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My wife and I divorced 3 years ago, and we have two kids together. She is a Mexican citizen and my kids are dual citizens. I gave my wife permission to have primary custody and I share joint custody with her. She moved to Mexico and I have to travel there to see them and I have the costs invloved in flyingthem here for summer vacations and so on and so forth. i have spent over $20000 or more in the past 3 years to try and be there for them as they make the transition.
I dated my first cousin and this ofcourse was a surprise to everybody, me included. We fell in Love and have recently broken up due to me trying to be a father who is there for his kids and trying to ease them into their dad having a girlfriend and their new home in a new country away from everything theu new. My ex wife is very vindictive and has accused me of all osrts of things in the past few years and has actually used the distance between me and my kids as a tool to punish me. She has disallowed me on two occasions of me flying to Mexico to see them.
She is here right now and beside me as I type. I am trying to get them closer to me and answerable to our laws instead of Mexico.
My kids are enrolled in school now and will start end of August, I want them to saty here and build roots so my ex can not just pack up and take them away again.
I am at my wits end and I am having really hard problems at home, at work and financially. I declared bankruptcy a few months ago because I stole from Peter to pay Paul for all these trips and child support and other assocuated costs.
I am in Love with the other girl and we can not be together. It is unfair to her to even ask her to wait for me or to be by my side.
I have lost my friend.
My father is in the last stages of terminal cancer and the doctors gave him only a few weeks to live.
My entire world has changed and not for the better.
I do not see any blue sky anymore. I do not see any future with me in it.
Everybody around me is hurting because of the situation and I feel it all my fault.
I feel guilty.
The woman I love hates me now and hates herself for being in my situation. The woman I Loved blames me for every problem in our lives.
I blame myself for hurting everybody and I am filled with thoughts of the end.
Any ideas. I am at a loss.
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