I’m 42 and so depressed not sure of what to do anymore.I’ve

ssart98

I’m 42 and so depressed not sure of what to do anymore.I’ve

worked hard all of my life and just lost my job after 6.6 years,not only have I lost my job but many friends, at least that is what I thought they were.The only good thing about losing my job was that I haven’t had one migraine since then.My job dealt with many employees and many customers, it was extremely stressfull yet somewhat a reward when I was able to help customers or my employees, I do miss that and most that I worked with.
Now, being unemployed for 95 days I question what will happen to me.I was denied unemployment (which I beleive I deserve) never had, even after my I lost my job in 1997 after 10 years of very hard physical work and I see/know people that work jobs less than 6 months and get unemployment, that makes me so mad especially when they are cheating the system.I’m gratefull that I was able to put a little cash away(very little) during my last job.Now without being able to find any employment, no insurance, health issues, car problems and more I have maybe 2 months left in me (cash) to survive.I know many have had a hard life and overcome lifes hurdles but I swear that I have had my share, honestly you would not believe some of the things I have gone through in my 42 years of exsitence.Now, I can’t seem to focus on anything and have thought about ending my life but I value it too much plus I have a indoor cat and 4 outdoors that depend on me and my immediate family I care about so much.I’m to the point that I’m staring into open space and can’t seem to think straight anymore,I also have secluded myself from many and even going out my door,I’m like my cat nowdays,looking out the windows whenever I hear a car door thinking who is bringing more bad news/bills/court dates etc.I actually feel like I’ve been imprisoned and stripped of all my rights.Now I’m not asking for financial handouts,like I said I’ve worked HARD every since I was 9-10 and know that responsibility is what I make of it and we work through problems to move forward and to learn.Without giving you my sob story (we all have) and taking up too much space and your time,I just thought this was a good way to vent? It has made me feel better but I know what lies ahead and it’s eating away at me so much that I’m to the point of no return.I found this website right after I got off the phone with my oldest sister and she and I were just talking normally when memories of the past good and bad came flooding through my head that I started to cry and thought to myself,”Seriously, what are you to do”? That’s when I sat down and typed in “Help” (actually my tears seemed to type it in, honestly).I don’t ask for anything but maybe direction in getting me out of this concrete box of depression that I have become entombed in, not of my choice.Thanks for your time and thanks for letting me vent.

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donwestes 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (9 minutes after post)

You are not alone.

Your challenges are shared by many right now.

Consider creating some movement in your life. Just get up and go do something, visit someplace, and try something new. Often this can remind you that you have power and can make choices.

Now choose to enlarge the context of your problem. If you need work, check online for jobs. If jobs are not available where you are, then stretch to consider moving - even if just for a while. If you need education to be better able to get a job, then contact your local education department to see what might be available for free.

For at least a few minutes a couple times a day, consider what yoour best friend would want you to try - and then do at least some of those things.

Go for it and good luck!

Help me with: My happiness rarely seems to include other people, though I have a best friend, a close relationship with one of my three

knowitall 1 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (15 minutes after post)

Whatever you do, please don’t end your life. That will just crush the world of those around you (I recently went through this, so trust me!)

Yes, things are bad, but in time it will get better one way or another. Situations never remain the same.

I am young, but I have been battling depression since I was a little girl (turns out my brain never really had the whole chemical balance thing right + I’ve been through a whole ton of **** that you don’t want to know about) so I can relate to what you are feeling now. The best option for you is to find someone to confide in. You have already posted on here so that shows that you do want help and believe deep down that there is hope! Find someone to talk to, be it a therapist or family member/ friend.

Help me with: My roomate’s boyfriend is a complete *******.

ssart98 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (28 minutes after post)

Thanks Donwestes and Knowitall……I will try (again)and hope for the best.

knowitall 1 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (29 minutes after post)

Good luck! :)

Help me with: My roomate’s boyfriend is a complete *******.

robradhar #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (34 minutes after post)

If you had a million dollars in the bank what would you do? You are in a similar situation believe it or not. You said your headaches went away. It’s time you discovered yourself and what you want to do with your life. Last resort buy a van with enough room for a mattress and travel the continent.

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ssart98 0 #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 3 minutes after post)

Robradhar……….I know that the money would help solve many of my problems but not all and it’s up to me to move on to make a new/better life.Thanks for you insight.

kiaboo #
An Unknown Location | 4 months, 1 week ago (2 days, 10 hours after post)

I’m in the same boat. I am so depressed right now and crying so I typed, “I lost my job and I’m depressed” and found your post. I got fired by my douche bag a**hole boss who has been after me for awhile. And it was pretty unfair and all my co-workers think so too. The worst was that he fired me only two weeks away from closing escrow on our first home. My husband and I have been looking for 3 years! This was in the neighborhood we wanted and our kids know half the kids in the neighborhood already. It’s the only one that we can afford. Plus we were getting help with a mortgage assistance program from the County, which the money is not available anymore. We had to pull out of escrow, it was a 60 escrow mind you, and we were only 2 weeks away from getting the keys. We gave up our rental unit and moved into my in-laws with all our stuff in storage. We were expecting to move in to the new house! So now, here I am, 35, jobless, my entire family in one bedroom at my in-laws and our hopes and dreams are just crushed. I’m so disgustingly pathetic and depressed! Everyone tells me that things happen for a reason and think positive and all that. But what I really want to do is squish my ex-boss’ head like the cockroach that he is! That and scream F-U to the world!!! Whew! I guess I needed to vent too! Well, just think that there’s at least one other angry unemployed person out there crying on their pillow- ME! Sometimes knowing that you’re not the only one makes you feel a tiny bit better. My advice to you: take a bit of joy from hearing your cat purr. Then the fact that it’s not raining. That your coffee is hot. That you held a job for 6.6 years and you were great at it. That maybe your old company is stupid for letting you go and some other company is going to realize that too. Well, thanks for letting me vent, too. Good luck and don’t forget to feed your cats! I still feed my kids!

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An Unknown Location | 2 weeks, 4 days ago (3 months, 3 weeks after post)

Unemployed male, 42, divorced. Quit claimed my house to ex-wife for benefit of our 2.5 son. A few months later, went to the house and some guy is living there. We’ll, the police came and I spent two weeks in jail. Cost me 70k and sealed the record. Starting daytrading and lost 168k.

My savings will last another 9 months, I have great credit, looking for a career opportunity….none available.

I’ve always made six figures and now I would be happy with 40k plus benefits.

Suicide is becoming more of a reality than finding a job….:{

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