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dont go back! cutting is horrible!
so dont go back. simple as that. trust me, i know from personal experience that once you start its hard to stop, and once you stop you can re-addict in one cut. thats all it takes to go backwards.
I’m a cutter. I always go through cycles of it. Right now I need to do it like an itch, but sometimes that goes away and I can go weeks with out it. I find that if I force myself not to do it, when something really bad happens I completely massacre my skin… My best advice would be to do it if you HAVE to, but don’t do it just because you feel like you should. No matter how it feels, the scars don’t actually define you.
The thing is i think i stopped for other people.so they would stop worrying or so i wouldnt feel judged.i dont think i stopped for me.i know its bad but i miss it so much.i know it only makes things worse but it somehow also makes them simpler.
It’s easy to miss things when you don’t have them. If you allow yourself to do it, you might find you don’t need at as much as you thought. That happened to me once. I found that it actually hurt. It’d never hurt before.
Honestly,after going without it for almost 2 months,the idea of doing it is actually scary.ive never been afraid of it before.i kind of want to go back because its what im used to but i remember how i felt when i was really deep into it.
Mmm that’s pretty difficult. You really need to figure out why exactly you want to do it, because if it’s just because you want things to be like normal you should stay away. It’s addictive ****.
well. i don’t think you should go back…act like your orginal plan was to not cut until winter…then maybe when winter gets here say “oh what i meant was next spring” keep that up…then maybe you’ll not want to do it anymore..ever.
I know.its like cutting is the only thing that has never really let me down.i would like to be better but i dont know if i deserve to be better.
you do deserve to be better…everyone deserves to love themselves and better themselves. it’s your right as a person.
Anonymous,im 22. think peace,i feel like a terrible person.ive lied alot and i have a tendency to let people down.ive often thought the pain of this depression was my punishment for that.
well. only you can better yourself…so if you did things you shouldn’t have..first realize that everyone makes mistakes, even the nicest person in the world. second tell those people you’re sorry.
and you’re depression is probably more guilt than anything..i know, i’ve been there. just start being the person you know you should be..it’ll make you feel better.
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Anonymous,im 22. think peace,i feel like a terrible person.ive lied alot and i have a tendency to let people down.ive often thought the pain of this depression was my punishment for that.
sorry. that was actually me. oops.i keep forgeting to uncheck the anonymicity box.lol.
im 14. you dont have to feel terrible. did you check out that link yet?
Yea i did.Thanks for that.I actually bookmarked it.
good. if i had found that when i first tried to quit, it would have been a lot easier.
I don’t think you neeed all this ‘you’re a beautiful person’ ****. Like, I’m sure you are but **** it it never makes me feel better. You can look for good things, and you should, but it’s not a fairytale. And I can’t say I want it to be. I like cutting it makes me feel better and it’s how I forgive myself. Make it simple. It’s ******* hard enough as it is, so make it simple. Work on getting yourself up in the morning and not killing yourself. And work on getting better. If cutting helps that, do, if it doesn’t, don’t.
Hey SpazzySpizzy, thanks for your post on my problem. Listen, I have been where you are, and I think from what you say in your posts that you already know that cutting isn’t a way of life that you should follow. When you are cutting, starving yourself, or whatever it is you choose to do, its like you lock out the world that is hurting you, and join another society - you may feel an affinity with other people who have similar lifestyles, maybe you talk to them online, know them in person, or even just know that they are out there and they are just like you. But the key that I have found is regular people: anytime you feel depressed, or want to cut, you have to immediately go and be with regular non-depressed people, even if you don’t really want to, and even if its 4am. There is someone (or maybe more than one person) in this world who loves you enough that you can ask them to be there for you if you should wake them at 4am. Thats just the start. Fend off each instance when you want to cut by going to where people are (if you really can’t face people then try a movie, especially fantasy, which takes you out of the real world for a couple of hours). But for help in the long run, see a shrink. Honestly, it worked for me. You don’t have to tell her you cut at first, you might not tell her that for a year. Start as slow as you want, tell her whats bothering you. Otherwise you will be treating the symptoms, but not the cause.
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Then it is time to stop for YOU!!! Stopping for you is the best reason there is. There is only one Spazzy, one you. You are the reason…no way you can go back now!!! The center must hold…hold onto you……hold on Spazzy.
Im trying really hard.But sometimes it hurts if i hold on too tight.
Dont go back you have come this far you dont need to do it.
i know its different for everyone, we all have different reasons for doing it but i know that if i could stop myself, i would do my best not to return to it, i know it must have been hard for you. but i think you should be proud of yourself, 2 months without it, that must have taken effort. If its possible not to go back, don’t. i know its not an easy decision.
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