Hello friend,
The first thing you need to do is not fear becoming a failure. You are already far more of a success than you realize. Your recognition for your mother’s situation shows you have understanding and empathy beyond your years. That marks you as a success not only as a daughter, but as a human being. Your compassion and dedication for your little brothers means you are a success both as a sister and as a future mother yourself. And, despite all the stress that surrounds you, you are still trying to better yourself through schooling. That means you are WAY more successful then any of your peers who have everything handed to them, but who abuse it.
As for your own situation, you are obviously literate given the posting you made, so I will assume you are either in High school or College. I obviously don’t know your family situation or personal background, but if you feel trusting enough, I’d seek the advice of a guidance counselor at school, who may be able to provide you with some concrete tools that can help you resolve some of these issues. That can range from private tutors who work on YOUR schedule, to pointing you to some potential sources of assisted income, to help ease what I assume are several financial burdens in your life.
Often the hardest part of feeling like a failure isn’t the results we see around us, but the fear associated with the stigma of asking for help. Hell, even the President of the United States needs help to do the simplest of jobs. That’s why he has a cabinet and vice-president, right? Don’t be afraid to ask for help, and don’t think that it marks you as weak, or as betraying your family’s trust.
You are very obviously smart. You’d not have sought out advice if you weren’t. Go with that… go with your gut, and get the asitance your family needs. Do it for your mom, and do it for your brothers, but mostly, do it because YOU deserve help as much as they do.
I’d wish you luck, but I already know you will succeed at this. I have faith in you!
I hope this helps,
ADHDonovan