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I’m Falling apart, I’m barely breathing.

School started for me monday, I was so excited! so excited!
I had a guy I liked, there are 8 exchange students this year, it was all going great, until today - my first real day of school.

I was okay through the day, I felt really confident about myself. I told myself, that i didnt build up my selfesteem - what i have of it - just to be torn down again and i kept my head up through the day.

But later on today, I got on webcam in this chat. and people were so rude and mean calling me names - ugly and so on and so on.

for some reason that really tore me. and i feel just…broken.

And then, the guy i liked, I found out he was oone of those types of guys who stood up girls - which he did to me millions of times in the summer,- he is basically just a jerk but i still really like him. .help?
I feel like i am being pulled back into the negativity.
and i don;t want to be.
I want to be strong.
and happy.

I want to walk down the halls of my school with confidence. .
but im not quite sure. how to deal with what im dealing with right now.

help?

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I’m Falling apart, I’m barely breathing.

School started for me monday, I was so excited! so excited!
I had a guy I liked, there are 8 exchange students this year, it was all going great, until today - my first real day of school.

I was okay through the day, I felt really confident about myself. I told myself, that i didnt build up my selfesteem - what i have of it - just to be torn down again and i kept my head up through the day.

But later on today, I got on webcam in this chat. and people were so rude and mean calling me names - ugly and so on and so on.

for some reason that really tore me. and i feel just…broken.

I feel like i am being pulled back into the negativity.
and i don;t want to be.
I want to be strong.
and happy.

I want to walk down the halls of my school with confidence. .
but im not quite sure. how to deal with what im dealing with right now.

help?

x_glitter offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (12 minutes after post)

“Like” is not “love”, So basically, this is something you can overcome. First of all those people were JEALOUS. Hun, You are beautiful & no I’m not saying that to make you feel better :). I won’t say or type anything that’s just out of pity. Second- You stated the obvious. The dude’s a jerk. So picture you with him- If he did that to other girls & he did that to you, shouldn’t you be turning your back? I know it’s hard to back away from what you like, but, face it. Sometimes in life you have to pass the bad apples back. Like one poster posted in my post ( -woah.LOL) “Garbage in, Garbage out”. Throw it out, man! :D You’ll find other guys. ANy guy or girl who treats one another like pure nothingness deserves none of one’s attention. A dirty can will be kicked. Also, don’t believe what other people think about you. It’s an opinion- NOT FACT. ;) People have opinions. But they are not fact. Only you will make it fact in your mind.

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x_glitter offline Verified User (4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (15 minutes after post)

Oh, btw, Although your pic is in black & white, Your eyes really make you stand out >.> …

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*!MaryChan!* offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Denver, CO, US | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (19 minutes after post)

Thanks…

But i think the reason i like him so much is that the moments we’ve shared and the things we’ve done.. ugh. boys are stupid..

and also.

I am having trouble with my family.
everything is so emotional. and i can’t deal with it.
my brother is physcotic sometimes.
my mom loses her head and is in love with her boyfriend- who we just moved out of his house i love him too buttt i just wish they would choose to be together or to be seperated.

It’s difficult when everything is constantly changing emotionally. and i can’t deal with it. I want to cry so bad righ tnow.

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red1263 offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

Ok so you need to take a moment for yourself. as you’re reading this post, just follow my instructions:

Just close your eyes and take slow deep breaths, in and out, slowly. and then slowly open your eyes and keep breathing slowly.

Now, whenever you come across such overbearing odds, never, ever forget to do one simple thing: Breathe.

Because if you can breathe, you can move, if you can move, then you can think, if you can think, you can stand up to any and all odds. All this just by simply breathing

Now no one fighter can take on multiple fights on multiple fronts, the best fighters face each fight one-on-one, so all you need to do is focus on your problems one-on-one, not discarding the others out of the way and forgetting, but focusing 90% of your energy on one problem and when it’s done, focus that same amount on the next problem, almost like a domino effect, and soon you’ll look back and smile at how far you’ve come. You have all the answers already, you just need focus.

