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i don’t know what to do.

its pathetic. here i am, with a good education, close friends, and money. so why am i so depressed??? its stupid. ye, my family have split up (like, ages ago) they live near each other and both have new partners. my family are close i suppose, yet i feel like im singled out as an odd one. im the youngest (out of imideate family - i have a one year old half sister) and im a twin, so im not ACTUALLY the youngest, but im treated like it (im 16). they all laugh and talk to each other, i try but get made fun of so i give up. either that or they have a go at me and make me angry or upset… but im not violent. urgh its just sounding crap to me, but you are probably like - whats she complaining about? she has family!! i always feel like im letting people down, and i KNOW i should go out and see my friends, but i feel like im a disappointment to them and they shouldnt have to put up with me, and when im alone i can cry and think over my life. so i stay hidden most the time, although i do go out sometimes, i usually make excuses why i cant go. so that’s like a vicious circle, right?? i feel like im not worth being here… i don’t think of suicide as much as i used to, but sometimes it slips into my mind… id never do it, though, id never be able to leave my family and friends like that. i stopped cutting myself because i became worried someone would find out and id look stupid. i know i should be telling someone like family or a close friend or a doctor about it, but im SCARED!! i know what i need to do, i just cant. i know how important it is (a month and a half ago a friend of mine killed himself - no one had any idea he felt like that). but is there anything else i can do? should i just keep going like this???? can i???? i don’t think there’s anything else i can do… just thought id ask anyone what to do?? and sorry for spelling… its dark in this room!! please comment?? x

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bookworm16 offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (5 minutes after post)

Hey, have you tried talking to anybody about this? I know how you feel, I truly do, but you need to get this sorted before you turn back to self-harm.

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sarah_sommervill offline Verified User (4 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (4 days, 18 hours after post)

i know, i should, but i just cant seem to talk to anybody… i dont know why, i mean, maybe im self-conciously thinking theyd hate me, or will judge me, even though its silly to think that… i just cant talk to anybody :/

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An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (5 days, 6 hours after post)

I am 24 years old and your post sounds exactly like how I was in High School. You need to know that you are entitled to feel how you feel. You don’t have to feel guilty because you have an education and close friends. The way you feel is exactly that- the way YOU feel. Feelings aren’t always logical and they don’t always make sense. Feeling guilty about being depressed will only make it worse. The best thing you can do for yourself is to get help. It may be the single hardest thing you do in your entire life, but in the end it will absolutely be worth it. It is terrifying to take that first step, but I hope you find the courage to do so. You do not need to live your life unhappy anymore. I have also found that exercising and taking vitamins helps some, and volunteering. It’s very hard to be sad when you’re trying to make someone else happy. I hope that I help you a tiny bit.

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sarah_sommervill offline Verified User (4 months, 1 week) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (6 days, 21 hours after post)

thank you, and perhaps i will find the courage, i just need to find the right person.. ill try, and excercise sounds like a good plan. thank you very much xx

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