Emotion help: i am lost. - Help.com

Wait, how did you come to know this guy? You’ve gotta find out the reasons why you love him, and balance them out with the reasons of why you 2 can’t be together

Is this an imaginary man that you have built in your mind and imagination?

What mental disorders do you suffer and have you been diagnosed by a doctor? If so are you on medication? This man you have idolised, I’m guessing he is famous? I can try give you some advice on how to deal with your emotions but it’s all pretty obvious stuff. You shouldn’t put poeple on pedestals, you must focus on yourself and your own life not someone elses. Most infatuations come and go and come again, and they happen to everyone, although some are hit stronger than others. They can be undescribably painful and only time will ease that, however you gotta learn to control your emotions. Easier said than done, trust me I know. Thats why if you haven’t already i’d strongly advise you to talk to a professional.
The last part about killing someone out of jealousy i’m going to hope was just typed without thought and that realistically you would never be capable of that and know that yourself. If that isn’t the case, then you are not just advised to get help, its your duty to!