Thinking about going off medication.

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Thinking about going off medication.

I’ve been on an antidepressant for a few months - a very low dose, since my body is extremely sensitive to it. I used to go through horrible periods of depression where I felt life just wasn’t worth living, even if I knew differently. I was always strong enough to pull myself through it, but they were slowly wearing me down.
The problem: since starting on the medication, my moods become almost too stable. I’m not depressed any more, but I’m seldom happy about things either. I don’t find myself enjoying things I know I like, it’s harder to form opinions, I don’t feel that I have any ambition. True, similar things happened in my periods of depression (plus sadness and weakness etc.) but at least there were equally happy times. Those were the times that I lived for.
I’ve talked with my psychologist about this. She recommends slowly weaning me off the pills instead of just cutting me off, so no danger there. Thing is, I’m not sure if I really want to go back to the depressed periods. If you’ve heard from me during those times in the past you know they get really bad. Should I take the risk? Is the bland life what I should strive for? Or am I just screwed either way? Not sure what to do with myself, really.
I’d appreciate any thoughts.

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A_Person 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (11 minutes after post)

that sounds like an incredibly difficult situation. perhaps there is another medication that can work for you in a better way? or another strategy?

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An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (14 minutes after post)

I’m not an expert on depression, but I have had mild cases of it myself. I think you should definitely wean off of the pills…they’re not natural, and will eventually suck the life out of you. But i also really think that you can fight it. I was going through a really depressed period in my life, and the only thing that got me off of it was changing my location and surroundings. So idk what might work for you, but with a positive attitude and a establishing a certain goal to strive for, you just might be able to climb out of this nasty hole! I believe in you!

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Anonymous #
3 months ago (47 minutes after post)

you need to find the underline cause of your depression, is it your job? if so quit your job stay on the anti depressents for a while for like 2 3 weeks after you quit then slowly weind of them. that should help with it, if it isn’t your job and its some1 you know who is doing it to you, then tell em to fu** off, basicly do anything to sort out the underline cause

Shakeybritches 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (58 minutes after post)

Are you in therapy? Sometimes cognitive behavioral therapy works wonders for folks. I would recommend that you talk more with your Dr. but I can completely understand your thinking in this. I have been med-free for just about a year now. I am learning to deal with my innermost thoughts and that is helping me tremendously.

I wish you the best and hope you find that place in life you desire.

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An Unknown Location | 3 months ago (1 hour, 4 minutes after post)

Also, talk to your doc about your meds. There are a bunch of different anti-depressant medicines out there, and a different one may not cause the problems the one you’re on currently is. Counseling is a great idea, too.

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Nine is alive 4 #
CA | 3 months ago (2 hours, 29 minutes after post)

The problem is I’m not exactly normal. My depression is ultimately caused by something very painful buried deep in me and the subsequent disorder that put it there. Dealing with it is going to take a long time, and it won’t be easy. I guess we’ve come to terms with that. In the meantime, I have to live with the holes it’s tearing in my life…
I wasn’t too happy about getting on medication in the first place. I hate the thought of chemicals in my brain. I went through all sorts of awful things while adjusting; my body is VERY sensitive to it. I’m scared to try that again.

Shakeybritches 2 #
An Undisclosed Location | 3 months ago (2 hours, 34 minutes after post)

Normal? I feel as though I am not normal at times. But there are so many people hurting that do not admit that they feel as though they are not normal also.

Please tell me more if you feel comfortable.

Medication was a two edged sword for me. On one hand it “calmed” me. On the other hand, it took my life away.

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Winnipeg, MB, CA | 3 months ago (4 hours, 29 minutes after post)

You need a different antidepressant. They don’t all work (feel) the same.

Or try 5HTP (from a heath food store)

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An Unknown Location | 2 months, 3 weeks ago (1 week after post)

hmmm. i think you should, just when your going off them, think of things that keep you happy. and always be an optomist, and then you will forget the dark in the world. trust me [: 3

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