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Feeling glum
Its a bit silly but theres something that is bothering me a lot at the moment.
Im feeling really nervous and threatened at the moment because ive confronted my soccer coach again today about the way he talks to me and the team in general.
He doesnt take stress too well, and when things dont go his way or doesnt like what he sees, he screams and abuses the players on the team, including me, for not meeting these standards.
Today i had just been subbed onto the field and the mistake i made was not bad at all. basically someone kicked the ball into my hand which meant it was considered a hand ball and a foul against the team.
When i turned around, i took an ear full of abuse from the coach.
And i simply said “shut up”. I know i shouldnt have done that, but in my defence, im so tired of being made to feel like **** for trying to play game i used to love playing. 5 mins after i go onto the field, im off again.
Since then, i called the head coach of the club overall with every intention of quiting. I didnt see the point of playing any more if this is the way i get treated. He has since convinced me to take 2 weeks off and see how i feel about coming back after that time.
But Im feeling so nervous. Im really scared and ashamed all at the same time. Im not an ******* . . . atleast i dont try to be. But when these things happen to me, i feel so angry for having to go through the abuse and i say things to defend myself.
Ive done this once before already with this coach which doesnt make it easier for me (the previous occasion i said a little more; last time i said “just back off, it was an accident for christ sake” and got treated the same way).
Im scared of what the outcome will be of this. Whether the coach for my team will treat me worse now because i have gone to one of the heads to point out whats going on and why i want to quit.
Id like to learn how to be brave, or to be able to let such trivial things as this just wash over me so that, for the next couple of weeks, i can feel a sense of liberation and relaxation from some of the things that are worrying.
Does anyone have any methods they know of that could help me?
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