dont knows and maybe one of these days. The rest of my family isn’t there for me. They got their own **** to worry about I suppose. I guess you could say I’ve always been on my own. I have always had a lot of friends I thought, but came to find out that I have absolutely none. Not one true friend. I wouldnt even know who to call me best friend. Im always a person to be there for anyone, very careing, very helpful, and very easy to get along with. I cureently take drugs, Im very educated on drugs and I would never let myself get addicted to anything, its just not my personality, but sometimes i feel that drugs help me through the things i eal with. Dont worry, how serious could someones drug problem be when they dont have no money to buy them, forget about it…. My life now just seems so ard to get on the right track, with no one for guidance, no one for adivce, no one to be there to catch me when I fall… I feel sometimes that I was dealt this hand for a reason but nothing has seem to come along to explain things. I pray to god that everyday something just goood could happen to me. I saw this website and wanted to let anyone know that this is my life, it sucks, and I need help…. Im hear for anyone else as well… God bless….
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