depression help: i’ve havent talked to anyone in a really long time and

forgottenrealms_2009

i’ve havent talked to anyone in a really long time and i probibly should have…

im 22 and jobless because i choose to be i know i did but at the same time i know its not me….im not the person i should be…instead all i do is hurt myself and others and i dont mean to i dont even want to but no matter what i do or how i try to change i always come back to this point and that make me feel hopeless…every day i wake up i have to deal with felling of embarrassment, hopelessness, depression, worthless, sadness, and thoughts of suicide… the bad thing is ive felt this way for so long that its all i know how to fell and im not happy unless i fell this way but at the same time if it doesnt stop i cant keep going… on top of it i have 1 kid and 1 on the way and it kills me that i cant teach them to not fell this way… i dont fell that i have anything to teach them except how to be miserable… i want to be normal but i dont know if i can or even if i should try or if i should save everyone that pain of being with me and just end it… im so lost inside my mind and the funny thing is that saying all of this prolly wont make me fell better… i fell like im getting ignored by everyone that matters to me… i fell like they hate me… heck i dont blam them i dont even like myself… i fell so lost and alone and i dont think i could get help for myself even if i wanted to… i cant shake this felling i cant stop them either the only time i dont think about everything is when i listen to music and it getting to the point where i can zone out the music and when that happens i wont have any place to hide from myself… it is ok to end it all ? and if it not how do i fix myself when i dont think myself wants to be fixed… i dont know what to do…i dont know how to keep going anymore… i just want to stop hurting

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An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (10 minutes after post)

Hi Forgotten,

You probably need to talk to someone in person to get some professional help but as a first step let me offer you some simple advice:
1. get some exercise and a change of scenery
2. try to eat some healthy food
3. clean up and organize your immediate surroundings
4. try to find something simple you can do for yourself, a hair cut or go get take out you really like
5. do something nice for a friend or neighbor, take our a senior’s trash

Keep it simple and get a chance to talk to a pro…
There are people out there who care and don’t ever forget you are important, you make a difference and the world is a better place with you in it.

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An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (13 minutes after post)

every time i try to help myself i end up felling worse… you know what i mean ?

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An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (17 minutes after post)

man talk i mean wats the worst thing some 1 can say to a questin its no just try lol at the coment b4 mine

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An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (22 minutes after post)

that not what i mean iv talked to people before but at some point i just stoped and now every time i try to talk to them again i end up sounding like a babbling fool nothing comes out right and it ends up makeing me fell worse then i already did

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An Unknown Location | 4 months ago (3 hours, 2 minutes after post)

I don’t know how long you have been feeling this way but if it started around the time your first child was born it could be that you are suffering from post natal depression (UK termanology) not sure what it’s called in the USA baby blues maybe, anyway it is treatable so go and get some help. stop saying you can’t and start saying you can. next time you see your dr/OBGYN TELL THEM HOW YOU FEEL. If not take some time and write it down so you can get your thoughts strait and hand it to them to read. You do need help for your own and your kids sake YOU ARE WORTH HELPING. Hug yor kid and make a promise to them that you will get better.

Help me with: my friend told me she is loosing her baby and i said oh dear and carried on talking about me.

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