that must suck. not the case, because after all, you’re still better off then any of the 600 million or so war victims that have a depressed personality disorder (why, one wonders), nothing to eat, and no parents to live with, even if their house hadn’t been hit by a stray missile headed for a nearby military target. but it must suck to feel the way you do, that i can understand.
have you ever seriously tried to help yourself? nothing more rewarding in life then self-accomplishment, from the ground up - especially if the world gives up on them. it’ll probably take you less then 6 years, far less money, and better results.
it’s all in your head. with practice, you can learn to control your mind.
Yes, there are people worse of I am aware of that, thank you.
I’ve tried and failed many times, repeatidly ending up in the same place. I’m that idiot that needs to be escorted of the trainplatform.. and no, I don’t remember how I got there. Great. Thinking more will fix that, right?
doubtful, but thinking less just might.
you may just be trying to over-analyze everything - common mistake in the pursuit of happiness, and downfall to many a smart man/woman in history :/ too much thinking with the head, too little with the heart.
the head doesn’t know or understand how to make you happy. only your heart knows that. listen to it. then use your head to figure out how to get it accomplished in your life.
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repeatedly ending up in the same place.
know the U2 song ’stuck in a moment’ ? there’s even major songs about it, just to give you an impression on how many people this general feeling applies to. the thing is, that won’t change, until YOU make the changes.
in an ideal world, we’d have people in every station, escorting lost travelers in and out, but in this one, you have to find/sort out most of the relevant stuff for yourself. you sound like a smart person, bit negative, but smart - i’ve read some of your posts before. i’m sure you don’t need an escort. you need to learn how to read the signs ;)
I know all about the overthinking angle, I do that too much - I was hoping that maybe to posting something, just writing would help, in a way it’s a start. To stop thinking and just post.
Good thing I live in a wealthy country with parents that support me no matter how bad things get; I am very thankful for that, I have the choice of waiting, but it feels more like a burden sometimes.
Wish I knew what I was waiting for though, I think about killing myself (and others) too much and it scares me, because at the very least I could try harder to contribute to society. Hopefully they let me volunteer at the local red cross, the library or something because I do want to be “better” then this.
im a bi-polar acute psychophrenic who starved herself for a year and has cut for a lot longer and had a few suicide attempts in there but one thing ived realized is that theres is always one person who needs you and sometimes more than that…now im not saying that im need all the time but there are a few times a month people come to me needing my help sometimes its a place to stay sometimes it just they need to talk but never the less i am here for you as well and i know that if you keep trying you will find the one or more who need you
Thank you Shaniqua, your words really mean allot to me. Take care *smiles & hugs* I’m not going to give up!
are you on medication for your depression? or any of the other things? and perhaps you should just look into getting yourself a therapist/councellor on your own, no recommendations, waiting lists etc, literally just go through the phone book and make some appointments, see if you click with someone.
a lot of things youre saying are wrong with you stem from each other, i am a recovering/ed anorexic and pretty much everyone single ana i know has anxiety and depression. they go somewhat hand in hand. so treat the root, and you will find the other things somewhat fade. theyre all just manifestations of the same “broken” bits in your head.
get into some therapy, get on some medication, and you will see a huge difference.
recovering from an ED is not easy nor quick, but it can be done, ive seen plenty do it and have done myself.
Sometimes I like to think it’s just another diet, and the self injury is just another symptom; maybe I’m just a little stressed and to weak to handle that - I should be able to fix it myself, I created most of this mess in the first place.. *sigh* I know what I just wrote is a lie. It’s no just a diet or just a little stress: I am weak.
I really wish they had accepted me for group therapy this February.. just being arround other people with the same issues might help me gain some insight in what I am doing to myself.
I’m on medication for anxieties but I’m going to be talking to my GP to see if I can maybe get some anti-depressants, I know it’s still summer but I can feel autumn coming and the seasons do affect me: especially autumn, it’s aweful. Anyway, I’m not sure about meds, I get paranoid about being poisoned/getting fat/being fed placebo’s so I tend to quit whenever I can (but then again; seeing the walls move, licking the floor, dissociating and getting suicidal isn’t much fun either)
Stupid thing is it’s horrible one moment, the next I want to say nothing is wrong; this has been going on for more then half of my life, most of my life to be honest - so I don’t expect things to improve much. That didn’t sound very positive, but I don’t want to hide & lie anymore.
I really wish you the best of luck, hope & power to recover from the anorexia/problems - take care.
well, quitting meds all over the show is probably half the problem. withdrawel from cold turkey is a *****, and you simply cannot do that and not expect side effects.
telling yourself you dont have problems is also another problem. the only way to recover from things like this is to accept you have them, and face them head on. which is scary as ****, but the only way to do it. dont wait around for therapy, its not the magic answer. YOU are the magic answer to yourself. no one can recover from these things for you, you have to do it for yourself.
and…licking the floor? ew lol
Definatly not planning on licking the floor again anytime soon lol.
About the meds: I blame myself, I choose to be lazy when I don’t see results and quit, my last GP wasn’t very helpful on that point but I can’t blame the idiot. I should’ve gotten another GP a long time ago - and now I have so I’m hoping this one has a bit more understanding/feeling for people with mental health issues.
I know I need to be the one to take the first step, it just feels like I’ve tried so many things already, now I’m just wasting people’s time & money (or ruin their holidays by landing myself in a ER). Right now I’m probably going back to a crisis counseller I’ve known for 2 years, it’ll be interesting to talk to someone in real life again besides my family and the homeless woman at the shops.
lol..yea…as wise as homeless people usually are, i would go with the therapist for sure haha
dont give up us people on help .com can be your new pyschs .. i have a degree in counselling … and how does that make you feel ??? seee
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