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (37 minutes after post)

:/ Aye. I know what you mean. Sometimes I think that maybe if I scoot away from the fam, things would hurt less. Doesnt. Blah. & I know this would sound stupid, But go ahead & cry. Although you’re stuck in the sucky emotions, it’s better than getting the tightness iin your chest from holding it in…I still think about my ex also & how things (would’ve) been okay cause I thought a boy that didn’t have previous relationships would be easier to be with. But he messed me up badly emotionally setting me on a mental dominoe affect. Point to this- We can cherish the good in memories, but in the end, You have to look past it. The bad is bad & the bad will make you worse. Yeah you liked him…Or loved. But if he was suh a jerk, he shouldn’t be someone that’s worthit. You’ll find guys :), But be more cautious next time. …I wish I can help with the family problems you’re going with, but being that I can’t help myself when it comes to it, I can’t help you. :/ I wish I could findthe answers for you. *head+desk* But if you want to vent, I’m always near my keyboard, so if you want, I can give you my email.

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (40 minutes after post)

red1263 wrote:
Ok so you need to take a moment for yourself. as you’re reading this post, just follow my instructions:

Just close your eyes and take slow deep breaths, in and out, slowly. and then slowly open your eyes and keep breathing slowly.

Now, whenever you come across such overbearing odds, never, ever forget to do one simple thing: Breathe.

Because if you can breathe, you can move, if you can move, then you can think, if you can think, you can stand up to any and all odds. All this just by simply breathing

Now no one fighter can take on multiple fights on multiple fronts, the best fighters face each fight one-on-one, so all you need to do is focus on your problems one-on-one, not discarding the others out of the way and forgetting, but focusing 90% of your energy on one problem and when it’s done, focus that same amount on the next problem, almost like a domino effect, and soon you’ll look back and smile at how far you’ve come. You have all the answers already, you just need focus.

Your post reminds me of how I meditate lol… :) You have good points also

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red1263 offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (43 minutes after post)

lol it’s a calming technique that I read about, really works too! (voice of experience)

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

*!MaryChan!* wrote:
Thanks…

But i think the reason i like him so much is that the moments we’ve shared and the things we’ve done.. ugh. boys are stupid..

and also.

I am having trouble with my family.
everything is so emotional. and i can’t deal with it.
my brother is physcotic sometimes.
my mom loses her head and is in love with her boyfriend- who we just moved out of his house i love him too buttt i just wish they would choose to be together or to be seperated.

It’s difficult when everything is constantly changing emotionally. and i can’t deal with it. I want to cry so bad righ tnow.

Also, relating to what I posted to red1263,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ep74qs…
^^^^ I know she looks kinda…eh…But her video for mediation really calms my nerves down when I don’t want to cry but still feel that heaviness. Again- sorry I can’t help with the family issues…

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red1263 offline Verified User (4 months, 3 weeks) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 3 months, 3 weeks ago (51 minutes after post)

x_glitter wrote:

*!MaryChan!* wrote:
Thanks…

But i think the reason i like him so much is that the moments we’ve shared and the things we’ve done.. ugh. boys are stupid..

and also.

I am having trouble with my family.
everything is so emotional. and i can’t deal with it.
my brother is physcotic sometimes.
my mom loses her head and is in love with her boyfriend- who we just moved out of his house i love him too buttt i just wish they would choose to be together or to be seperated.

It’s difficult when everything is constantly changing emotionally. and i can’t deal with it. I want to cry so bad righ tnow.

Also, relating to what I posted to red1263,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ep74qs…
^^^^ I know she looks kinda…eh…But her video for mediation really calms my nerves down when I don’t want to cry but still feel that heaviness. Again- sorry I can’t help with the family issues…

WHOA! She must be fun at parties!

Well Marychan, why don’t you tell us what your family problems, I’m sure someone here can help

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