depression help: I’ve been having dreams about suicide.

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I’ve been having dreams about suicide.

One of them was that I jumpped off a building. I’m confused. I’m a cutter. I know I need professional help. But never through my depression years have I had these kind of dreams. I’ve been close to dying once, but I was so scared from the experience that I noticed I didn’t actually want to die. & now this. Yes, I’m going through a rough time. Yes, My head is not better. But why if I’m so scared of death but like the feeling of cutting (even though I end up regreting it), would I have a dream about this??? I’ve never contemplated my own death before. So does this mean that my thoughts will transform me into a more self-destructive person? Or is it just a nightmare?… I’m confused.
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SayItsSo 13 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (1 minute after post)

well normally i’d say follow ur dreams…but maybe ur feeling pushed into something u don’t wanna do in real life….figure out what’s up in real and then u’ll stop having crazy dreams

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zilverknight 36 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (36 minutes after post)

Are you getting profesional help?

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An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (50 minutes after post)

you won’t turn into a self-destructive person if you try really hard to control your feelings. make sure those thoughts don’t become actions. stay strong.

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x_glitter 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (8 hours, 17 minutes after post)

zilverknight wrote:
Are you getting profesional help?

No, I’ve had therapy in the past but i’ve seen how upset it makes my mom to see that im still not well, so I’m scared to reconsider. But I know i need it.

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zilverknight 36 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (8 hours, 29 minutes after post)

Well your mother need to understand it’s a slow process. It’s not visit the doc for one session and I’m cured coming out cured and healthy.
Do what you need to do. It’s your life and your health you need to take care of!

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x_glitter 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (8 hours, 38 minutes after post)

zilverknight wrote:
Well your mother need to understand it’s a slow process. It’s not visit the doc for one session and I’m cured coming out cured and healthy.
Do what you need to do. It’s your life and your health you need to take care of!

She knows >_> It’s that I’ve been going to therapy since I was 11. I’m now 15. So I can understand why she’d be all stressed about it. But I feel like I’ve hurt my parents way too much & their cigarette count increases when they see I’m not alright. So I hide it. But it’s eating me up. I’ve seen my mom cry before. It’ll kill me to see that again because even though it doesn’t show sometimes, I love both my parents to death. I know I also have to think of my health, But how can I do that without tiring my parents out? I’m a minor, but can I get therapy without my parents knowing?

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zilverknight 36 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (8 hours, 40 minutes after post)

Don’t think so tbh. Do you perhaps have an adult other then your parents who you can talk to about these things?

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x_glitter 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (9 hours, 9 minutes after post)

Nope. My family’s pretty much scattered all over the place & I play dr.phil with my friends, but when I give them hints, they go back to their problem, so I’m just like “Yah. buhbye arsehole.” I’m pretty much a loner when it comes to this. lol.

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x_glitter 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (9 hours, 12 minutes after post)

SayItsSo wrote:
well normally i’d say follow ur dreams…but maybe ur feeling pushed into something u don’t wanna do in real life….figure out what’s up in real and then u’ll stop having crazy dreams

the only thing I know thats bothering me besides this is my increasing agoraphobic state. yeah, I shun school (who doesnt?). I pin pointed my problems, But I’m not sure if this was just a dream, or if it was telling me that I’m subconsiously (sp) suicidal again.

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zilverknight 36 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 1 week ago (2 days, 2 hours after post)

If you need somebody to talk to and don’t have anybody. I’m up for a chat.
I know what you mean bing Dr. Phil. I have been that all my life and also been taken granted for it…

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jmadelyn1 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (6 days, 10 hours after post)

ok, so there isn’t much help with depression,
except for seeing a professional, or medicane.
Question A: Do you want to die?
Obviously, you’ve had hard struggles in your life, but suicide, its not worth it.
I don’t know if your a christian or not, but God has bigger plans for you.
i’m not trying to “throw the bible on you”
but you have so much more to experience in life,
why cut it off short?

sideflip 36 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (6 days, 22 hours after post)

Something evil must be trying to take you over i don’t know. Dude the truth is you just need to tell your evil dream to shut up and you’ll stop having that dream. You’ll figure out what i mean in your own words.

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x_glitter 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (6 days, 22 hours after post)

sideflip wrote:
Something evil must be trying to take you over i don’t know. Dude the truth is you just need to tell your evil dream to shut up and you’ll stop having that dream. You’ll figure out what i mean in your own words.

Actually I have had ungodly encounters, So if that were the case, I’d fall back to sleep like nothing. I’ve seen ugly. So nothing new.
& Yes I know what you mean :)
I’ve figured out what I have to do & told my mom to hide my scissors for me until i need to do my eyebrows or something. lol.
thanx though.
xoxo

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