I don’t know what I want from you. - Help.com

Ferocca wrote:
Think what you want to reach in your life. Which things you don’t want in your life and which things you do want in your life. Then try to reach that.

That’s the problem. I already know what I want and what I don’t want in my life. I mean, obviously there are still blank spots but I have a pretty good idea. That’s why I just don’t know why I’m still like this…why sometimes–less these days, it’s true–I just fall apart, or start to anyway, and start to really desperately need someone in my life who I feel I can rely on sometimes.

[think peace wrote:
]laugh. look up. realize that you’re being really silly. think of all the things good in your life. smile and go on.

That’s what I do all the time. Maybe for once I’m tired of it. I feel so fake.

Ferocca wrote:
I recognize that. I have no clue as well. Maybe we miss something in our brain, like we don’t make enough dopamine.

Maybe, haha. I know I’ll be over myself by tomorrow, but sometimes it’s just so frustrating…I’m tired of this stupid cycle.

Eddieee wrote:
This heart is pond
In the winter you could skate on
All this peace
It’s me

This heart of mine
It doesn’t mean anything at all
Strip away the ugliness
It is me

It doesn’t mean much
Or anything at all
All this cold
Shall we fish

My pond
Is yours
It’s all I have
It’s me

I surrender
Shall I be the one to fall
In this water
Should you have me drown

It’s me you thrown down
All this water
All around
It was me

I like this but…I’m trying to understand your meaning better. I feel dim lol…I’ll keep reading it over and over again. Some of it I understand, though. I see some things.

Still, very good.

Eddieee wrote:
I meant to say stand up when you can, fall only if you must. Don’t let this world get you down. There are many that will wish you drowned. Keep skating anyway, stay strong…Skate! :)

Thank you (: I feel better today. I got up again. That’s the only thing to do, isn’t there? Just keep moving on.
My favorite quote by far is this:
In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.
-Robert Frost

Thanks for the encouraging words. And the poem! I’ll never stop enjoying those.

Eddieee wrote:
I love Robert Frost. I feel this one very much…

Nothing Gold can stay:

Nature’s first green is gold

Her hardest hue to hold

Her early leaf’s a flower;

But only so an hour.

Then leaf subsides to leaf.

So Eden sank to grief,

So dawn goes down to day.

Nothing gold can stay.

I confess I don’t read much of his poems, I’ve read some but not many. Never came across this one before. It’s very nice.

I like Henry Wadsworth Longfellow…

This one, The Light Of Stars:

The night is come, but not too soon;
And sinking silently,
All silently, the little moon
Drops down behind the sky.

There is no light in earth or heaven
But the cold light of stars;
And the first watch of night is given
To the red planet Mars.

Is it the tender star of love?
The star of love and dreams?
O no! from that blue tent above,
A hero’s armor gleams.

And earnest thoughts within me rise,
When I behold afar,
Suspended in the evening skies,
The shield of that red star.

O star of strength! I see thee stand
And smile upon my pain;
Thou beckonest with thy mailed hand,
And I am strong again.

Within my breast there is no light
But the cold light of stars;
I give the first watch of the night
To the red planet Mars.

The star of the unconquered will,
He rises in my breast,
Serene, and resolute, and still,
And calm, and self-possessed.

And thou, too, whosoe’er thou art,
That readest this brief psalm,
As one by one thy hopes depart,
Be resolute and calm.

O fear not in a world like this,
And thou shalt know erelong,
Know how sublime a thing it is
To suffer and be strong.

Eddieee wrote:
How we all suffer so… I loved it. Thank you.

Yes. Other poets play with words so much more eloquently than I do (: Glad you liked it as much as I did.

Eddieee wrote:
You really must be having a bad day. Your poems are great. I love reading them :)
Are you ok?

Ohh wait a sec. That poem I showed you was most definitely not mine. That’s Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, dear.

Well, as a matter of fact I’ve had a fairly decent day. Until some idiot texted me and kind of threw me off guard. Just have a lot on my mind. Too much to contend with. Too much to write. Thanks for asking though (:

Eddieee wrote:
I know “The light fo the stars” was not yours. I meant your poems…your words…silly :) I am sorry you have been left off guard. I only meant you seemed not yourself. Now I know why. I hope your tomorrow is better…

Thank you!
Oh, haha, and thanks for saying my poems are good too haha.

How are you?

Eddieee wrote:
Of late I am best when I am dreaming…That will change soon. Soon has a date..Oct 20th. But that is another story. I am waiting for life to start. Until then I am merely holding on :)

Ohh I know how that is. Sometimes when I wake up I wish I hadn’t, just so I could spend longer on a good dream.
What starts on Oct. 20th?

I, too, am waiting for life to start. It starts soon, too. But it doesn’t have a date. :P